Life Ater Ruby

9 Months

Ruby
9 months have gone by with out you. I was just looking at pictures of you. You were so beautiful. Even when you started to turn gray. I still miss you so much. When will I stop. i'm crying for you as I write this. I have a new foster. His name is Klien . I ask to foster him because he looked alot like you. I think he is getting adopted today. I will find out later. He is so funny. I know you would loved to have played with him. He loves to play.

I hope i'm not holding you back. They say when a person doesn't let go of someone that has passed, it holds them back. I don't want to do that. But I don't want to let go either. I keep thinking when I foster the right one , you will give me a sign to keep her. Like her doing something only you would do. I don't think it would be right to replace you unless I can love them as much as I loved you. No one knows how much I miss you. I can't talk about you without crying so if someone says something I try to change the subject. Maybe that is the problem . Maybe if I talked about you , the pain would go away.

I want the pain to end. But I don't ever want to forget what a wonderful companion you were. I was always happy when you were with me. I didn't think I would have so many memories. But because you were a part of my family, I have many good memories that can always bring a smile to my face.

Ruby, this is all for now. I hope you are with Ollie . If you are tell him we miss and love him too.