June 19th 2008 11:51 pm
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This is me Sandy doing Jenni's diary entry for her.
I all I had a wonderful barkday. I really enjoyed the cake the Muddy sent to me for my day. My human cousins are here for the summer. They love me as much as I love them. I want to thank all my friends for wishing me a happy barkday.
Now tonight I am having an extremely bad night. My mommy is talking to my Rauntie (Sandy's mommy). This is how Sandy is finding out what to type for me. I am one sick girl and I feel totally rotten.
My mommy is going to have knee surgury this coming wednesday. I know that Sandy, Rascal and Rautie with be here on thursday to babysit my mommy. Well at least that is what Rautie is going to do. While if I am up to it I will have a fun visit with Rascal & Sandy.
Well that is all Jenni told me. I am very glad to have been able to help her out.
Jenni sends her ruv to all of you.
May 16th 2008 11:21 pm
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I know its beens a long time since I have written & I know I haven't been visiting my pup pals here at Dogster as much as I would have liked. I have missed all of you dearly. For those of you that know what is going on, Thank you for your continued thoughts & prayers. For those of you that do not know what is going on, I am sorry for keeping this in the dark. I have tried coming here to write this, but I could never get out the right words to say. Mommy, Daddy & I are still trying to come to terms with everything. The last few weeks, I have been having the fight of my life literally. I am literally fighting for my life right now. In February after getting my teeth cleaned, I started to become very ill. What is going on had nothing to do with the teeth cleaning except that it caused what is going on to show its ugly head. It would have happened sooner than later. As some of you know & for those that don't, I was diagnosed with Cushings Disease on April 1st of this year caused by a pituitary tumor that is causing my cortisol levels to be too high. I will never forget that day. I remember mommy getting the phone call confirming the diagnosis & her screaming & holding me & asking & pleading to God not to take me. To not let me die. That she didn't want to lose her baby. You see, my mommy was never able to have children because of illness. I have always been her baby but I have come to even mean more to mommy & daddy because of them not being able to have children. In humans, it is curable. In fact, my mommy has it caused by a pituitary tumor. She has had 3 surgeries to remove the tumor to include them cutting open her head. She now has a metal plate. So I like to call her Metal Head & now that she has braces, I can hear a radio signal coming out of her mouth at night when she sleeps since I now sleep right next to her. I think its a rock & rock station. BOL.
In doggies like me, it is fatal but treatable by using a form of human chemotherapy. Eventually, because of this horrible disease, I will have to cross over the Rainbow Bridge to Heaven sooner than expected. At first, mommy & daddy were not going to do treatment because they were very worried about my quality of life. After talking to my former docs & getting lots of opinions & reassurances that treatment should improve the quality of life & should hopefully give me a few more good years, we all decided to pursue it. Without treatment, mommy & daddy were told that I would cross over the Rainbow Bridge to Heaven within a few weeks or at most, a few short months. I started chemo a week after we got the diagnosis. I was on a heavy dose of chemo (Lysodren) for only 4 days because thats all my body needed to partially shut down my adrenal glands. Most doggies on are it for 7-10 days. Not me..in fact, it shut down my adrenal glands too much & I have been having major problems with what is called adrenal crisis, which is where my cortisol levels drops too low. I have been giving mommy & daddy lots of scares. The treatment for it is Prednisone. It seems like night time is the worse. Mommy sleeps downstairs with me in the living room because of her health & now because of me & because night time is the worse time for me, she stays awake at night to watch me & then sleeps during the day. I was supposed to get chemo once a week for the rest of my life but because of my cortisol dropping too low after the first round, it looks like I will only be able to get it every 3-4 weeks. The cushings made its ugly head again a week ago & I got another dose of chemo..a few days later, my cortisol dropped too low. Then it went up too high all of a sudden. The vet had mommy & daddy give me another dose on Monday. About a week ago, I started having seizures when my cortisol levels dropped. Luckily that time, mommy was on the phone with cuz Sandy's mommy, who I call auntie. Mommy was on the phone & went to walk to the other room when she found me on the floor lying there listless & hardly breathing. Mommy picked me up & I had 3 seizures in her arms. She gave me some prednisone, which got my cortisol levels up. Auntie Marlene stayed on the phone with my mommy, even though it was 4am, until I was stabilized. Then 4 nights ago, I was the sickest I have ever been. I thought for sure that God was coming to take me to be with him in Heaven & to be with my sister kitties, Snowflake & Dusti, who had crossed over the Rainbow Bridge to Him a few years ago. I lied in mommy's arms seizuring & not being able to catch my breath. Once again, Sandy's mommy just happen to call at the right time & was with mommy until mommy was able to wake up daddy, who was upstairs sleeping. Then Auntie Marline stayed on the phone with mommy after that for a few hours until we knew that I was stabilized again. My poor body is just not tolerating this chemo stuff & cushings disease. I have a feeling that God will be taking me home to be with him soon. I am fighting the best I can, but I just don't know how much more of a fight that I can give. Mommy & daddy love me so much that they are doing everything they can for me along with my grandmas, great grandmas, & of course, my 2 favorite Aunties..Auntie Kim & Auntie Marlene (Sandy's mom) & all of my cuz. And I cannot forget my vet who also loves me. We all knew that this would be the fight of my life. I am giving it my best fight & I am going to continue to give it all my best, but I will be honest I am getting weak. Mommy & daddy also think that God will be taking me home soon. They are spoiling me more than ever, not that they didn't spoil me in the past, don't get me wrong. But they are making my last days the best. I am hoping that maybe I will turn around soon & that my body will finally cooperate but right now, its just not happening that way. Please pray like you have never prayed before that either things will turn around & that my body will start to cooperate & listen to the drs or that if it is my time to go soon, that God will take me in my sleep & that I will go peacefully. I really don't want mommy & daddy to have to make that infamous decision that all of our mommies & daddies dread. Mommy & daddy have had to do that twice in the past & it literally almost killed them even though they knew it was the best thing to do to help Snowflake & Dusti cross over the Rainbow Bridge & end their pain & suffering. They are in a better place where they are chasing mice & tormenting each other . Thank you all for being here for me. I will try to be better at posting updates via my diary. Ruv all of you & Ruggles for all of you.
December 29th 2007 12:08 am
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Hi Furry pals
Thank you for adding me as your pup pals: Maggie, Devon, Adicus, Pluto, Sandy, Rascal, Whiskey, Drizzle & Newman. Wow, the last few days since I wrote last have been busy. Sometimes I wonder about these humans, especially my mommy. She had back surgery a few weeks ago & is having some problems with it. She is supposed to be taking it easy, but does she listen.....NO!!!!! When I had back problems & the vet told my mommy to keep my still & not let me play, she listened to the vet & made sure that I behaved. She wouldn't let me play ball at all & I was not happy with her. But yet, she doesn't listen to her doctor & she wonders why she is not getting better as fast as I was. She keeps doing something called "shopping" & she never uses the riding carts the Auntie Marlene told my mommy about & that Sandy told me about. Sandy told me that Auntie Marlene has to use them all of the time & I think mommy should too until she gets better. Mommy never listens. She then comes home & is on the couch in a lot of pain even with the meds that the dr gave her to make her feel better. My mommy is so stubborn. Its unbelieveable. Why won't she listen??? BOL She is not getting better because she keeps overdoing it. Any pup pal human want to talk some sense into my mommy? I give you full permission. I have been bugging my mommy though. I keep wanting her to throw my toy for me which means she has to kneal over to get it, which I know its hard on her. I am sorry mommy, but I want you to get better & play with me soon.
Mommy did get my coat done for me. The Princess coat that grandma gave me for Christmas was a little too small and needed adjustment straps put on. My mommy spent several hours & getting lots of holes in her fingers while sewing the strips on. You should have heard the weird noises that came from her mouth. I think some of them were bad words, but I am not too sure. Mommy was really extra nice to me last night. She put her favorite comforter on the floor for me to sleep on last night. She thought I was asleep but I peaked & saw her taking pictures of me. She is letting me sleep on it again tonight. I love my mommy. BOL I do have a nice bed to sleep on, but its better when I can sleep on mommy's things. Mommy told me that next week I am going to the doggy dentist & I am not looking forward to it at all. I hate having my teeth done. Been there, done that, & don't like it. My mommy says its better for my health & will make my breath smell better. Yeah, my teeth do smell pretty bad. Humans make weird faces when they smell it, but my dog friends don'tmind nor does my sister Nisa. I overheard a conversation between mommy & daddy & Auntie Kim that I might be getting a doggy sister. I am not sure what is going on with that, but I will fill you in on it as soon as I know something. Maybe I can see if Nisa knows anything. I can get her to tell me anything. I have that crazy cat wrapped around my little paw. hehehehe Only if she knew the truth that she has a crazy dog sister. Ok, I am going to go to bed now. Its way past my bedtime & I am keeping mommy up since I have to use her computer to do this. Wishing all of all my pup pals & human friends & family a great weekend & a Happy New Year. Ruff you & Hugs