4 months

This morning I cut the grass. I cut around your grave site and thought how sad that you didn't get to spend warm weather here with us. 4 months today! My heart still aches when I think of you and tears always flow. I know it is selfish, on my part, to wish you were here. You needed to rest and have peace. I just wish it could have been different. That you could have gotten well and be running and playing and snuggeling here instead of there. I miss you baby girl.
I know you are watching over Heidi. Your doing a very good job of it too. She is coming along and tomorrow will be spayed. Then she will go to her Forever Home and have a good life. The vet is going to have to take her leg off but I know your watching over her and she will be fine. She is a sweetie.
Are you watching me pick up the dogs for other volunteers at the pound? I give them a good bath and talk sweet to them so they will feel safe. I always tell them about you and how I did the same thing for you. When Heidi is gone I will go pick one out for Daddy and I to foster again.
When I went to the pound yesterday I was taken in the back through the kennels to see what dog I wanted for Miss Joyce to foster. I picked a little black dog who looked at me with such sad eyes. Last night, all I could think of was what it was like for you when you were there. Im my mind, I could see you sitting there on the wet cement floor with all the barking and crying dogs. I understand why you were trembeling that day I picked you up. It's a terrable place Missy. I'm so sorry you were ever there. So much about your life I wish I could change, So much. All I can do is work to make life good for others who are still alive.

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