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My New Home and New Beginnings

My Sweet Miracle

I'm so sorry I didn't post this on your Rainbow Bridge Crossing day, but was spending the day with Spike at the Referral Center in Mandeville and then at the holistic vet's office just outside of New Orleans. I wrote this before we knew Spike has cancer. Today was the first day I had problems with him eating so I was browsing through my notes from the vet's office and came across this letter I'd written to you. Here it is:

Dear Miracle,

Where has the year gone? It seems like only yesterday we rescued you from the pound. My plans to fatten you up a bit and get you back to good health began once Spike approved of you being in the house. This is making me teary eyed because I find it hard to let go, despite knowing you are in a better place today. I am happy we were able to make you feel loved before you crossed Rainbow Bridge. We had almost six months with you and like the blink of an eye you were gone. I pray none of your pal's parents ever have to experience what we did immediately following your AIHA/IMHA diagnosis. It plays through my head many nights like a reoccurring nightmare. I did everything in my power to save you, followed the vet's advice, put you through the surgeries, but still you were taken from me. I cried so hard many nights after you left, questioned my decisions, sought and got support from many of your pal's moms & dads and dealt with my loss day by day. I needed answers but there are none when it comes to AIHA. Some dogs survive, but most don't. I knew nothing about this disease until it got ahold of you.

I hadn't felt so much hurt since the night I got the call from one of my brothers telling me our younger brother was in an automobile accident and was gone on impact. Oh, Miracle, I still ache for you my sweet little angel baby. You were such a sweet little dog. That's why I started the Brickfish Campaign for you. I had to do at least one good thing in your honor...bring more attention to the Animal Rescue Site to help feed and care for homeless pets. I was hoping to win money to donate to Mica's IMHA Research Fund and our local rescue group; all in your memory because I love you and will always love you. But unfortunately despite being the number one we didn't win the top prize. We won makeup, which I finally received. I still plan to give some more money to Mica's fund.

There is one paragraph from Gary Kurtz' "Cold Noses At The Pearly Gates" book which helped me many nights when I was crying and missing you. It's also helps when I think of Sheba these days. Here it is quoted below:
"God does have power and authority over life and death. He not only feeds, clothes and provides for animals in this life in ways we are not even aware of, but when our pets pass and we are helpless to do anything but grieve, God ushers them into eternity, safe in his care."

National Pet Memorial Day

Today is National Pet Memorial Day in the United States. No matter what continent you live on, I hope you will take a minute to remember pets that were important to you! I know I'm very important to my mom even if I'm at the Rainbow Bridge. She never stops thinking about me. I'm furever in her heart.

I borrowed this from my furiend Annie's page. It's a beautiful poem. Mom says I'm a very special angel who came into her life and stole a piece of her heart. We are furever linked and one day I will be there with Sheba and the other angel furs to greet her when her time comes to leave the Earth.

A Time to Remember
By John Quealy

They come into our lives for such a short time
A time we wouldn't trade not even for a dime
Then before you know it the years have flown by
And then all of the sudden we're saying good-bye

It wasn't that long ago we said our good-byes
We held on to you tight as you closed your eyes
Your spirit has flown home on the wings of a dove
Into God's loving arm's; in heaven above

Over the days we've shed many tears
But the memories we have will live on for years
We feel your presence and we know that your near
You're keeping us safe and calming our fear

We think about memories from years past
When you were young and strong and ran so fast
We remember all the great times that we all had
How you always made us happy never made us mad

They were the best and happiest years we had
We'll always look back on them and never be sad
We look forward to the time we'll be together again
And we thank the Lord for such a great friend

Now you run and play up in Heaven above
Cradled in God's arms covered with his love
Playing by the Bridge waiting for the day
We come down thru the meadow to the bridge to stay

The love that you showed us we'll never forget
Because to us you're one very special pet
You're like a star in the dark of night
Always watching over us with the Lord's light

So now we take time to remember our best friend
Who will always be with us even to the end
We'll always remember you the way you were
One big lovable huggable pile of fur

It's Been a Year Already

Dear sweet Miracle:

Tomorrow I take Spike to see a Holistic Vet on your bridge crossing day. It all started a year ago this evening. The time was right around 11 p.m. when you started showing restlessness. I was laying on the futon mattress trying to comfort you, but you decided to get up and lay on the hardwood floor in front of the air conditioner vent. You must have felt hot, but then you came back and stared directly in my face as if you were saying goodbye. It was all downhill after that as you woke me up at approximately 1 a.m. when you vomited....and we ended up at the emergency vet clinic all night and then back to your regular vet Tuesday morning. I will never forget that night. It's forever on my mind.

I'm glad you were a part of my life if only for a little while. You are a special little Princess and I know you are well loved at the bridge as much as I love you. Now my dearest Sheba is up there with you and I can just picture you two running through the fields together. She was my special baby as you know and I'm still lost without her here. I miss you too because you stole a piece of my heart. My only prayer tonight is that Spike doesn't come join you any time soon. We've got to keep him with us for a few more years. I'm asking you and Sheba to sprinkle some of that magic angel dust on my Spike so he'll spend a lot more time on Earth with me.

I will always love you sweet Miracle.

Love Always,
Mommy