Today I went with your sister Sienna and the new pup Ellie to the vet. Everyone was healthy, just getting check-ups. The problem is they told us to go to room 4. I couldn't go in there because it's the last place you were alive. I remember you lying on the floor gently resting and falling asleep. I felt terrible leaving you there, even though I knew you were gone and it was just your earthly body that lay on the floor alone. I just couldn't face the room where your spirit departed.
I think of you a lot. A bit more lately. I am sad I will never be able to lie next to you or hug you or feed you a peanut butter cookie again. I know you don't need this anymore, but I miss the connection with you. You were a one of a kind dog and as special as they get.
I miss you so much lately. It kinda started when I was at the dog park with Ellie and Sienna. There was a dog whose bark sounded a lot like yours. I lost it. I just kept thinking about how I won't hear your bark again.
Then last night I had a dream that I had to say goodbye to you again. It was so hard the first time, I can't bare to go through it again in my mind.
Today I am just thinking of you and your kitty sister lots and just wishing you were here. You'd be right by my side and look up at me sometimes. Or snore really loud and I'd love the sound of it.
I know you are free and happy now but I selfishly wish you were here.
Yesterday your kitty sister came to the bridge. I hope you are joined again...
Last night I had a dream. All the animals I've ever loved were at this house and wonderful garden. My dogs from childhood were there, and Zuki and other dogs I've known and some I haven't. Even a sheep and I goat I think. Then I went into the house and opened the attic door. Out came all the cats. I thought "oh they really aren't gone, they were just stuck here in the attic" Out came Heather and Sami and some others. Then I started looking for Sienna and Ellie and thought I may have seen them but they never came up to me. Only the ones who had passed were there. Maybe it was a special trip to the rainbow bridge. It felt like such a special place and all the animals were in peace. What a pleasure to see it. Thank you Heather for showing me you are Ok and with you friends. I am so happy I got to see you there Zuki. You are with the best of them. You deserve it.
