Well today...

.....was again another bad day for Donnie. I've had an inkling for a while now that things are slowly starting to come to a close. My father is dead set against wanting to put this dog down and my mom and I are for it. Not because I want to see her go. I've had this dog in my life for 15 years. She was my third dog, but technically the second dog I was allowed to keep. I've grown up with her in a sense.

I notice the not being able to walk well is coming faster. She is barely able to hold her bowels or urine. She has fallen off the porch so many times, that even with a ramp built to help her, and siding put up to avoid falling off, it's coming to a point where she slips and rolls down. She has ripped her claws, torn her pads open...but my father refuses. She still has an appetite and when the mood takes her, flips around and runs and tries to play. But, for the most part, it's far worse than better. She can't hear and is starting to get cataracts. I keep hoping that in the middle of the night, she slowly fades away.

I live with my family right now while I finish school and to save money and have help from my parents with my daughter. She's only 6 and my dog, as she can't hear, has taken to biting people who scare her. My daughter tends to forget and I'm afraid she will get bit.

My father feels that as long as she still eats, she's fine. He won't let her go. But, then, he's not the one who has to try to pick her up *she's very heavy now*, clean up after her, clean her like a baby, or do any of the other things my mom and I have to do. That sounds selfish.....like we want her to go because of that, and that's not the case. If I had my way, I'd never have to make that choice.

But how long do I have to watch this? How long do I have to watch my dog not be able to stand? How long for everything must this go on? How long to hear her yelp cuz she get's confused, stuck, and falls?

Why not just do it anyway if the vote is outnumbered? You don't have to see the respercutions (spell check) when the father comes home. It'll be ugly.

Please, just let her go! Call me selfish, but I do want what's best for my dog. I've never let my other pets suffer. I don't want this one to now.