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Akumaru: My diary uncensored

It's been a week.....

It's been a week now, since we put Aku to sleep. It's funny, cause, I have three kids, and my house is always so busy, and noisy, but since Aku's been gone, it seems so much quieter. Like something is missing. I've been spending a lot of my time lately in my room, not in the living room, where I would usually spend my days. Don't worry I haven't neglected my kids, I've been straightening up, and catching up on things. Looking at pictures of Aku. My kids, they're always looking at Aku's picture on my dresser. I know they miss him too. My husband gets sad when he sees the slide show I made for Aku. That little guy made such an impact on our family.

We talked about getting another little puppy. We talked it out with our little girl. She says she wants to get another one, so she doesn't have to be sad any more. We told her, that we wouldn't be replacing Aku. She thinks that we would get a new one, that looked like him, and even give him the same name. I told her no, it's not like that. Yes, we'd get a new one, but not to say it's another Akumaru.

We miss having a little puppy. It would be nice to have another one around the house.

In a better place

Today, me and my family said good bye to Akumaru. We had rushed Aku to the vet yesterday, and he had spent the night there. Spoke to the vet this morning, and she didn't have any good news. She said that yesterday, he seemed a little better. They were hydrating him, giving him his meds. He even stood up on his own. This morning though, she said that last night he was a bit touch and go with the other vet that was there, and then this morning, she had to give herself a few minutes to look him over and check, cause she thought that he was gone.

We rushed back down to the vet again. We even got my daughter out of school so she could say good bye. The vet came out and took us around the back to see Aku. (He was kept seperate from the other dogs, so as to not spread the distemper or catch what the other dogs had). She had just given Aku a bath to get the poop off of him, she said it was all diarrhea at this point. I picked him up, so much smaller since the say before. Barely breathing, barely alive. We were all crying, my husband and I decided that we couldn't let him suffer. So we had the kids say good bye. Each one gave Aku a kiss good bye. My daughter held him for a bit, then my husband. The vet left the room to get the medicine for Aku, and I had explained t my daughter, and sons, what we were gonna do. I especially had to explain to my daughter, ( she's 6, my sons are a year and a half). The vet came back, and I had asked to stay with Aku, she said yes, but the kids no. She says she normally doesn't let the owners stay to watch, especially a puppy, since they tend to struggle. So my husband and kids went outside to wait. The vet told me, that she would have to inject Aku in his abdomen, since he didn't have any veins. And him being so tiny. She also told me again that he may struggle as well. I held Aku, and kissed him, told him that I loved him, that we loved him, and we lay him back down. The vet unwrapped him fro the towel, enough to where she could inject him in his abdomen. The gave the injection, and I watched him breath. Petting him, talking to him till his last breath.

I'm glad that he isn't suffering any more, yet even more sad that he's not here. I know that he's in a better place. Just seems even more quiet around the house. I don't hear his bell when he's walking. I miss him. He was my baby. I even called him "son." He is a part of our family, and even though we had him for only a month, he meant everything to us. He will be missed.

The beginning.....

Okay, this is my first entry. My name is Akumaru, you can call me Aku, for short. I came to my new family when I turned 2 months old. My mommy had seen my picture on cspuppies.com, which is based out in Donna Texas. She later told my dad, and well, here I am. My dad had to drive out in a storm, to Monroe Louisiana, where he picked me up, I flew on an airplane, can you believe it?Then, it was about an hour and a half drive to my new home. I was really scared, and a bit shaken up, so my daddy took me out of my cage, and I sat on his lap the whole way home. He's a very nice daddy. Then , we stopped and he took me to my new home. My mommy answered the door, and she was excited, she said I was soo tiny, which, I am. And then, I met my sister, and 2 brothers. They were so excited. Me too!!!

Lately though, I've been feeling really sick. After I arrived here, I developed coccidia, which the vet says I got from the litter I was in, and by me flying and going to my new home, it just made it worse. My appetite went down, and I didn't feel like playing, just sleeping. I was sick for about 2 and a half weeks with this. Finally, when I start to feel better, I have to go and get my first set of shots. Mommy says I'll be fine, she says I need them. So, we go to the vet, and well, I don't like shots. They are awful!!! That was about a week ago, since then, I've just been really sick. I've been going poop a lot, and it's been runny, and kinda bloody. I've been feeling sleepy, don't want to eat, and everything hurts, my ears, my legs. I got a lot of stuff on my eyes, too. Mommy cleans me, since I 've been getting really dirty. I've been stumbling lots too. Mommy took me to the vet, and they put that stick in my butt, again. I don't like that either!!!! They check me up, and it hurts. The vet asks mommy a lot of questions. Mommy is really worried about me. The vet finally comes back, she says she doesn't see anything in the stool, but says that I have distemper. Even though I got my distemper shot, she says that my immune system, hasn't built up enough to fight any of the bad stuff, and she said that even though I got the distemper shot, I would have to wait till I got my other round of shots for me to be protected form it.

So, now, I've just been sleeping, not doing much, except try to eat, drink, and go potty. Mommy has been giving me my medicine, which I like, especially the Albon! I have to take this drop to built up my immune system, and eat more wet food, that I guess is high in calories, which is what I need. The vet also says that I can't go outside, better to stay inside, so I'm still being paper trained. Can't wait till I feel better. I want to run and play with my family, and go outside, and sit in the grass, feel the sun.