Krycek

Last Tuesday, August 2, 2011 we were forced to help Krycek cross over. We rushed Kry to the vet thinking he might have bloat (or something - other strange symptoms) but learned far tragic news. Cancer. True to form, it didn't show itself until it had completely destroyed his perfect body. It was too late to do anything. I have never hated something so much. He'd had it for so long it had shrunken his precious heart, yet he never showed it. I drill my mind for signs, he just never showed any of being tired, anything, until those last few days...
I'm writing down lovely memories of my boy to share a bit later. For now I share (below) one of my fav poems, it's one that describes how I feel. You know when your dog is behind you, you don't see them but you can feel them? That's what I feel now with Krycek. I still feel him. I felt him leave the vet office with us and feel him sporadically throughout the day and night.

Krycek, I know your still around, the whole family feels you. We love you so much. You are the bravest and strongest soul I know. You had a hard life living with EPI and the now later ouchy growing in your tummy, but you don't have to worry about that anymore. You always did everything asked of you, never begged (even with legitimate reason too) or complained (even with legitimate reason too) lived through so much more then you ever deserved, I would have taken it all away if only I could. You're my hero. We're so very proud of you and to have known you. Thank you for your abundance of love and help. Love you to infinity+!!!! Until we see each other again on those soft clouds of pearly white. Sending lots of warm hugs and love. ~ Your mum xoxoxo




THE LOSS OF A HEART-DOG
~Author Unknown

I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, you found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you so softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea.
You were thinking of the many times your hands reached down to me.

I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wished I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you that I'm not lying there.

I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said, "It's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is over now ... I smile and watch you yawning,
And say, "Goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ... then come Home to be with me.