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"Don't cry because I am gone, smile because I was there."

song

"In Loving Memory"

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Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
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I recently heard this song for the first time, and I absolutely love it..
August 24th was the 4th annivesary of Felony's date of passing. I miss him more than anything, and still have vivid nightmares about what I saw that day.. I now have a new girl named Alize', and I do believe that Felony sent her to me.. I took her to his favorite park on his "anniversary", and we spent a very special day together.

Rest in Peace my Angel Boy.

Well, on Tuesday, August 24th, I had a lot of places I had to go, but I didn't think I would be gone as long as I was, so I put him in his crate and my 2 girls in their crates in my room, and went on my way......

My mom said they were all barking and getting on her nerves, so she let them outside and then had to go do some stuff, so she let them out in the back yard, and just left... I do that too if we are only going to be gone for like 30 minutes, but, not when we are going to be gone as long as we all were.

Well, when I got home, they weren't in their crates, so I went outside to let them in so I could feed all of them, and Felony ALWAYS comes running to me, but he didn't so, I was immediately worried...
I went all over the yard looking for him, figuring he was just sleeping somewhere and didn't hear me go out....
Then I got to the very back of the yard, and looked behind my moms green house, and I found him... I figured he was just laying there, and even thought that I saw him breathing. So, I bent down to shake him to wake him up, and thought maybe he was just really hot, and needed to be cooled off...
But when I got a closer look, there was some foamy stuff coming out of his mouth and nose, and I looked in his mouth to see if there was something stuck in his throat or something, and I noticed that there was blood on his tongue and his gums were bleeding... I started screaming and crying, and then went running to one my neighbors house to get him to help me get Felony in the car so I could bring him to the vet.
They told me that he had passed away a couple of hours ago at least, and that they thought maybe he had been poisoned (which was my first thoughts as well.).

We had a necropsy done, and the cause of death was from being poisoned by rat poison, anti-freeze, and from a heat stroke. We don't have either one of those things any where around my house or garage that he could have gotten in to...

He was buried out at my uncles farm, under his big willow tree. I carved his name in the tree., and I had a small headstone made for him... I wrapped him in his favorite blanket, and put his favorite toy, and the 2nd collar I ever bought for him in there with him.... and I have his very first collar hanging on my rearview mirror in my car with his tags on it.

Sleep sweetly my baby boy.... I love you, and always will...

// February 22, 2004 to August 24, 2004 \