Sex: Male Weight: 11-25 lbs
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Barnsworm, Stinkworm, Barnsworth, Bah-nee, Barnski, Wormski, Wormsy, Wormser, Sir Stink-a-lot
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December 15th 1998
I like to follow my mommy wherever she goes and I like to sleep
I don't like other dogs taking my parents' attention and I don't like strange men who come to the door
Toys don't interest me
I like it all
Anywhere with my parents
I like to pretend I'm a worm by squirming on the ground. I also like to give hugs. I consider myself a great sniffer and explorer.
Adopted from the Riverside animal shelter. My handsome mug was posted online and my mommy saw it and told daddy she wanted to go see me. I could feel they were coming that day and when they arrived at the part of the shelter I was in, I made sure to bark real loud, louder and deeper than any of the other dogs (big and small) in there because I was towards the back in one of the further kennel cages and I wanted to make sure they found me.
I must have had some trauma coming into the shelter because less than 2 months after I was adopted, they found out I had a diaphragmatic hernia and I had to have emergency surgery performed to fix it. That was almost 4 years ago. The shelter had told my parents I was 1 1/2 years old but I was really probably closer to 5 or 6 truth be told.
I've been pretty healthy since the surgery but recently the vet just diagnosed me with lymphosarcoma. My parents seemed pretty worried but I know they love me and will do what is best for me. So that was on Friday, May 9th. On Saturday, I started chemotherapy already. The people at the hospital said I was really sweet. My parents say I'm really brave.
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Apple Valley Dog Lovers, Dogs with Cancer, LIVING with cancer, ~~~*♥Dog Park USA♥*~~~
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June 2nd 2009 3:36 pm
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Today was the day Mommy & Daddy said good bye to me as I crossed the rainbow bridge a year ago. Today is also Mommy & Daddy's 8th wedding anniversary. I'm sending them stinky doggy kisses from heaven. I'm having a good time watching over everyone - Mommy & Daddy are babysitting Charlie & Tara (grandma & grandpa's doggies) this week. Looks like a full house! Funny to see all 4 dogs in bed with Mommy especially since Tara is so big (she's a siberian husky). That would never happen if I was there - I liked having Mommy all to myself.
I know Mommy & Daddy still miss me - I saw Mommy shedding a few tears for me this weekend as she thought about my last weekend at home. I wish I could lick up those tears from her face for her. I wonder if she'll ever stop feeling the sadness?
June 10th 2008 8:24 am
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Mama talks to me a lot even though I'm up here on Rainbow Bridge. I can see that she misses me. But she asked me if I felt it was ok for her and Daddy to welcome a new dog into the family. Of course I said yes! I was so lucky that they saved me from that stinky old shelter 4 years ago. I didn't know what it was like to be part of a family, to be allowed to lay on the couch and the bed, to be given kisses and held and loved. Allowing another doggy to experience that is the right thing to do! I know I'll always have a special place in their hearts and I know they aren't trying to replace me. Because honestly, how can you ever truly replace a dog as handsome as me? Woof! Hopefully the little doggy they adopt will love them as much as I do. I'm sure Cowboy will be happy too. I saw the doggy they are planning to adopt and he seems pretty cute, a little active for my tastes. *lol* But I never was a very active dog. He's going to be one lucky pup, that is one thing I'm certain of.
June 3rd 2008 10:07 am
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We did end up going to All Care and having them do the euthanasia procedure there. We didn't have any luck finding a vet who would service Apple Valley and my parents' vet was not going to be in the office until Wednesday and we didn't want to prolong Barney's suffering any longer.
But my mom and my younger brother were able to come home from work to say good bye to Barney in person. We had to drop Cowboy off at their house first because he would have been too anxious at the vet and we wanted to make sure Barney's last moments with us were as loving & peaceful as possible. Cowboy, Charlie & Tara all got to sniff him good bye as well though at home. I think Cowboy senses that Barney is gone but I'm not sure it has really sunk in for him yet. We brought back his collar and let him sniff it and he just gave us this look that seemed to say that he understood.
Barney tried to get up a few times in the exam room. We had him in his bed on the table but he kept trying to get up so I let him walk the best he could around the room. He seemed disoriented and quite anxious, he started panting pretty heavily in the waiting room. He's normally very calm when we're at the vet so I think he sensed something was different about that day.
When the oncologist came into the room, I think he had already been told by the reception tech that we thought that it would be Barney's day to go. He offered his apologies and acknowledged the frustration with how his particular cancer did not react as expected each step of the way. I'm thankful no one tried to talk us out of it nor did they suggest any further tests or treatment. Everyone just understood that Barney gave a good fight and that's all we could ask from him.
The people at All Care, especially the 2 chemotherapy techs , Renee & Lynette, whose laps Barney laid in during treatments, really loved Barney because he was such a sweetheart. So I'm glad we decided to come down because in the past month, they were all familiar faces to Barney. They all got to say good bye as well as they were the ones who came in to prepare him with the IV and catheter.
We asked for a private cremation and will probably spread his ashes when we are ready. He loved exploring the ledge above our rock slope in the backyard so maybe we'll do it there in his memory.
I am really trying to focus on all the happy memories we have with Barney. All his cute antics. All his funny quirks. It's helping me to deal with this loss. The house definitely feels different. As we drove home last night, I had Cowboy in my lap and started to fall asleep. I jerked awake and for a moment, I thought I was holding Barney. It feels a little surreal still. I got out of the shower this morning and immediately looked to my side of the closet to see if he was laying on the carpet there waiting for me out of habit. I miss him so much. It's hard to believe he won't be trying to get head pats as I put on my make-up in the morning or that he won't be laying by my feet on the couch as we're watching tv. It's hard to believe I won't hear his deep loud bark anymore whenever someone rings the doorbell. I'm going to try and write a list of Barney memories with my husband so as the time passes and memories start to fade, we'll still have it written down to remind us over the years.
Seems mighty unfair that our dogs live for such a short amount of time on earth. But what a mighty impact they make in our hearts during that short amount of time...
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