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I Remember

Tuesday the 19th of January 2010 was exactly one year since my little girl disappeared. For a long time after I waited for things to get “back to normal,” but now I know that things never do and never will. There is a “new normal.” Things just are never the same after a tragedy. You get used to life without a loved one but it is very different. Now instead of tears and sadness I can look back on my few years with Daisy and smile at her memories but I still miss her as much as I ever did. I know if Daisy could tell me something this is what she would say:
Think of with smiles and laughter
For that is how I will remember you all
If you can only remember me with tears
Then don’t remember me at all
Time slips away with each passing day
So don’t throw it away
Live and love life
Give all you can and
Someday I’ll see you again.

I love you sweet Daisy!

~by G~

I rember when....You were here.

As I sit in those moments of quiet,
When sadness invades me,
I know that yesterday,
You were here.

Now you are away from us,
Not knowing your future,
Or when you'll come home, but yesterday,
You were here.

It has now been a week,
A week since you last were in the house,
An entire week since Fate carried you away,
To the place where we did not know your future,
But just last week,
You were here.

Another day passes;
a week ago, you were still with us,
We do not know your future
But we could still hope, and,
You were here.

More days pass,;
A week ago you left us,
I can’t even remember if I told you I loved you
But for a few hours of that day,
You were here.

Sadness invades again,
As I know that once those hours pass,
I can no longer look back,
Over the span of a familiar week's time,
To find that comforting point when,
You were here.

More time will pass;
Sadness will not so much invade as menace,
And I will mark the days,
Saying things like,
"last month, last summer, last Halloween, last year,"
You were here.

I dread that day,
One year from now,
That first marking of the time,
That your presence was no longer with us;
Though we will never forget you,
Your tangible memory fades,
The feel of your fur, your head, your back, your weight against us,
The smell and sounds of you when,
You were here.

The emptiness is beginning to fade,
To change into another reality,
One with you still playing a part,
But a role of ethereal presence rather than physical comfort we crave;
Your memory, your spirit, your essence and counsel,
Dwell with us, but this feeling is not the same as when,
You were here.

Dont Grieve to Long

Dear mommy,
Don't grieve too long, for now I'm free.
I've followed the path God has set for me.
I ran to Him when I heard His Call.
I swished my tail and left it all.
I could not stay another day,
To bark, to love, to romp or play.
Games left unplanned must stay that way.
I found such peace, it made my day.
My parting has left you with a void.
Please fill it with remembered joy,
A friendship shared, your laugh, a kiss.
Oh yes, these things I too shall miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow.
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life has been full, you've given so much,
Your time, your love and gentle touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief.
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your head and share with me,
God wanted me, He set me free!