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Amelie, My Angel.

A hard day...

Today has been particularly hard, Amelie. That song that reminds me of you came on while I was on my way home and knowing that you wouldn't be there broke my heart. I miss you so much. I keep going back to that day and thinking that maybe I acted too soon. Maybe I should have waited it out. Maybe there was some chance you could have gotten better....even though everyone told me you'd just get worse. Daddy tell's me you wouldn't like me feeling so regretful and blaming myself, but who else do I have to blame?
This shouldn't have happened to you, and the irony of the situation is that you're the only one I wan't to hold and cuddle with to make all the pain go away. You were always there for me when I was sad- Like you knew the feeling, even though everytime I saw you you were always the happiest dog in the world!
You were such a sweet girl. You were my best friend. I pictured you being with me for so much longer. I figured you'd be pregnant with your puppies while I was pregnant with my first child and I could see us there sitting on the couch together waiting for Daddy to come home, all fat and tired, totally comiserating. lol.
Such hopes and dreams of you being my children's favorite compainion, of being with me for YEARS.....of having puppies, and getting old, living a full life. I don't know why that was taken away from us, but I do know that where you are there is sunshine and love all around you. Flowers, and squirrels, and all the chew toys you could ask for. I know I'll see you again someday.
I miss you so much, baby girl! Keep warm, sweet heart. I know there are plenty of doggies to play with up there, and so much to do! I love you.
God, give me strength to make it through this day.....I miss you so much, Amelie.

Love,
Mommy

I've got wings!!!!

Thank you so much, Putter, for making me these beautiful wings! I can't wait to get to playing with all my friends at Rainbow Bridge! I am so happy!!!!!

Love,
Amelie

In Memory of the best dog ever!

I made this site because I loved my sweet little girl so much I thought she deserved to have something out there in honor of her memory. It inspired me also to make profiles for my two new puppies she never met.

Amelie was the perfect dog. She was my sweet little angel, my child, my best friend. Anytime I was sad or sick she would stay right by my side and cuddle. She loved to be cuddled, and loved being held like a baby. Losing her was like losing a piece of myself, and to be honest I would have prefered that to be the case. I know it sounds crazy to love an animal this much but I spent so much time with her. I gave her all the love I had. She was always with me, hugging me (she would litterally put her paws around my neck or arm), cuddling with me, playing fetch with me, entertaining me with her crazy antics like begging for a bath and then running like a lunitic all over the house to get dry. She was the sweetest dog ever. She will be forever in my heart.

It is so tragic what happened to her. She was only three years old. She had been so strong and fiesty, and full of life for so long...just two days befor she died she had been playing fetch with me around the house while I was cleaning.....I had to throw whatever toy she brought to me between cleanings because she just couldn't sit still. And then the next day she woke up weak, and tired, and couldn't eat or drink. We took her to the hospital, ran tests and eventually discovered that she had a blood disease, some type of anemia in which her red cells were being destroyed by her white blood cells, and had almost no chance of making it. I was so devastated. I couldn't believe that his could happen to us. I gave her everything. I treated her so well and loved her so much. She was the sweetest and most amazing dog in the world. She loved everyone and truely believed that everyone loved her, and deserved her love. She spread light and sunshine everywhere she went, to everyone she made contact with, and of all the things I could imagine happening to her....I couldn't believe she could die.

We had to put her down to prevent a slow and painful death. She died holding her first toy, Lambie, who she was later layed to rest with, and with me and her daddy petting her. She has a shrine in our room surrounded with pictures of her, her sisters and her mommy. I take comfort in the fact that I loved her so much and that there is the possibility that she is in a better place, chasing chew toys and knowing that wherever she is, her daddy and I will always love her with all our hearts and that someday we will see her sweet little face again. I can't wait till that day, but until then I will honor her memory by living life to the fullest just like she did, and by trying my hardest to spread life and love whereever I go.

Lauren (Amelie's Mommy)