"REST IN PEACE SWEET ANGEL, FREE FROM PAIN AT LAST.YOU ARE MISSED SO MUCH. I KNOW I'LL GET TO HOLD YOU AGAIN ONE DAY AT THE RAINBOW BRIDGE, UNTIL THEN MY HEAT IS BREAKING."
"Me in my new pajamas-my brother has a blue matching one! My mom seems to think it's cute-I think I'll just keep my opinion to myself for now-maybe it's too soon to judge (but I doubt it)"
Birthday: July 11th 1993 Likes: being cuddled and eating! and eating and being cuddled! and being cuddled and eating! and did I already mention eating and being cuddled? Favorite Toy: unfortunately, Fawn never had the opportunity to learn to have fun until now, so she really doesn't know how to play Favorite Food: anything and everything, especially treats! Favorite Walk: wherever Mommy is going Arrival Story: Fawn was born into slavery. Her life was horrible, beyond anything we can even imagine. Her mind and her body and her spirit were broken! She never felt the softness of a hug, never enjoyed the feel of grass under her feet, never tasted a good meal. Her sole purpose was to make money by being forced to make puppies-over & over & over again. Almost all those puppies were sold at pet stores. But, thanks to some wonderful folks at a rescue, Fawn is now able to live. I say live, because all she did before was survive. Now she does more than just exists. She is no longer in pain nor tortured. Thanks to all the love, patience and hard work of her Foster parents, even though she is now nearly blind and deaf and toothless, her spirit is now great! I thought it would be appropriate to have Fawn's Foster Mom tell you about Fawn's beginnings.
Fawn came into rescue with Puppymillrescue.com on July 11, 2006. She was a matted, flea infested, burr covered, emaciated, weak and scared little lady who weighed only 5 lbs. She was taken to the vet immediately and they had to sedate her to shave her fur off all the way down to the skin. As she was examined it became very obvious she had been the mother to many, many litters for many, many years. She had two large mammary tumors and a golf ball sized hernia. She was completely blind in one eye and appeared to be hard of hearing. Her few teeth that were left were in horrendous condition. She would scream in fear when you touched her. It was obvious that Fawn had never known love or care but had been used to make money having babies for her captor and when she was all used up, she had been dumped to die.
An appointment was made immediately to have Fawn spayed and have the tumors and the hernia removed. She did very well with the surgeries and luckily the biopsies came back benign. As Fawn recuperated from her surgery, she learned what good food, soft beds, love, care and affection means. After many, many months, she realized she would never be hurt again. Fawn stopped being afraid of touch and she got to where she craved love and affection. She attached to her foster Dad and would happily await his arrival every evening and demand that he pick her up and put her in the recliner beside him to watch TV. Although Fawn was very loved by her foster family, we knew this was not the "perfect" home for her. With a houseful of other dogs (almost all rescues and fosters), Fawn could not get the one on one attention she craved and deserved. Finally, after a period of 18 months, we received an email from that "perfect" forever family for Fawn. I knew as soon as I read the email that this was the one. As I did the reference checks and the interview and waited for the home visit, my heart was telling me this is it!!! And, it was. Her new Mom flew to TX from MD to pick her up and carry her home with her in the plane. The rest is history.
Fawn is an Angel that has been lent to us. We don't know for how long, but we do know we will love her forever and make the most of our time together.
PLEASE don't shop...adopt! Please save lives-spay & neuter! Bio: As they say on the web site of Puppmillrescue "save one, until there's none"
While walking down the beach, a man saw someone in the distance leaning down, picking something up and throwing it in the ocean.
As he came closer, he saw thousands of starfish the tide had thrown onto the beach. Unable to return to the ocean during low tide, the starfish were dying.
He observed a young boy picking up the starfish one by one and throwing them back into the ocean.
After watching the seemingly futile effort, the observer said,
"There must be thousands of starfish on the beach. It would be impossible for you to save all of them. There are simply too many. You can't possibly save enough to make a difference."
The young boy smiled as he picked up another starfish and tossed it back into the ocean.
"It made a difference to that one," he replied.
Paraphrased from "The Star Thrower" by Loren Eiseley, 1907 – 1977 The Groups I'm In: ☆Rainbow Bridge Pals.•*:•.★, *¨¨*DOGGIE CONNECTION*¨¨*, FANCYPANTS CAFE, Febreze® Pet Odor Eliminator™, P*I*F (Paw it Forward), ~~~*♥Dog Park USA♥*~~~
My life is likely to last 10-15 years so PLEASE : think before you get me (and let it be from a rescue or shelter). And when you're sure I'm the one you want in your life, then lets journey down that road of life side by side with UNCONDITIONAL AND CONSTANT LOVE. Always remember that I love you. You are my world. To me, you are everything so let it be everything good such as food, water, shelter, gentle and frequent touches, true companionship. I have so much love to give to you! It may be hard to remember or understand, but even regular separation from you will be painful and can even cause depression or other behavior problems that I can't help, so if you can't help but leave me, make it short and help me through it. Give me time to understand what you want from me. Don't be impatient, short-tempered or irritable. To me, it's harder than being thrown into a strange country and having to learn a foreign language and all the customs! Place your trust in me and I will always trust you back, respect is earned not given as some sort of inalienable right. Don't be angry with me for long, and don't lock me up as punishment. I am not capable of understanding why I am being locked up. I only know I have been rejected. You have your work, entertainment and friends. I only have you. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your tone. "You only have to look at my tail" to know that. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget: if that treatment is unjust or bad, it may spoil the special bond between us. Please do not hit me. I cannot hit back, but I can bite and scratch if I feel I must survive and I don't ever want to feel the need to do that. I want to please you more than anything, but I don't want to do it because I fear you. IDon't let my past throw shadows of doubt and fear across our joyful path: give me a chance and I can be so forgiving and will treat you as the individual you are. Before you tell me off for being uncooperative, obstinate, or lazy, ask yourself if something might be wrong with me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food or I've been out in the sun too long, maybe my heart is getting old and weak, or maybe I'm just dog-tired, or maybe I'm bored and have too much energy or anxiety. I can't tell you what's wrong, so you must trust that I'd never do wrong intentionally. Take care of me when I get old. One day you too will grow old and will also want care, love, and affection. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say, "I can't bear to watch" or "Let it happen in my absence". Everything is easier for me if you are there. Remember, I will always love you for being there with me.
God leant to me an Angel, with brown eyes and golden hair, long legs and an upturned nose, I couldn't help but care. She was so very special, but misery she had been foced to bare. Gods leant to me an Angel, and her life had filled me with rage, she was just too precious, to have spent her life in a cage! God leant to me an Angel, but today we had to part, and all my Fawn had to take with her, was the biggest piece of my heart. God leant to me an Angel, to love and to cherish. "Stay with me a little longer", was my only unfilled wish. God "leant" to me an Angel, but I wanted the word to be "give". I know this may sound selfish, but I wanted her to live & live & live. God leant to me an Angel, someone to fill me heart. I just don't understand this, why did we have to part? God leant to me an Angel, there was so much I wanted her to see. Her time to do this was too short, Oh how could this be? God leant to me an Angel, someone for me to love. And for our short time together, I must truely thank Him above. God leant to me an Angel, I just had to stop and ponder, just what was it I did to deserve her, she truly was a wonder. God leant to me an Angel, to some she was "just a dog", and to those unfeeling people I say: is is no coincidence, God spelled backwards is dog! God sent to me an Angel, and all that He ever asked, was that I love & care for her, it was my only task. I tried to do as God had asked me, and in my heart I know, He'll give to her peace and good health, and He'll give me a reward: the chance for her to once again be with me. Now that's the greatest wealth. God gave to me an Angel, He truested me with her care. The horrors that she had endured, were more than you or I could bear. God gave to me an Angel, He told me to love her, to hug her, to show her what life could be. Now if only he'd given us more time, there was so much more for her to see. God leant to me an Angel, no more suffering would she bear. I am so very blessed, He trusted me with her care. God leant to me an Angel, I thought with me she'd finally found a home. But now I must let her be free to roam, in what turely is "her FOREVER home". God leant to me an Angel, but he called her home today. Now there's nothing anyone can say, to take this unbearable pain away. God leant to me an Angel, but un-beknownst to me how many of her days were numbered. And now I have to send my baby girl to her final slumber. God leant to me an Angel, she brought sun to me every day. But now God called home by borrowed Angel, and my whole world seems cold & gray. God leant to me an Angel, it was for a very short time, still I loved her and I hugged her and called to Him "she's mine". God leant to me an Angel, but I forgot that someday this time would finally come, for she is ony a borrowed Angel and thus she is His, not mine. But still I will love her, until the end of time. God leant to me an Angel, it seems for just a day. Now all I can say is "fly free my baby girl", to Him this is what I pray. God leant to me an Angel, now I cry in so much pain. But I know that someday, God will send another Angel, and I will love again. I know that it too will only be borrowed, and I will cry once again. God sent to me an Angel, and now as I cry, all I can ask with a sigh is why God? oh why, oh why? God called home my borrowed Angel, she's gone swiftly on her way. Now that all I can do for her, is pray and pray and pray.God leant to me an Angel, I'll see her again I hope, but right this very minute, I need the strength to cope. God leant to me an Angel, but only for awhile. Still I thank God for the joy of you, you always made me smile. God leant to me an Angel, it was not long enough. The time I am without you, is just way too rough.God leant to me an Angel, and sadly she is gone. God lean to me an Angel, my baby girl Miss Fawn!
God leant to me an Angel, so strong & brave was she, even though most of her life, all she knew was misery. God leant to me an Angel, but she was only for me to borrow, and now that God has called her home, I'm left with so much sorrow. God leant to me an Angel, I wanted her to know, her life was not in vein. I'm glad she didn't leave me before I got to tell her she touched my heart and was loved much more thn she will ever know. God leant to me an Angel, he gave me the chance to make up for the disgrace, of all the horrors brought upon her by some of the monsters in our human race. God leant to me am Angel, I knew for not how long, and so I spent my time, trying to make up for all that she'd been wronged. God leant to me an Angel, but it was not for near long enough, and so saying goodbye to her now is so very, very tough. God leant to me an Angel, I wonder if he knew, we would be so good for each other. God has called home my Angel, Oh God now what am I to do? God leant to me an Angel, but for me he called her home to soon. How will I fill this void in my life, it is much bigger than her empty room. God how could you do this? I need your help to get through this, she's simple gone too soon! God leant to me an Angel, and now my babygirl runs pain free, I know someday I'll see her, running right back to me. God leant to me an Angel, her life had been full of pain, he trusted me to love her, so she'd never be hurt again. God leant to me an Angel, didn't he know I'd feel it was not long enough? Didn't he know this pain would be just way, way too rough? God leant to me an Angel, why did it have to be, that her time to enjoy life and be with me, was so short before she had to fly free? God leant to me an Angel, did he know she'd be so tough? Did he know I could never love her enough? Did he know my days and nights with out her, would be more than just too much? God lent to me an Angel, today she flew from my arms to His, I just don't understand this, but I guess it was his wish. And so today I had to give her one very last kiss, and try to explain to her just how much she would be missed. God leant to me an Angel, so slender and so petite, so determined and so strong. I wish that He had warned me, it wouldn't be for long. He called her home and left me weak, and now an explination I do seek. God leant to me an Angel, and sadly she is gone. God lean to me an Angel, my baby girl Miss Fawn!
After Fawn went to the Bridge, I was wracked with such deep, deep pain. Her suffering was so senseless, and her forgiveness was so amazing!!! I spent hour upon hour writing about her. Much time has passed, and I feel it would be an injustice to Fawn if I did not share with others how wonderful she was. So I think I will finally be able to share some writings about her now. I hope that those of you that read this will realize how wonderful and brave she was, what a difference she made in my life. And I hope you will help me spread the word that rescued dogs, and senior dogs, are so deserving of our love and so please give them a second chance at life and give them a forever home. And I most especially hope that you will help me in my fight to insure that Fawn's passing was not in vain by doing all that you can to educate others about the horrors these dogs endure, tell everyone you know to tell everyone that they know to please, please do all that you can to end puppymills!!
