If I could turn back the time

and I still could have you by my side I would have been the happiest woman on this Earth but unfortunately you are gone : it has been 7 years already !and the pain is still there haunting me like the day I lost you, my precious baby
Today we would have been celebrating your 15th birthday ! but God probably thought that He needed you by His side
I read somewhere that death leaves a heartache no one can heal but love leaves a memory no one can steal
Today I can only say to you my beloved Crystal : I LOVE YOU! A LOVE THAT WILL BE FOREVER AND NO ONE CAN STEAL IT
LOVE AND HUGS
MOMMY

It has been 6 years since you left me broken heart !

It keeps coming back to haunt me : that sad morning when my life was shattered by your loss .
Up to this day it is being difficult to me to accept why you had to leave us so early and so sudden.
Nevetheless to say that I miss every second of your life , the good times we shared , your playful spirit , your sweetness
One more year without you and I guess I have to cope with it since I cannot change our fate
With teary eyes and a broken heart I collected some flowers from our garden to dispose next to your ashes and the little mementos you left behind and I end this message with a poem that touched my heart and it was the very first diary entry I posted to your page
With love
Mommy
MUCINHA MAMAE TE AMA MUCHO MINHA PEPECA QUERIDA !

I AM STILL HERE

FRIEND, PLEASE DON'T MOURN FOR ME
I AM STILL HERE, THOUGH YOU DON'T SEE.
I'M RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE EACH NIGHT AND DAY
AND WITHIN YOUR HEART I LONG TO STAY.

MY BODY IS GONE BUT I'M ALWAYS NEAR.
I'M EVERYTHING YOU FEEL, SEE OR HEAR.
MY SPIRIT IS FREE, BUT I'LL NEVER DEPART
AS LONG AS YOU KEEP ME ALIVE IN YOUR HEART.

I'LL NEVER WANDER OUT OF YOUR SIGHT
I'M THE BRIGHTEST STAR ON A SUMMER NIGHT.
I'LL NEVER BE BEYOND YOUR REACH
I'M THE WARM MOIST SAND WHEN YOU 'RE AT THE BEACH.

I'M THE COLORFUL LEAVES WHEN FALL COMES AROUND
AND THE PURE WHITE SNOW THAT BLANKETS THE GROUND.
I'M THE BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS OF WHICH YOU'RE SO FOND.
THE CLEAR COOL WATER IN A QUIET POND.

I'M THE FIRST BRIGHT BLOSSOM YOU'LL SEE IN THE SPRING,
THE FIRST WARM RAINDROP THAT APRIL WILL BRING,
I'M THE FIRST RAY OF LIGHT WHEN THE SUN STARTS TO SHINE,
AND YOU'LL SEE THAT THE FACE IN THE MOON IS MINE

WHEN YOU START THINKING THERE'S NO ONE TO LOVE YOU,
YOU CAN TALK TO ME THROUGH THE LORD ABOVE YOU.
I'LL WHISPER MY ANSWER THROUGH THE LEAVES ON THE TREES,
AND YOU'LL FEEL MY PRESENCE IN THE SOFT SUMMER BREEZE


I'M THE HOT SALTY TEARS THAT FLOW WHEN YOU WEEP
AND THE BEAUTIFUL DREAMS THAT COME WHILE YOUR SLEEP.
I'M THE SMILE YOU SEE ON A BABY'S FACE.
JUST LOOK FOR ME, FRIEND , I'M EVERYPLACE.

a mommy in need to save her baby CHIQUITA

Cross post from fund raising site

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I have a 10 year old Chihuahua named Chiquita who is extremely loveable, and she is like a child to me. She is such a good dog, so I often rewarded her with treats. I foolishly bought a new treat named Milo's Kitchen Chicken Grillers as well as Cadet Gourmet Duck. I would feed her these treats each time for good behavior, and thanks to these treats she now has a disease named, " Fanconi Syndrome", and is fighting to stay alive. This disease has attacked her kidneys, her liver and now her pancreas. She is so sick, yet she is not giving up on life. She is in Intensive Care and I have run out of funds. I went in to see her today thinking that I was going to tell her that it is ok to let go, but she amazed me again, by making herself get up to kiss me over and over again. The Vet told me that she wants to live, but unfortunately I have exhausted my funds. He also informed me that if I was to take her home now, she will surely die. The money that I raise would be used to continue her treatments and save her life.


Access the link to the fund raising

http://www.gofundme.com/1jecns

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Please help !

a Rainbow for you mommy !

Have you noticed the rainbow when we were watering the grass this morning ?I sent it to you mommy so we can be closer .
I wish you could see me there , on top of it between the colors watching over you
I miss you mommy as much as you do miss me but don´t be sad : we will be reunited again , that´s what they call after life reunion
Tell Peek a Boo, Ursula and Nicola that I miss them too and next time I am sending you a beautiful butterfly with a messagem from Heavens, so watch out for it when they show up in the garden : it is me through a shine and blue butterfly
Love and angel´s hugs
Crystal

AN ANGEL MADE US A PLUS MEMBER !

Wow , what a surprise ! an angel made us a plus member again !
We are thrilled not only for the plus condition but for this angel kindness ! we are overwhelmed! Today is Good Friday and it will be a landmark of this generosity . We shall never forget !
a miracle that has a name: Minister Misty , the angel that will always be in our hearts
To all our friends HAPPY EASTER ! xoxoxo

I WOULD HAVE BEEN 14 TODAY

but God took me away too soon !
I know you miss me and my family is not the same without me
I ´ve been watching you from up above all those years and I know you have the kids to watch for but I am patient , I will wait for you even if it takes a million years because I know that we will be together forever .
Tell Peek a Boo, Ursula and Nicola how much I love them !
Today I am celebrating my birthday with all angels , they became part of my life in Heaven
a big wet kiss from your beloved baby
Crystal

A poem received from a dear friend on my Crossing day- anniversary

IN OUR HEARTS

We thought of you will love Today
but that is nothing new.
We thought about you Yesterday and days before that too
We think of you in silence
we often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories
and your picture in a frame
your memory is our keepsake
with which we´ll never part
God has you in his keeping ,
we have you in our heart

thank you Blackburn angel & family

Crystal

To all my wonderful friends

I thank you very much (for the bottom of my heart) for all the outpouring messages , prayers and support on my Crossing day anniversary. It really was a sad day but with your help mommy had the support she needed to go through this sad day
Mommy says that Gene (my Dad in Florida) came to get me - he passed away November 26 2005 and I departed November 26 2006 , exactly one year later - is this a coincidence or a fact ?
We don't know for sure but mommy has in her inner feelings that he came to get me - he loved me so much - I was his special baby and he used to call me little bitty
Now he doesn't feel so lonely
special angel's hugs to all
Crystal

REMEMBRANCES OF MY SWEET CRYSTAL ON THIS SAD DAY

1- YOUR LOVELY FACE TRYING AND KISSING ME ALL OVER MY FACE

2- YOUR FANNY WALK WHEN YOU WANT TO TEASE YOUR BROTHERS WITH A RAWHIDE

3- BATH! OH YOU HATED AND DIDN'T MAKE EYE CONTACT WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR IT

4- SAME WITH THE TOOTHBRUSH -

5- YOUR HAPPYNESS AND THE TINY LITTLE TAIL WAGGING WHEN MOMMY GOT HOME

6- YOUR ZEST FOR LIFE AND TO PLAY - THAT WOULD DRIVE NICOLA AND PEEK A BOO CRAZY - HIDING YOURSELF UNDER THE LOVE SEAT SO THEY COULDN'T GET YOUR RAWHIDE (CHICRETINHO)

7- YOUR EXCITEMENT WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR A CAR RIDE - WHO GETS THE COLLAR FIRST

8- YOU CURLING IN BED WITH MOMMY ON YOUR SPECIAL SPOT: THE PILLOW BY MOMMY'S SIDE OR BETWEEN MOMMY'S LEG

9- YOUR YEP , YEP WHEN YOU SAW LITTLE MONKIES (THEY ARE ABOUT YOUR SIZE) OR THE SQUIRRELS

10- YOUR DIGGING AND DIGGING TO FIND THE PERFECT SPOT TO LIE DOWN

AND I WOULD GO ON AND ON FOREVER MY MUCINHA ...
HOW I MISS YOU MY BABY! WHY YOU HAVE TO LEAVE SO SOON AND WITH THIS PAIN IN MY CHEST THAT I CANNOT GET RID OF
IT HAS BEEN 5 YEARS AND I STILL WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TRYING TO CATCH YOU ON YOUR DEADLY FALL
I AM SORRY BABY I COULDN'T AVOID IT - I SHOULD HAVE PROTECTED YOU MORE - I FEEL GUILTY !
SORRY BABY, SORRY THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY - YOU PROBABLY WERE NOT MEANT TO BE MINE BUT WITH THE ANGELS BUT I STILL CANNOT ACCEPTED IT
I HOPE , I REALLY HOPE THAT ONE DAY, NOT FAR WAY, WE MEET AGAIN FOR ME TO HOLD YOU DEARLY WITH ALL MY HEART AND SAY TO YOU I'IL NEVER LET YOU GO AGAIN
ALL MY LOVE
MOMMY

MAMAE TE AMA MUCHO MINHA PEPECA QUERIDA !

To all my friends : PLEASE VISIT MY WEBSITE TO LIGHT A CANDLE FOR ME AND LEAVE ME A MESSAGE . This will help my mommy go trough this sad day
Thank you
Crystal

http://crystalforever.memory-of.com/About.aspx

One more year without my beloved and unforgettable Crystal !- SAUDADES!

It has been 5 years since your departure and my heart still aches from grief and saudades ! I don´t know how to say saudades in English but I guess there is none ...

There is not enough words to describe how I miss you !

Your brother and sisters also miss you and as Peek a Boo gets older I fear the day that he will have to leave me too

Sometimes I am in bed with the 3 of them and I imagine myself alone and I feel hopeless !

I would like to keep only the sweet and happy moments that we shared but unfortunately that frightful Monday keeps coming back to hount me

I miss you my sweet girl !and I long for the day we will be together again

Much love

To all my friends I beg you to visit my website and leave me a special message and light a candle

Crystal and Neuza

http://crystalforever.memory-of.com/About.aspx