April 17th 2005 4:19 am
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Hurricanes Frances, Ivan and Jeanne took an unexpected toll on our household. The damages to the house and landscaping can and is being repaired. The loss of our Angel Girl on Nov.7th is something we can not repair so easily.
Angel and Beau found a small break in the feneline, caused by a 30 yr. old tree, downed by the storms. There was a limb, no more than perhaps " in diameter lying on a section of fence, taking it to the ground, hidden behind the heavy foilage. They went out that evening and after 10 minutes in the dark, had found the opening. Both left, Beau came home when called, Angel never did. After contacting everyone in creation to help look for her (Fire dept., 911 dispatechers, Pyr rescue, emergency vets, Boy Scouts, human socities, sheriff's dept., animal control officers and all vets once they opened) within 4 counties I posted about 250 full color flyers. After 3 days of fruitlessly searching the woods and every street for miles around, knocking on strangers doors...I received a call.
Our beautiful girl, 90 pounds of "glow in the dark" shiny white dog was struck and killed by a hit and run driver the evening they got out. She was found the following morning and disposed of down a canal embankment by the person who found her.
Since I received the call at dusk and it was impossible to reach her at night, I spent the evening in a flood of fresh tears. She was brought home to me and laid to rest in her own back yard the following day by some wonderfully caring folks.
Two weeks later, the animal control officer called to check on me. It seems that Angel may still be out there somewhere. The dog brought home was not wearing a collar. Angel had hers on with all her tags (Avid chip tag, rabies tag, owner information tag). Angel's collar would not have pulled or slipped off as it was loose enough for comfort, but would not slide over her head and ears. Now I have to wonder, did we lose her and not find her in the woods? Did someone take her in and decide to keep her?
It's been 5 months now and still no sign of my girl. I still drive up and down the side streets looking for her and watch for her everytime I'm in the van, no matter how far from home we are.
Perhaps it would have been kinder to keep the belief that she was at rest in her own back yard. I guess I'll never know what happened to her. I keep the thought that some loving person found her and has her in their home, loving and spoiling her every minute of the day.
I have still not gotten over (and probably never WILL) the guilt I feel at letting Angel & Beau out into an unsecured yard. The hurricanes just seem to keep on taking...
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