March 30th 2010 11:14 pm
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Who would've thought that I would be spending this afternoon at Dr. Porte's, your vet! Finnegan hurt his foot and Dr. Porte took care of him. We talked about you today. We talked about what a special little spirit you were, what an extraordinary girl you were. We lamented that it didn't seem fair that 2 species (human & canine) could have such an incredible connection and one has to leave so much earlier than the other. We agreed that it must have to do with the unconditional love we receive from each pet. That we get some for a while from one, and then have to go on to the next pet. It was really comforting to talk to Dr. Porte today. He loved you very much and took such good care of you. I remember the time he came into the room after putting down a kitty and you went right to him and gave him a kiss on the forehead...something you only did with me & dad. We also saw Angela at the clinic who was the 4th person you gave a kiss. You were a special little spirit. I miss you every day but I also recognize how lucky I was to have you in my life.
Love you little angel,
March 13th 2010 10:33 am
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When you bring a pet into your life, you begin a journey - a journey that will bring you more love and devotion than you have ever known, yet also test your strength and courage If you allow, the journey will teach you many things, about life, about yourself, and most of all, about love. You will come away changed forever, for one soul cannot touch another without leaving its mark.
Along the way, you will learn much about savoring life's simple pleasures - jumping in leaves, snoozing in the sun, the joys of puddles, and even the satisfaction of a good scratch behind the ears.
If you spend much time outside, you will be taught how to truly experience every element, for no rock, leaf, or log will go unexamined, no rustling bush will be overlooked, and even the very air will be inhaled, pondered, and noted as being full of valuable information. Your pace may be slower - except when heading home to the food dish - but you will become a better naturalist, having been taught by an expert in the field.
Too many times we hike on automatic pilot, our goal being to complete the trail rather than enjoy the journey. We miss the details - the colorful mushrooms on the rotting log, the honeycomb in the old maple snag, the hawk feather caught on a twig. Once we walk as a dog does, we discover a whole new world. We stop; we browse the landscape, we kick over leaves, peek in tree holes, look up, down, all around. And we learn what any dog knows: that nature has created a marvelously complex world that is full of surprises, that each cycle of the seasons bring ever changing wonders, each day an essence all its own.
Even from indoors you will find yourself more attuned to the world around you. You will find yourself watching summer insects collecting on a screen. (How bizarre they are! How many kinds there are!), or noting the flick and flash of fireflies through the dark. You will stop to observe the swirling dance of windblown leaves, or sniff the air after a rain. It does not matter that there is no objective in this; the point is in the doing, in not letting life's most important details slip by.
You will find yourself doing silly things that your pet-less friends might not understand: spending thirty minutes in the grocery aisle looking for the cat food brand your feline must have, buying dog birthday treats, or driving around the block an extra time because your pet enjoys the ride. You will roll in the snow, wrestle with chewie toys, bounce little rubber ballstill your eyes cross, and even run around the house trailing your bathrobe tie - with a cat in hot pursuit - all in the name of love.
Your house will become muddier and hairier. You will wear less dark clothing and buy more lint rollers. You may find dog biscuits in your pocket or purse, and feel the need to explain that an old plastic shopping bag adorns your living room rug because your cat loves the crinkly sound.
You will learn the true measure of love - the steadfast, undying kind that says, "It doesn't matter where we are or what we do, or how life treats us as long as we are together." Respect this always.
It is the most precious gift any living soul can give another. You will not find it often among the human race.
And you will learn humility. The look in my dog's eyes often made me feel ashamed. Such joy and love at my presence. She saw not some flawed human who could be cross and stubborn, moody or rude, but only her wonderful companion. Or maybe she saw those things and dismissed them as mere human foibles, not worth considering, and so chose to love me anyway.
If you pay attention and learn well, when the journey is done, you will be not just be a better person, but the person your pet always knew you to be - the one they were proud to call beloved friend.
I must caution you that this journey is not without pain. Like all paths of true love, the pain is part of loving. For as surely as the sun sets, one day your dear animal companion will follow a trail you cannot yet go down. And you will have to find the strength and love to let them go. A pet's time on earth is far too short - especially for those that love them. We borrow them, really, just for awhile, and during these brief years they are generous enough to give us all their love, every inch of their spirit and heart, until one day there is nothing left.
The cat that only yesterday was a kitten is all too soon old and frail and sleeping in the sun. The young pup of boundless energy wakes up stiff and lame, the muzzle now gray. Deep down we somehow always knew that this journey would end. We knew that if we gave our hearts they would be broken. But give them we must for it is all they ask in return.
When the time comes, and the road curves ahead to a place we cannot see, we give one final gift and let them run on ahead - young and whole once more.
"Godspeed, good friend," we say, until our journey comes full circle and our paths cross again.
~ Crystal Ward Kent
March 10th 2010 12:15 am
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Today would've been your 15th birthday. You left us just a little over 2 months ago, the longest 2 months I can remember for awhile. Sometimes I feel your little spirit near me, sometimes I see a little grey movement out of the corner of my eye, sometimes I feel the intensity of your stare or hear a sound I know only you would've made. I always stop whatever it is I'm doing and recognize it's you. I truly understand now how you are still with me always. We have been together a long time, experienced some of the most intense moments together, including the decision to let you go, to let you go in peace because you were done here. It was the most difficult decision I ever had to make with you. But I looked in your eyes, and you told me it was time. You told me that it was ok. And as you made that transition with your final breath, I knew in my heart that it was ok. We were together, as we have always been. And I understand now that we will always be together. Thank you for that gift. Thank you for being so wonderful throughout your life and in your passing. Thank you for teaching me about loving unconditionally, having patience and being in the moment. I miss you every day, but my world is surrounded and colored by you having been a part of it. We were so connected during your lifetime, and we will be throughout my lifetime. I honor you on this date, your birth.
Much love to you my little angel,
March 5th 2010 12:19 am
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I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and the days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have is memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory is my keepsake, with which I'll never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart ♥.
February 6th 2010 1:39 am
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A Living Love
~~by Martin Scot Kosins
If you ever love an animal, there are three days in your life you will always remember . . .
The first is a day, blessed with happiness, when you bring home your young new friend. You may have spent weeks deciding on a breed. You may have asked numerous opinions of many vets, or done long research in finding a breeder. Or, perhaps in a fleeting moment, you may have just chosen that silly looking mutt in a shelter — simply because something in its eyes reached your heart. But when you bring that chosen pet home, and watch it explore, and claim its special place in your hall or front room — and when you feel it brush against you for the first time — it instills a feeling of pure love you will carry with you through the many years to come.
The second day will occur eight or nine or ten years later. It will be a day like any other. Routine and unexceptional. But, for a surprising instant, you will look at your longtime friend and see age where you once saw youth. You will see slow deliberate steps where you once saw energy. And you will see sleep when you once saw activity. So you will begin to adjust your friend’s diet — and you may add a pill or two to her food. And you may feel a growing fear deep within yourself, which bodes of a coming emptiness. And you will feel this uneasy feeling, on and off, until the third day finally arrives.
And on this day — if your friend and whatever higher being you believe in have not decided for you, then you will be faced with making a decision of your own — on behalf of your lifelong friend, and with the guidance of your own deepest Spirit. But whichever way your friend eventually leaves you — you will feel as long as a single star in the dark night.
If you are wise, you will let the tears flow as freely and as often as they must. And if you are typical, you will find that not many in your circle of family or friends will be able to understand your grief, or comfort you.
But if you are true to the love of the pet you cherished through the many joy-filled years, you may find that a soul — a bit smaller in size than your own — seems to walk with you, at times, during the lonely days to come.
And at moments when you least expect anything out of the ordinary to happen, you may feel something brush against your leg — very very lightly.
And looking down at the place where your dear, perhaps dearest, friend used to lie — you will remember those three significant days. The memory will most likely to be painful, and leave an ache in your heart.
As time passes the ache will come and go as if it has a life of its own. You will both reject it, and it may confuse you. If you reject it, it will depress you. If you embrace it, it will deepen you. Either way, it will still be an ache.
But there will be, I assure you, a fourth day when — along with the memory of your pet — and piercing through the heaviness in your heart — there will come a realization that belongs only to you. It will be as unique and strong as our relationship with each animal we have loved, and lost. This realization takes the form of a Living Love — like the heavenly scent of a rose that remains after the petals have wilted, this Love will remain and grow — and be there for us to remember. It is a love we have earned. It is the legacy our pets leave us when they go. And it is a gift we may keep with us as long as we live. It is a Love which is ours alone. And until we ourselves leave, perhaps to join our Beloved Pets — it is a Love we will always possess.
I'm still on the third day sweet girl! Missing you so much.
February 4th 2010 11:34 am
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Hi Sweet Baby. I miss you so much. In a couple of weeks, I'm going to Florida where we used to live. It's hard to imagine being there without you and Annie. I sure wish we could've traveled back together, although you weren't in good enough health for some time to fly. I think you would've remembered everyone and every place we used to walk. Weren't our walks wonderful. We were surrounded by open space and parks. You always loved having people make a fuss over you. If I let you, you'd run out into the middle of a softball game just for the attention! There were so many people and other dogs we knew that we'd meet on our walks.Remember the tree where I'd put you high up on a branch and you could see so much. Both you and Annie loved the open spaces where you could be off leash and just run. I remember the time you dove into a pond after some ducks. Who knew you could swim so well! Then there was the lake we lived near where you loved to sniff the beach. You ended up in there once after peeing on a red ant hill and making them mad! That's the lake where you first went out in a canoe. There were so many beaches we visited. And then all the time we'd spend at Jake's house. They weren't allowed on the furniture but you & Annie always managed to get permission! Then there was visiting Kisi and you chasing her under the bed, poor kitty. We also hung out with Lexi who was our neighbor and Annie's best friend. So many pet friends.
So many good memories. Our happy times will always be a part of us.
Miss you baby girl!
January 31st 2010 8:39 am
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I'm being honored as angel of the week in RBAB!!! Wow, what a surprise and honor. They've started a thread to get to know me and Daisy sent me a new photo with wings. This is so overwhelming!!! I'm hoping that this will help mom remember a lot of the good times we had together.
The RBAB group is so kind and supportive. Annie has been admin in the group for several years, then Molly, then our kitties Socks & Tigger. Now ME!!! I hope to help carry the tradition of welcoming angels to the bridge, and being there for all the parents. Hopefully, this will help mom too.
Thank you RBAB (especially Putter & Daisy!).
January 27th 2010 1:59 am
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It's been one month since I left you mom. I hope this poem helps the heaviness in your heart and the tears on your cheeks.
Love ~ your Georgie
From the silence of your pain I heard my name
and on the wings of light I have come
to see the sadness in your eyes
that cry without tears
Can you see me, I am here
I will always be near you
to calm your shattered heart
and to make you smile at the memories
Do you feel me, perhaps a soft brush of fur
You ache to believe it's real
but you are afraid to hope
You brush away a strand of hair
But it was I, whispering.....
I am only here for but a moment
The silver thread gently quivers
I will leave behind my love in a dream
When you awaken, and without really knowing why
Your heart will know at last
That it is all right, for now
to say good-bye
January 21st 2010 8:33 pm
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Today is a difficult day for mom. She picked up my ashes. They gave her my footprint too. She is so so sad. I'm in her heart and she knows it. It's just been such a hard year, she is still grieving the other human and furbabies crossing the rainbow bridge this past year. There are a whole lot of us here for her...my sister Molly, our kitties Tigger & Socks. And Uncle Randy and my hu-bro Andrew. My sister Annie & my brother Boomer are here too! We all keep sending angel kisses to her to help her through tough days like today. Each one of us is part of her heart, and it's getting so big with love. Just remember mom, we're all right there in your heart!
WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME
When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
The sun will rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
Remembering how I'd lay my head
In your lap that special way.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me.
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And petted me with her hand.
She said my place was ready,
In Heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But, as I turned to heel away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I never thought
That I would have to die.
I had so much to live for,
So many sits and downs to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought about our lives together,
I know you must be sad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
Remember how I'd nudge your hand,
And poke you with my nose?
The frisbee I would gladly chase,
The bad guy, I'd "bark and hold".
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I'd wag my tail and kiss you,
Just so I could see you smile.
But, then I fully realized,
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Will take the place of me.
And when I thought of treats and toys,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did,
My dog-heart filled with sorrow.
But then I walked through Heaven's gate,
And felt so much at home;
As God looked down and smiled at me,
From His beautiful golden throne.
He said, "This is eternity,
And now we welcome you,
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
For you see, each days's the same day,
There's no longing for the past.
Now you have been so faithful,
So trusting, loyal and true;
Though there were times you did things,
You knew you shouldn't do.
But good dogs are forgiven,
And now at last you're free;
So won't you sit here by my side,
And wait right here with me?"
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right there, in your heart.
January 13th 2010 1:58 am
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I can't believe you haven't been physically with me for the past two weeks, Georgie. I think that is the longest time we've ever been apart. Every other time that I came home, you were there and we were happy to see each other. I know you are there in my heart and I still feel your presence. But I miss you so much ~ picking you up, having you snooze on my lap, cuddling in bed, being stubborn on your walks. Even in your last year you taught all of the younger ones how to act. They are missing you too, clinging to me during the quiet times. We all miss your gentle soul.
Dr. Porte and Angie sent a card today. They sent a pin of a dog with angel wings. Paula made a contribution to the Arbor Day Foundation to honor you with the planting of trees. I've received some cards from friends. Everyone has shared so many stories of their time with you. You brightened many people's lives.
Thank you for being our guardian angel and guiding all the pups at home. I'm sure you're in charge of your angel sisters already. I feel honored to have been the one you chose as your companion. Do you remember the first time I met you ~ when you came out of the kennel, and placed one paw on my lap. I picked you up and we sat together for an hour while Ginny & I talked. You captured my heart with that little paw. Just know you have always been my heart, and will always.
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