03/11/12 Coco's diary

Hi pals,

My big furbrother Logan is allowing me to use his diary because Dogster is still locking me out of my diary. I wonder if they are mad at me for complaining about XOJane? Dogster did send me a notice stating that XOJane is not one of their normal advertiser and that it was only used as a rotating filler. They still did not explain why they would even allow them onto a family site and why Dogster (SAY Media) did not follow their own guidelines.

Anyhow, on to more important stuff, let's talk about ME! While I was at the vet yesterday getting my allergy shot, the vet told momma that the shot would make me thirsty and therefore I would have to go pee-pee more frequently. The vet lady was right because I peed on the sewing room floor last night - HeHeHe.

It really wasn't my fault because I did try to wake momma up but she was sleeping soundly so when she finally woke up and went to open the sewing room door, she stepped in a puddle. Oopsie - HeHeHe

Momma is going to put down both the potty patch that Puffy and I are refusing to use and a wee-wee pad tonight just in case I need to go potty in the middle of the night.

Well I better send Dogster a notice telling them that I can not access my diary. I foresee more fleas in the future as tomorrow is the forecasted date that Dogster is supposed to unvail their "new and improved" Dogster site. Keep your paws crossed, say some prayers, wave your magic wand, hunt for the four leaf clover, Rub Arleenton's feet that they don't mess things up too much - BOL, BOL.

Hugs and kisses from Logan Ben's diary.

Coco Rose

03/10/12 Hey, what's going on?

Coco asked me to do a diary entry for her because for some reason she is not able to access her diary.

When she clicks on "Update your page" and then "Add diary entry", nothing happens. She is figuring Dogster knew she was going to complain about something on Dogster so they locked her out but forgot to do the same for Puffy and me - HeHeHe

Does anyone besides us think the photo thumb nails look smaller than usual? This is really noticable when you click on the "Diary of the Day" and then "See more daries". The photos that are displayed here are so small that it is hard to even see what dog is in the photo.

Logan Ben - helping his little fursister.

08/30/11 It's been a while

Yup, it's been a while since I updated you diary. It's not that you are forgotten it's just that most of what I want to say is private and so I choose not to put it down here.

I found a bunch of pictures of you that haven't been posted on Dogster so I scanned them into the computer and posted a few. I will never get tired of looking at them as you were so handsome but the pictures didn't do you beauty any real justice. They did bring back memories of the times we spent together.

I'm actually thinking about getting another Old English sheepdog from the rescue group but it will take a lot of work to convince daddy to do this - LOL. Daddy is very vocal about not taking another "used" dog from anyone because the people who turn those dogs into the rescues are not very honest about their histories or issues. He did say I could get another big dog when we move to Arizona but I'm not certain he is willing to get another Old English sheepdog but we shall see.

I love you baby.

Mom

05/25/11 Not all anniversaries are happy

Not all anniversaries are happy occasions. Five years ago today you left for the Rainbow Bridge. I will not celebrate this day as it is one of sadness. It is the day that you went on an adventure without me.

I want you to know that you are still loved, remembered and missed. You were and always will be my confused little boy and your leaving has left a void in my world.

I loved you then and I love you now, nothing will ever change that.

Mom

05/19/11 Five years

Death seems to be all around, in the news, in the family and among friends. I suppose I am beginning to understand that someday my time too will come and this realization hits hard when one is no longer young and full of life.

I often reflect on your last days here on earth and wonder if I should have done something different. I believe that I will never feel fully content that all was done that could have been done. The vet said a change of diet and some medication was all you needed and that you would be good as new. I foolishly clung to his words and shrugged off the feeling that he was not right so I did not seek out a second opinion, however my faith in the vet was misplaced and you were gone before the week was over.

There is only one guarantee with life and that is at some point we will die. This fact was overlooked when you were a little puppy. At that time, all I could see was having you by my side as we experienced life's adventures together. But someplace along the way, we both began to age and slow down. The little scared puppy that I had instantly fallen in love with was replaced with the mature, devoted dog that I loved so dearly.

My mind keeps on going back to that terrible last night when you were seizing so violently on the kitchen floor. As I lay next to you holding you in my arms I was praying that a miracle would occur. For a time you seems to calm down but I knew it was too late to save you, as I felt you drifting closer and closer to the final destination.

On May 25, 2006, your life ended and a portion of mine did too. Death stole you from my side thus ending our adventures together, but it did not take the memories that are stored in my mind or heart.

I loved you that very first day I saw you and I continue to love you now. I look for you in my dreams as I so desperately want to be with you again, but for the time being that is not to be. The only comfort I have is to know that I too am walking along the same path you took and someday my journey here on earth will also end, and then we will be reunited for eternity.


Mom

Forever

The days are getting cooler and the night darker. Sometimes you can smell the burnt wood in the air as neighbors light their fireplaces to ward off the chill. I have always loved this time of the year. There is something really beautiful and peaceful when the green leaves change colors and fall from the trees until all that is left is the bare tree completely void of life.

You and I used to go on walks at the Nature Preserve and witness this beauty together. We would walk down the winding horse trails and our feet would stir up all the different colored leaves that were now sitting on top of the dirt path. The lizards, rabbits and squirrels would still be out and about but they were not as frequently seen as they were during the summer months.

After walking along the horse trail we would end up at the lake and there the ducks and geese would greet us with honks and quacks as they would waddle over and beg for the bread that we always brought for them. When the bread was all spent the birds would either move to someone else who still had treats to offer or go back into the water for a nice lazy swim and you and I would slowly walk back home at peace and happy.

I can still picture you ambling down those dirt trials happy to explore and to be by my side. It was like you had no care in the world and that during these trips you came out of your shell happy and free of all the hurts that had left such a lasting impact on you.

If I could have I would have chosen to stay on those trails with you forever, but life does not often allow us to have such choices. In fact, life is like those beautiful changing leaves. We are born, we age and then die and all that is left is the beautiful memories that we hold dear to our hearts.

Those days were some of the best days in my life and I will treasure the time we shared forever.

I love you Logan!

Mom

Four years ago...

Not all anniversaries are happy. Tomorrow you have been gone for four years and not a day goes by that I don’t miss or want you at my side.

I love you Logan Ben in life and in death. You still remain my soul mate.

Momma

Sandra Marie 02-96 / 05-18-2010

Forever loved. Rest in peace pretty girl.

Rainbow Bridge

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the Rainbow Bridge. One reason is because Logan Ben’s four year passing is fast approaching. The second reason is because about one month ago there was a Diary pick of the day who had just passed on to the Rainbow Bridge. The grieving human was a young women who wrote that she did not like hearing about the Rainbow Bridge or when people say that their dog will welcome someone else’s dog to the rainbow bridge. I can certainly understand her pain and suffering as those of us who have lost a beloved family member have experienced it. However, I for one love the thought of Logan Ben being surrounded with others as he waits for me to join him when my time comes to an end.

When Logan Ben died my first concerns were that he was cold and alone, two things I did not want for him as I still pictured him alive and well although in truth he was neither. Logan was gone and only he knows what that journey leads to but in my heart and mind I like to picture him surrounded with love and among family, friends and pets running free at the Rainbow Bridge. I don’t want him to be just a memory as I would really like to believe that we will be reunited again, someday.

The third reason I am thinking about the Rainbow Bridge is because Bukka, one of our dear pup pals has been diagnosed with cancer and might be going on his final journey sooner than expected. Bukka’s humans have decided when the time comes that they will have him cremated and his ashes will be scattered in the field with the Alpaca’s that he guards daily. It’s a fitting ending for a wonderful guardian of the Alpacas because Bukka will still be at home.

Death is never an easy thing to deal with. To the young girl I wish you lots of love and someday, when you are ready, please open your heart up again for another four legged companion as you obviously have lots of love to give. Do not think of it as replacing one dog with another as your companion lived a long and happy life and I’m sure she would want you to give another dog the same love and devotion as you had given her.

To Bukka, I sincerely hope the doctors are wrong and that you go on to live many more years. If it turns out that they are correct and that you are facing your last summer on earth, I want to thank you for being one of our friends and I for one will miss you a lot. I have enjoyed reading about you, Josh and the Alpacas as it was entertaining and full of adventures. Please do not take this as my good-bye to you as I am still praying for a miracle and that the cancer will disappear. POTP to you my friend.

And last but not least, Logan Ben, four years ago you left my side for your journey to the world beyond. I miss you like crazy and still love you unconditionally. You were and always will be my soul mate.

Marilynn

Another Christmas without you

The pain in my heart has gone away but the tears still fall when I think of you being cold and alone. How I wish you could have enjoyed this Christmas at my side. Having your ashes in a tiny box right next to my bed does not confort me as it is another reminder that you are gone. Someday though my ashes will be mixed with yours and we will face enternity together. Until then I want you to know that I have not forgotten you as you are and always will be "my little boy" who I love with all my heart.

Mom