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Missing You

Over a year ago I lost you:(

Maki,

I wanted to write you on the day you died but the internet would not let me.

It has been over a year since you crossed over the bridge. I miss you so much. On the 9th, I looked at all your pictures and cried. I even pulled out your favorite toy. Sundar seemed to m iss you too. He smelled your toy and licked my tears away as I cried all day. It was a hard day.

You are soo loved. I remembered the first time you escaped from the house. You were soo smart. It was when you were about 4 months old. I was running the sweeper (you hated the sweeper) and you snuck into the family room. I thought you had hidden under the couch (That happened a lot, everytime it thunderstormed). When I finished sweeping and came to play with you, what a surprise it was when I could not find you. You had opedned the screen door and gone on a adventure. I hunted for you for hours, crying and praying that I would find you. You had made friends with a family around the block. When I finally found you, I was just happy that you had not gotten hurt.

Now I remember that day and smile, because you kept my life so interesting and you thought everyone was your friend. I hope you are healthy and waiting for the rest of the pack to be reunited someday. I just miss you and wish you had stayed with me longer.

I love you my friend and wish you a happy Valentines Day. Sundar ate your cookie (I know you do not mind)

Love, mom

Losing You

My loving Maki,

I just finished a book about losing a pet. I guess I had to have a better understand of the pain of losing you. I have lost other pets and moved through the loss. I just keep thinking of you and all the wonderful memories.

At the end of the book there is an extened versio of the Rainbow Bridge poem that I wanted to share with all the Dogster readers:

There is a special place where beloved pets go after they die. This is only a temporary location. But there are trees and grass and lakes and everything they love. Here they can play and eat and sleep, even better than they did before they died. Now there are no aches or worries or dangers of any kind to trouble or threaten them. The only joy is missing is their beloved human companion.

All health is restored completely, and all injuries are healed. Dogs and cats play with each other like youngsters, and they do not have time to feel lonely for you. They miss you, but with the special wisdom that animals have, they trust that this condition will get better. And they confidently wait as they frolic.

A wonderful day will come for each of them, when in the middle of playing, they suddenly feel something is different. And all their senses will be at the height of excitement and exuberance. They will sniff the air and look off in the distance where they recognize that dearly loved, very special presence. Then they will call out in elation and, with eyes shining and tail going wild, tear off at a full gallop, almost flying over the green grass.

Your expected arrival has been sensed, and now there is nothing that can keep the two of you apart ever again. As you run toward each other, the tears jump from your eyes. Your pet leaps into your arms, and you cling together in jubilant reunion. The joyous kisses rain on your face, and you kiss back just as ecstatically. Your hands so lovingly caress once more the beloved fur, the head and neck and body you knew so well. And you look into each other's eyes and know that now everything is put aright.

And then something will call the both of you on to a different field of warmth and nurture, where all the love you knew now comes to fruition. With your pet, you leave that special waiting area, pass into the main part of heaven and begin a new existence there , together.

If you accept that pets can love us as much as we love them, then the logic is clear and cannot be denied. If you believe that there is a heaven for people, then they must be there, waiting for us, when we cross over. Heaven is love, and pets always share that with us.

Author: Wallace Sife, Ph.D.

I hope everyone who reads this feel the happiness and peace that I felt, Maki.

I love you and hope you wait for me at the Rainbow Bridge
Mom

First Christmas without you

I was sitting here thinking about you today. Your dad made you a wonderful web site and I was looking at all of your pictures. I found the ones we had taken with Santa when you where 2 yrs old. They made me smile and we put them up for Christmas (Just like every year). This is the first Chritmas without you and I miss you. You always liked Chritmas and getting to see everyone at home (and the presents).

Remember the time I told your grandma that you would not touch anything under the tree while we went out (you had not touched any presents). When we came back you had opened her chocolate covered cherries and eaten the whole box. I was so worried that you would be sick (you surprised me and didn't even vomit). I was happy that you where ok. Your grandmother was upset because she loves chocolate covered cherries.

I love you and am sending you a big hug and kiss. Merry Christmas Maki. I will have your grandma eat a cherry for you and will put you Santa picture for all to see as soon as your dad is able to get it copied onto the computer.