January 22nd 2015 11:43 am
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Hello friends... I haven't been doing well these past couple of days. Pain from my paw is sapping all my energy, and doesn't let me eat. My humans have been keeping me company and encouraging me to walk a bit, they've even helped by carrying me down the stairs. So I'm trying my best, as I always do, because I know it makes them happy and I like being with them.
Mom & dad told me that to help me be free of pain, they would have to let me go. Where would I go? What happens to a dog when she dies? I don't know! it's not for a doggie to ponder these questions, I prefer to live in the moment. So as long as, in that final, eternal moment, my family, Mathias, mom & dad, are by my side, I will go in peace.
Keep me forever in your heart, because you were always in mine...
A quick message from Tallulah's humans.
A dog's battle with cancer is always different than a human's. When we got the diagnosis we knew it was just a matter of time. But within those boundaries, Tallulah fought valiantly, knowing that it was not about beating the disease, but about wrestling as many happy memories from it as possible.
So she did as she always had, lunging forward, tackling and enjoying life almost to the point of recklessness, with us along for the ride, also enjoying every moment. There were difficult times during these past few months, but her will to go on allowed and encouraged us to forge ahead together, as a family.
Eventually it was too much for even this seemingly invincible hound. The past few weeks she slowed down exponentially, reducing her walks and slowly losing most of her daily habits. The past couple of days she was even afraid to get up, only doing so in order to please us, since she knew we expected her to at least go outside and enjoy a few last moments outdoors.
Tallulah was euthanized yesterday, January 21st, at home, drifting away peacefully and surrounded by her family: mom, dad and Mathias. Only the certainty that it was the best thing to stop her suffering could somewhat offset the pain of her passing. The gaps her absence leaves in our home, our lives and our hearts are countless and some will never be filled again.
We always strive to learn something from dogs who are no longer with us, to honor their memory. But distilling Tallulah's legacy into a single sentence would not be possible. Beyond mere influence, she was a building block of our family, guided our decisions and our fate, and made both of us (and Mathias) who we are today. Her example of joy for life, bravery, love and loyalty, and also goofiness, stubbornness and bit of misplaced mischief, will always be present and guiding us in our hearts.
Thanks to all our friends in Dogster, who have shared our marvellous journey with Tallulah. Know that your support means the world to us; only people who have allowed dogs into their lives can appreciate the joy it brings, and the pain when they have to go, and your understanding makes it all a bit easier.
Regards and Love,
Mathias, Mom (Lucila) & Dad (Daniel)
January 19th 2015 9:18 am
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Hello! I hope you've been doing great!
I'm still struggling with my health. After my last visit to the vet, I started peeing at home a lot again. My humans were quite concerned as they didn't know why I'd regressed. They thought it was because I'm losing a lot of muscle and that means my vertebrae become more unstable which is what causes my incontinence.
I could have told them that I felt more of an urge to pee as well as some itching, but I'm a brave girl and I don't tell :) So they finally figured out there may be something else when they realized my urine smelled of "freshly baked bread", which suggested some sort of yeast process (human medical mumbo jumbo). Sure enough, the vet said I had a major urinary infection. So now, after a week of antibiotics, I'm doing better and not peeing so much at home.
Still, the past couple of weeks have been very difficult. Despite all the meds I'm taking, my paw hurts a lot so I prefer not to walk. I do it because my humans insist but I'd prefer to just lie down all day. So with no exercise, I'm now very weak and can't stand up or walk a lot.
Also, all the food they bring me looks horrible so I prefer not to eat. I won't say no to a few yummy things like ground beef or treats, but my usual kibble is just too disgusting to me. This compounds my weakness and loss of weight.
A couple of days ago I just didn't feel like going for a walk. I have to go down some stairs to get out, and it was just too difficult and tiring. But the humans teamed up and carried me downstairs! how humiliating! But even if I don't like being carried up or down, it made things a bit easier.
Even walking is very difficult since my hind legs are now almost useless both from weakness and my old lumbar instability problem. But hey, I'm still trying! And I'm still happy to be with my family. And last night and today we enjoyed some fresh snow (which I love to eat), plus mild weather (because yeah, those days at -25C aren't enjoyable for me).
See you soon!
January 8th 2015 10:11 am
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Hello! and happy new year. So yes, after all those medical adventures and mishaps, I'm still here, a few days after starting 2015 with my family, and about 2 months after turning 9 years old, which is quite respectable for a great dane.
Winter finally arrived and it's been pretty tough for me, since my bad paw is not very useful for support needed when walking on ice and snow. Also, since it hurts, I don't want to go on long walks, and my humans say that the lack of excercise has caused me to lose a lot of muscle mass and weight.
The last time I was at the vet, the scale said I lost 4kg, which is about 8% of my previous weight. Dad was surprised to see my collarbones showing, they had always been covered by a layer of muscle and other tissue!
Unfortunately my last treatment at the vet (another bone-strengthening treatment) didn't really work, so at this point mom & dad say the best thing to do is to try to reduce my pain with medication, since most of the remaining treatment options (amputation or chemotherapy) aren't really suitable for me.
I've been taking pain control medication, so with that I'm a bit more comfortable, and my humans have been watching me closely to see if I'm doing more or less OK.
So I'm still hanging in here! even if I'm in a bit of pain and a bit sad, I'd like to go out for a nice walk and squirrel-watching but my body is not up to it anymore. But I'm still happy to be with my family. And don't worry, my humans are watching me and will not let me suffer; and of course, I will tell them if I need help.
I'll try to post again soon to keep folks up to date!
P.S.: Dogster has a problem when trying to post comments, so if you'd like to reply or leave me a comment, you could try leaving a gift; there are usually free gifts that cost no zealies and can have a short message attached. It's not ideal, I know; I told my humans about this and they said they'd try to find an alternative.