Remembering

I still think of little Sunshine every time it rains. Our last day together was spent sitting by the window, watching the winter rain fall. It's amazing how in such a short time, one can love a dog so much. He will always be a member of my pack, if only in spirit, for the rest of my days. Just to be loved...just to love...this is all.

Foster Care

Little Sunshine is still in foster care. His new adoptive home didn't work out. At the last minute, Kimberly decided that she would rather apply to be a foster parent than an adoptive one. That was the last I heard about her. I've spent the past week crying, missing my little Sunshine. I have deeply regreted surrendering him to the rescue. I can't get the image out of my mind of the way he looked at me when I placed him in a stranger's arms. He knew I was letting go. My only solace then was that I believed him to be on his way to a wonderful home where he would be loved. Now, he's living in foster care, away from his real home, my home, where he was safe and loved. I look at the pictures she sends me, and he looks happy...but he has such a trusting and gentle heart, he could so easily be hurt. I think about him every day. I miss him every day. I feel like he died...only it's worse. I fight the urge to go get him, because I don't want to add more stress to his life. By now, he's settled in, and I am a fading memory.

Update

Mr. Sunshine is going to Ratbone Rescues (Rat Terrier Rescue). This is a great group of people who work very hard to save these little lives. His new foster mom, Debbie, will be taking him to get his shots, get neutered, get microchipped, and be heartworm tested. Then, (and this is the really cool part) he will be going to his forever home! He has already been adopted! His new mama's name is Kimberly, and he will have a baby brother...a baby Rattie named Spanky. Some stories really do have happy endings!