February 6th 2005 11:24 pm
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It's been nearly a year since you've made your way into doggie heaven yet I think about you all of the time. You are still very much a part of me and you always will be. You were my best friend since I was 4 years old. I wish so much that I could have you back for one day. That I could hold you in my arms again and look deeply into your brown eyes and tell you how much I love you. I know you can't hear my words, but I'm sure you'll hear my heart. I wish you could've stayed alive forever so we could grow old together. I don't think it's fair that dogs age so quickly. I love you so much baby girl, so much.
I watched the video I made about you 2 years before we had to put you down the other day. I sobbed and sobbed at the sight of you alive and movie.. fetching your toys with your big floppy paws.
Since you've been gone you've gained a new baby brother. I know you've watched down on me and seen me with him. You would hate him, trust me darling. You never did like other dogs, especially hyper dogs and boy is he hyper! I had to get him though, even though I wasn't completely through mourning over you. See, in some way I believed that he carries your soul. He was given to me as a gift from God. He was born nearly a month after you left. He found his way to me, even if he had to suffer a few traumatizing events. His name is Tobey and he's a cocker spaniel too. He's a little hard to handle because I'm not used to the hyperness of a puppy, but he and I are doing fine together. He would've loved to have known you, I'm sure of it.
Sometimes I get sad and I wish so badly that you were here. You were my emotional support, you really were. You know how mom and dad are.. they're no good. It was me and you, always. You would always let me tell you my problems, and cry with you. You made me feel better because your big brown eyes always comforted me.
Okay. I'm going to stop writing to you for now. I'll write you again baby, I promise. I love you baby girl.
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