Good morning my big wonderful boy

Hello my boy.

I was talking to your mum last night saying how much I miss you, she nodded and said "We all miss him, even his silly little high pitched bark when he was digging weeds up."

I was looking at the photographs I took when you were inspecting your's and Lady Zara's litter. I was so amazed how gentle you were with them, and when I gave one or two of them a little cuddle you didn't mind at all, you knew you were my boy and no other doggie would replace you.

Remember how I would come home from work early to see you? You were waiting by the door for me, I'd walk in the house and you would wag your tail so hard I thought it would fall off. We would go for little walks on the property, you would come running up behind me trying to keep up. How I miss those days my boy.

When you got bigger I took you to work with me in the shop. You didn't have any toys with you so I made you one from a piece of new 1 inch rope with a knot tied at each end and in the middle. That toy last for ages and ages, you never seemed to tire playing with it. If I got a nasty customer you seemed to sense it, you'd come to the front of the shop and put your huge paws on the counter and looked at them. They soon stopped being nasty and became reasonable. We always laughed at that my boy.

You came to the shop everyday until the day I became ill, you stayed at home with me, sitting with me. You knew I was ill Merlin and you never left my side. I can never thank you enough for what you did for me Merlin, my one and only special boy.

Time to go play my boy and enjoy yourself.

I love you so much Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy

I cannot believe it Merlin!

My wonderful boy, I opened your page to give you your daily bone and there were over 300, I nearly fell off my chair!

So many people and doggies have been so kind to us Merlin, all because of you and the love that just flows from you. You are so special Merlin I cannot praise you enough my boy and its no wonder I am so proud of you. I wish I could thank each and every one of them personally.

Oh my boy, I do love you and miss you so much.

Remember when we had that break in at home when you were about 11 months old. The police came and when a female police officer got out of their van, you wanted to play with her. You ran towards her with your ungainly legs and big ears, she took one look at you, her eyes opened wide and ran for the police van with you running after her. She just managed to get into the passenger seat and closed the door. You put your paws up on the door and looked inside with a look on your face that seemed to say, "I bet that scared ya, aww come and play." Even the policeman who was her partner was laughing. I laughed for days, I could see it over and over in my minds eye. Finally we coaxed the police woman out of the van. When I Told her you was only a baby and wanted to play, she replied, "He's a BIG baby!!!" I laugh about that still my boy.

You know what Merlin, you brought so much laughter and joy into my life, you are indeed a gift from God.

Time to go play my wonderful boy.

I love you so much Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy

My amazing and clever boy

Hello again Merlin.

You have made diary pick of the day again. I am so proud of you my boy. Well done my wonderful boy.

I love you Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy

My amazing boy Merlin

Hello my wonderful boy

I am absolutely astonished Merlin, I have had a huge amount of wonderful messages and comments from people and doggies, then I went to give you your daily bone, instead of the 20 that were there yesterday there was 63! You have touched so many hearts Merlin, you really are a wonderful boy and I am so proud of you.

When I read the messages Merlin, tears ran down my cheek, not out of sorrow but out of joy, joy that so many people and doggies think so much of you. You really are my hero Merlin, I love you so much my boy.

Remember when we went for walks on the property? You would walk beside me looking for a special stick, or in your case a huge tree branch that fell off during a storm, I'm still amazed how you managed to carry some of them. We'd sit in the shade and relax, I'd put my arm around you and give you a hug. Then you would want me to throw sticks for you to fetch. I'd throw it so hard for you, then you'd go running off at full speed, pick it up and come trotting back to me looking so proud of yourself, drop the stick at my feet and bark, telling me to throw it again. We had so much fun Merlin. Then when you were tired we would go indoors and sit down with you as always beside me.

Melissa always said I spoiled you. I couldn't help but spoil you Merlin, you were and still are so special to me.

I don't know how long I have left Merlin, but if its a week or 20 years, I wish I could give you half so we could cross the bridge together.

God how I love you Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy

Good morning my wonderful boy.

Hello my lovely big boy.

It's such a lovely day here right now, its not too hot and little wind. Just the sort of day you loved my boy.

Remember the time when my son stood on a tree branch that you wanted? You tugged and tugged, went around in circles until you pulled it free, picked it up and ran away with it with Mike chasing after you. It was so funny Merlin, I laughed and laughed. You and Mike loved playing together, just like two puppy's.

You always made my days so bright my boy. You pulled me out of that dark place Merlin and for that I cannot thank you enough my boy. You were always there for me no matter what. When I was in the deepest dark place you came and put your head on my lap and made a funny little noise. I bent down and put my arms around you, kissed you on the head and told you "I love you Merlin." You pulled me out of that awful place Merlin. Thank you.

You have touched so many lives and so many hearts Merlin, so many people have given you wonderful gifts. I am so proud of you my wonderful boy.

Someone told me that Molly is a gift from you, you my boy were a gift from God without a doubt. Molly is so much like you Merlin, her antics and funny little ways. Like you, she is laying by my feet, like you, she is my little shadow, like you, she is so full of mischief. Both of her ears are standing up now, she looks like a proper GSD.

Molly loves playing with Mike just as you did. She made me laugh so much yesterday, she crouched and "pounced" at Spud with a little puppy bark. Spud nearly jumped out of his skin. I laughed so much I was crying. Then Spud did the same to Molly. She looked as if to say, "WHOA he's big!" and came running up to me.

Go play my lovely boy and have some fun.

I love you so much Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful handsome big boy Merlin

Hello Merlin, I made it on time today my boy.

I was just looking at your photographs, you are such a handsome boy Merlin. In the past I have showed your pictures to other people and they all said what a beautiful boy you are. I was and still am so proud of you Merlin, you looked like a German Shepherd should look, proud, majestic and aloof. What an amazing boy you are Merlin, you really are.

I still miss you by my side, I loved when you nudged my arm to give you a cuddle, how could I refuse? I'd put my arm around your strong neck, kiss you between the ears and say "I love you Merlin my big boy."

When I was sitting in my arm chair you would give me your massive paw over and over again. You always wanted my attention, unless you were helping mum in the garden where you had that odd high pitched bark, mum would shout, "SHUT UP MERLIN, YOU ARE GIVING ME A HEADACHE." I use to laugh. I'd call you in and you would come running with a smile on your face. I do miss you Merlin, I will never stop missing you, I love you and I will never stop loving you. You touched my heart Merlin so deeply that you are in there forever.

Go play and have fun my big boy

I love you Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy.

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Hello my lovely boy.

Sorry I'm a bit late today, the time got away from me. Usually I'm writing to you in the morning but it's now 2:15pm.

I think of the times you jumped on my bed and wouldn't get off. You looked so comfortable which is why you didn't want to get off! I hated having to use a stern voice to get you off, but off you got, albeit grudgingly. Then during the night you'd jump up on the bed. I didn't mind you sleeping along side me even if you did snore, but when you laid across my legs it was quite painful. Then again you are a big heavy boy Merlin.

When you laid alongside me I loved putting my arm around you and giving you a hug. I suppose I spoiled you Merlin, but you were always impossible to refuse. You only had to look at me with those lovely eyes of yours and my heart would melt. I miss that so much Merlin.

Little Molly is starting to follow me everywhere now just as you did. She fell asleep beside my arm chair, so I quietly went into my study to check my emails, then she woke up. As she couldn't see me she started to cry because she thought she was alone. I called out to her and she came running, just like you did.

Don't worry your lovely head Merlin, Molly is not going to replace you my boy, no other little boy or girl is going to do that. You are in my heart and mind forever.

Time to go play my big boy and enjoy yourself.

I love you so much Merlin and I miss you so much.

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Good morning Merlin my boy.

Remember how you use to wrap your paw around my leg and I use to drag you along? You loved playing that game so much and I loved playing it with you. Guess what? Little Molly is doing the same thing. Are you telling her what to do my boy?

I also remember the times you got grumpy when you use to look at me and walk off muttering to yourself. Even that made me laugh Merlin, you always made me laugh my boy. How I miss those days with you, my big boy Merlin. The fun and games we had together and when sweet little Lady Zara joined in. She also loved you Merlin, she was such a sweet little girl.

Spud is also taking after you my boy, so many things he does now are so much like you. He's a lovely boy and he's so sweet and I love him, but he will never be my big boy.

Also remember how you liked to come into my study and sit by me? Well, little Molly is doing exactly the same thing. She's sitting beside me right now. Remember how you loved biting feet when you were a puppy, yep, Molly is doing the same thing. All I hear is "MOLLY NO, DON'T BITE." It does make me laugh.

Time for you to go play my boy.

I love you so much Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy.

Good morning my wonderful boy.

Hello my lovely boy.

You have been given a lovely star from TedEbear and a beautiful angel picture from TedEbear and Mommy Juanita. There are also beautiful angel pictures of Lady, Monty and all three of you together. The pictures are so beautiful Merlin, when I saw them a tear trickled down my cheek not out of sadness but out of pride and gratefulness that someone thinks so much of you, Lady and Monty.

I showed the pictures to Melissa , she commented on how beautiful they all are. You have touched so many lives Merlin, human and doggie, I cannot help but feel so much pride for you my boy, you truly are a gift from God. I remember the first day I saw you with your brothers and sisters, as soon as I saw you I knew you were the little boy for me.

Molly is so much like you Merlin, everyday she is copying your antics and without a doubt she has your sense of fun and humour. She is a lovely little girl Merlin, thank you for sending her to me.

Go and play my boy, go and have some fun.

I love you so much Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful big boy Merlin

I'm sorry about yesterday Merlin, I still feel so much pain because you are no longer by my side my boy. I will try and be brave, I promise.

So many people have been so kind, Robby left you a heart and TedEbear and Mommy Juanita are making an angel photograph for you.

Bella isn't too fond of little Molly, I suppose she is getting too old now, its a shame because all Molly wants to be is friends. Molly pounced at Spud and gave a little bark, Spud looked at her and walked away.

Molly loves running around on the property, but its far too hot for her at the moment during the day. Remember how you use to come indoors, have a drink of water and flop down?. The thing is, Molly doesn't flop down, she wants to play even more. The only one who flops down is me! I'm just glad she is so full of energy and fun.

Remember how you use to love biting people's feet? Molly is exactly the same, she is so much like you Merlin in so many ways, she even looks like you when you was 8 weeks old. It's uncanny.

Time to go play my lovely boy.

I love you Merlin

Your ever loving Daddy