My beautiful, darling baby died November 16, 2009

This angel, who was my therapist, my daughter, my confidante, my feel-good baby, suddenly collapsed during a little party we were giving her for her birthday. She died the next morning. Bibi was 5 years old and the love, the light of my life. I am so lost and empty that I don't know what to do to stop the pain that invades my bodyM and soul. Why this happened no one knows. She simply died of renal failure but I am angry at the vets and angry at myself.

Baby, little girl, I love you more than anything in the world. You were my poetry, my muse, my music, you made everything bright and happy. Now the house is dark and sad. Munchquin misses you so much, he misses you cleaning his face and he misses your company.

Sweetheart, I hope against hope we will be together again one day, otherwise I will fall apart even more than I have. My life is hell now and the sadness overwhelms me when I realize you really are not here, that I cannot touch you, see you or kiss you. I sometimes find this so unreal. I'll look at some of your favorite places and see you there. Bibi, I adore you, you are my flower, my sweet little princess, my daughter, my child, everything and there will never be anyone as wonderful as you. You are my beautiful angel and mommy kisses your photos everyday and cries for you many times a day.


I love you, sweetheart. Rest in Peace and wait for me with Teddy, Daisy and Saffie.

Mommy