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I miss you so much Merlin

December 28th 2013 2:05 am
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Good morning my sweet and wonderful and handsome gentle giant.

Two years ago today I couldn't help crying, I was devastated that you weren't coming home, I felt my whole world had collapsed, there was a huge whole in my heart. Although the pain has eased slightly, I still feel the loss of you overwhelming at times. I cannot and will never forget how you pulled me out of my deep depression, you pulled me from a darkness I had never known before simply by being with me, sitting with me or laying your beautiful head on my lad and looking at me. When you left me I could feel myself slipping down into that deep abyss again, then you mum said to me, “Don't undo the work that Merlin did for you.” I began to pull myself together but there was still a terrible ache in my heart, I would sit on the edge of my bed and simply cry, and no I am not ashamed to admit it. Even though two years have passed I have never got over your crossing the bridge, sometimes I would sit and smile when I remembered the antics you would pull, then other times a huge sadness would sweep over me. I hope you knew how much I loved you and still do. Without a doubt you were the best friend I ever had, or ever will have. Yes I am sad today Merlin, very sad, I just miss you so much. When I get there Merlin, please come running, I want to hold your beautiful head in my hands again and tell you that I love you.

Today is nice and cool today, it has been raining all night, it would make one of your favourite run and play days. I loved watching you run and play with Spud, you were the perfect boy in every way, there will never be another Merlin in my life.

Please remember to save a place for me, I love you so much Merlin, I cannot wait to be with you again.

Your ever loving Daddy


I have a very heavy heart today.

December 26th 2013 11:43 pm
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Today I write this with a heavy heart, two years ago today 27th December 2011 you closed your eyes for the last time on this earth and crossed the bridge. I am not ashamed to admit I wept for days, even weeks at your passing, today I am close to tears as I lost the best friend I ever had. Your love, devotion and loyalty for me was more then I even thought possible, but you gave me everything you had Merlin.

This gives me hope that one day you and I will meet again:-


Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies who has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; his eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

I am sorry Merlin, I have to stop, my tears are blinding me.

I love you so much my boy, how I wish that you were here with me.

Your ever loving Daddy


My sweet and wonderful big boy Merlin

December 26th 2013 1:48 am
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Good morning Merlin my sweet and gentle and wonderful giant.

More wonderful people have given you and the rest of our doggy family lots of wonderful Christmas gifts, again they are far too many to thank individually. So on behalf of Merlin and the rest of my doggy family, thank each and everyone of you for showing such kindness, Dogster people are wonderful and amazing.

Its an extremely hot day again, just like yesterday. Mike dressed up as Santa and Mia's face was a picture, and when she saw her playground with the jungle gym and paddling pool she had a huge smile over her face. But it was really too hot for her to really enjoy it, there was a danger of her getting sun burned. It was only when the sun was setting that she could really enjoy herself, she had a high old time and definitely well worth all the effort and work. It was so hot even Molly and Spud weren't running around like lunatics, and it looks like its going to be the same today.

Your mum bought me a digital photo frame I've loaded lots of photo's of you, Molly, Mia and a few aircraft along with the RAF ensign. It really is brilliant and as the memory stick can hold lots of photo's I can add more and more over time. Its only now that I can look at your photographs without tears streaming down my face, I look at you, your beautiful face and remember the wonderful times we had together. I just wish we had more time together my sweet boy, my best friend and the best friend I ever had, a friend that only comes along once in a lifetime.

Well I guess its time that you went and had some more fun with your buddies.

I love you and I miss you so much my boy.

Your ever loving Daddy



December 24th 2013 11:49 pm
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Merry Christmas my sweet and wonderful gentle giant.

You and the pack have received wonderful presents for Christmas, far too many to thank individually. So I would love to thank my Dogster family friends for your kindness shown to Merlin and the rest of the pack and myself. May God bless each and everyone of you.

On top of that my boy your diary has been chosen as “One of Today's Picks.” WELL DONE MY BOY I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

Its a very hot and humid day with very little breeze, even the pack aren't running about like crazy things, well Molly and Spud, Hobo and Bella don't run about much at all, unless they chase cars along the fence line. I watched Molly run yesterday being chased by Spud, she can really run Merlin, almost like greased lightning, she ducked and dived but Spud eventually caught her. Its really lovely to watch her running, it looks like she stretches her body and then she takes off. She's pretty fast on her feet that little girl.

We built up Mia's jungle gym last night in the garage, its just got to be put in her playground, along with a little paddling pool. Quite how we are going to peg the jungle gym down, because of the high winds we get here, its going to take off. Its too hot for Mia to go outside at the moment, she'll have to wait till the sun has moved, then hose the playground down with water to cool it off. I think she is going to love it, I really hope so as a lot of work went into that playground.

Next month I have a chap coming to see what can be done with my work pension, I want to get it out of UK.

I guess its time for you to go play and have some more fun with your buddies.

I love you so much.

Your ever loving Daddy.



December 24th 2013 1:02 am
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MERLIN MERLIN MERLIN, You did it again my boy, your diary made one of today's picks. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.

Good morning Merlin my sweet and wonderful gentle giant.

Its very hot again today with a few clouds and the wind has dropped quite a bit. Its too hot to sit outside even in the shade, even Molly and Spud are indoors panting. I really feel sorry for them in this weather, it must be very uncomfortable for them, no doubt you can remember how uncomfortable it got in summer.

Your mum has almost sorted out Mia's little playground, she pinned down the sides of the Astro Turf, she's now got to join the two pieces together. Tonight we are going to erect her little climbing frame, slide and swing for tomorrow morning, the problem is, its going to be very hot outside first thing in the morning. Your mum was talking about erecting an umbrella, but its still going to get very hot, it might be an idea to fill her little paddling pool with water so she can sit in it to cool off.

It looks like I wont be getting my new truck just yet, but that's a story in itself, I'll have to wait and see how I can mange to get one, maybe not the top of the range but something acceptable. I'm a bit annoyed about it, but there's nothing I can do. Anyway I'm sure I can mange something.

Its not long now until Mike leaves for the UK, he's going to be in for a bit of a shock with the weather and he won't have us to help him sort things out, he's going to be on his own.

I suppose its time for you to go play with your buddies and have some more fun.

I love you and miss you so much my boy, please never forget that.

Your ever loving Daddy.


My sweet and wonderful big boy Merlin

December 23rd 2013 12:05 am
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Good morning Merlin my sweet and wonderful gentle giant.

Its a similar day to yesterday, clear blue skies, no cloud and windy. The pack are outside at the moment, Molly and Spud probably playing and chasing each other, or rather Spud chasing Molly and knocking her over. I really wish she would get bigger and heavier and then give Spud a taste of his own medicine.

Your mum and Mike laid the Astro Turf yesterday for Mia's little play area and fenced it off to keep the dogs out, otherwise they would no doubt pee and poop in there. Last night the wind picked up again, lifted the Astro Turf and threw it on the fencing. I know its a bit late now, but they ought to have pegged the Astro Turf down. Today its all got to get relaid and then pegged down. I really hate the wind here, it does a lot of damage.

Your mum has taken Mia to the doctor, she really has a bad cough which don't seem to go away, poor little mite tries to be brave but she does cry. We try and cheer her up, but she feel too unwell at the moment. Hopefully the doctor can give her something to finally get rid of her cough, we don't want her ill over Christmas.

I guess its time for you to go play with your buddies and have some more fun.

I love you so much Merlin, and I miss you as God is my witness.

Your ever loving Daddy


My sweet and wonderful big boy Merlin

December 22nd 2013 1:13 am
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Good morning Merlin my very special gentle giant, and yes you are also sweet and wonderful.

Its another bright and sunny day, no could and very little wind, so its extremely hot outside. Your mum is outside building Mia's little playground, I can't help her, I have so much pain in my back, within five minutes I'm in agony, literally. I wish I could help her, but all I can do is make her cups of coffee when she wants them. Anyhow, its not a good run and play day for you my boy, its too hot outside.

Mia isn't too well at the moment, she keeps coughing and throwing up, your mum has said that she will take her to the doctor tomorrow is she doesn't improve, I might as well go with her as I am two late in going back to the doctor after he wrote out my prescriptions for diabetes with high sugar in the blood and high cholesterol. I hate going to doctors I really do, but I guess its time.

This afternoon I might dig up a couple of potato plants and see if there are finally any potatoes, although I have basically given up with my crops, its been a waste of time and money.

With this heat I have been drinking gallons of water and soft drinks, I shouldn't really drink soft drinks because of the sugar content, but water is so boring.

Anyway Merlin its time for you to go play and have some fun with your buddies.

Please remember Merlin I love you and I miss you so much.

Your ever loving Daddy


My sweet and wonderful big boy Merlin

December 21st 2013 1:25 am
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Good morning Merlin my very sweet and wonderful gentle giant.

Its clear with no cloud as far as I can see, and very hot at the moment, yesterday was the same. I tried to sit outside for a while and in all honesty it was too hot, I had to come indoors. It looks like that's how today is going to be, not a good run and play day. Molly and Spud went outside yesterday and were play fighting, but it soon became too hot for them, they came inside too.

A great bit of news, Mike took his starter motor off of his car and took it to an auto electrician, they stripped it down and repaired it, Mike put it back on his car and its fully serviceable again. Thankfully we don't have to scrap it, I am so happy its up and running again, it would have been such a sin scrapping his car as its in beautiful condition. I am annoyed with the main Ford agent, they simply told him that that type of starter motor is no longer made, he got to sort it out himself. That's not good customer relations at all, I'm not impressed. I was going to buy a new truck at that dealership, I might go to another dealership altogether.

Your mum is taking Mia to the Mall today, giving Melissa a bit if a break, Melissa has been under a lot of stress lately so she needs a break.

Well I guess its time for you to go play with your buddies and have some more fun.

I love you Merlin, so much my boy.

Your ever loving Daddy.



December 19th 2013 11:37 pm
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Good morning Merlin my very special sweet and wonderful gentle giant.

MERLIN MERLIN MERLIN. Your diary has again been chosen as one of today's picks. Well done my boy I am so proud of you.

Its bright and sunny again today with very little cloud cover and thankfully the high winds have dropped, the high winds keep pushing over my bench and every morning I have to set it on its feet. I hate these high winds, they are a pain in the neck. It would make a good run and play day for you my boy, you could give Spud a few lessons on manners. It was highly amusing yesterday, Mia my Granddaughter wanted to give Spud a dry dog biscuit, she went to give it to him and he ran off, closely followed by Mia shouting “DOGGY, DOGGY, DOGGY,” and holding the biscuit out for him. In the end I grabbed Spud and held him while Mia gave him the biscuit. Spud seemed quite surprised and took the biscuit, Mia then said “TA, TA.” and walked off quite happily. It was quite funny.

Mike is having problems with his car, the starter motor has packed up and he can't get a new one, even from the main agent, if we can't get one the car will have to be scrapped, which is a pity as its in beautiful condition. When he goes to UK I was going to give it to my daughter Melissa. The only thing we could come up with, there is a good chance he will be able to get a new one in the UK, so he could send it surface mail, or try and get one off of an accident damaged car in a scrap yard. Mike is going to UK in less then four weeks, so its left to me to sort it all out. Its a pain in the neck, I don't need these hassles at my age.

I guess its time for you to go play and have some more fun with your buddies.

Please remember Merlin, I love you and I miss you so much.

Your ever loving Daddy.


My sweet and wonderful big boy Merlin

December 18th 2013 11:06 pm
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Good morning Merlin my handsome, sweet and wonderful gentle giant.

Its a clear blue sky at the moment with no cloud, and thankfully no wind, just a gentle breeze rustling the leaves in the tree's. Its quite warm at the moment and I know its going to get hotter as the day passes.

Your mum took her little car into a body repair shop yesterday, when she told the owner how it happened he stated that the majority of the damage he repairs is down to gates hitting the bodywork. However, he wont be able to work on her car until the new year as everyone goes on leave tomorrow (Friday), he gave her a quote which considering the work needed to be done is very fair but sadly its an expense your mum didn't need. I know their work is very good from the repairs they did to my Jaguar, I couldn't tell where the damage was after they worked their magic.

Yesterday I went to the Land Rover main agents in Stellenbosch to have a look at Land Rover Defenders, I wasn't impressed at all, they didn't have one Defender in stock, all they had was Range Rovers and Discoveries. The salesman said that they had one Land Rover Defender as a demo, but its out on loan! What's wrong with Defenders that even a main agent don't stock them, but get them in if a customer orders one. Needless to say I wont be going back there. Its a pity as I have always had an affection for Land Rovers.

Anyway Merlin, its time that you went and had some fun with your buddies.

I do love you so much Merlin, I miss you so much my boy.

Your ever loving Daddy.

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