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My Heart Breaks For My Baby Ziggy

Wow! all I can say is that I miss Ziggy more and more each day, I find myself crying all the time, I really hope he understood how much I loved him! Everyday I come home and miss seeing his sweet face and seeing him in his little bed watching tv with me and his head on his little bone pillow with one paw wrapped around the pillow, oh! he was such a sweet dog. I treasure the memories I have with Ziggy despite his medical condition he was treated the same as Chloe he went everywhere with us on so many adventures, I miss him so much it hurts! I love you with all my heart Ziggy if I could I would have given you my own kidney.
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*More pictures of "Baby Ziggy" coming soon*

I MISS YOU ZIGGY!

Today is June 10th and Ziggy has crossed the rainbow as of June 8th. I expected this day to come however, I didn't think it would have been this weekend. It was the hardest things I ever had to do, That final last day I had with Ziggy we took him to the park, his favorite place to hear the birds chirp and smell the fresh air. He also visited his Granparents house were they said there goodbyes and cried. The night before he was able to eat some cheez its out of my hand but only a few, I stopped at In N Out after the park on his final day to get him a patty but his sister ended up eating it. Ziggy couldn't hardly see anymore his eyes never opened up all the way and he was bumping into things I think this was from the Kidney Renal which caused him to have high blood pressure which leads to blindness. He was sleeping most of the day on his final day but at the park he would follow me around still managing to have strength to get up to be with me. That dreadful evening finally came so fast, really fast. I pulled him out of his bed (house) and carried him to the living room where the doctor was I had his sister Chloe' caged up next to him to see it all so she knows what's going on. I had music playing with candles it was very peaceful however, It was still very emotional. The first shot was given and his leg started to wobble and twitch leaving me to place him in his favorite bed with his stuffed Tigger next to him, His daddy rubbed his head giving him kisses and I placed my hand over his tender heart and he seemed so releaxed, the second shot went in and he jumped and yelped and was trying to bite, I guess it hurt him and that hurt me to see him like that at his final minutes, We calmed him down and layed him back down again I kept talking to him and crying, The last shot went in and that was the hardest watching his breathing stop and my hand was still on his heart it kept pounding, harder and harder infact his heart was so young and strong it took another dose to stop it. That was really hard to see and know that if it were not for his disease he would have probabley lived a full healthy life. I had Chloe' sniff him after he was gone, I've been told by many people that if she doesn't see him she'll look for him for days. I wanted Chloe' to have closure. It was so hard seeing him leave his bed and get placed in a basket. I still can't move his beds i'm not ready for that yet. That night we had to leave the house it was just so hard to take in we ended up on the road with Chloe' and just drove to a hotel, I think this really helped us. The crying was so much my head had never hurt that bad before and my stomach was hurting so bad I couldn't even stand the smell of food nor could I even eat it. I can't believe how hard it is to lose an animal, He was my first dog and the best thing that had ever happend to me, I think that he taught me a lot and how much animals should be appreciated. It's hard because we were all a family and now it's broken but I know he is in a better place and is healthy and not in pain anymore. He really looked like he didn't want to be here anymore, you can just see the look in his eyes. The daily routines will be hard knowing he was a part of them, for instance me getting ready in the morning and him watching me put on my make-up or using the rest-room in the middle of the night and going back into bed and him getting up just to nip at my ankles (love that sheltie trait) or when he rubbed up against my ankle while I was on the computer because he wanted some much needed TLC, he reminded me of a cat in a dogs body. I'll miss him chasing Chloe' at dinner time when daddy was preparing there "Yum, Yum's" I'll miss his howl when I come home from work and his little paws tapping on the wood floors because he's so happy to see me. I'll miss the way he sleeps and cuddles into a little ball and places his tiny head on his bone pillow, he's such an angel. I'll miss his little licks on my hands. Even when he was at his last days he was able to go into his litter box and use the restroom, he was so smart! He just loved being loved. I don't know if I will ever heal from this either will Daddy, he took it really, really hard too. I wish they could live forever but I know it's not reality and all good things must come to an end I am hoping time well heal my wounds. A piece of my heart is missing and it's so weak right now. I just can't even describe how much I miss him, it's only been two days now I can't imagine how much harder it will get the more time goes by, I used to cry when he was gone for a day at the babysitters (which was only twice he's been) and now to think he won't be coming home for good and that I have to wait for years, and years until I see him again, hopefully it's the way I imagine it when I'm gone. Sorry for the long diary entry or the detail but it's a way for me to heal. I hope Ziggy knows how much I love him and that I was able to provide him with a happy life. I now truly understand what it's like to lose a pet, and it's the hardest thing it's a member of the family. I don't ever want to go through this again, it's so hard. I LOVE YOU ZIGGY

I wrote this for Ziggy:

An angel in disguise
who's moved on, got his wings
and just learned how to fly.