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Malachi Memories

1 year today.

Today it has been a year since I've moved to the bridge. It is lots of fun and we play all day. All the other dogs here are great and we all get along. I do miss my mama and sister Hannah and hope that they know that I love them both.

Last Day Memories.

My last day I layed on the floor with my mama and she cuddled with me all day. She kept telling me she was sorry and that she would miss me. I didn't understand why but I knew I was really really tired and couldn't really move around without having a hard time breathing. I was pretty cold and she got a blanket and we layed under it. She kept giving me kisses and I felt so happy.
I wasn't really all that hungry but I did eat lots of peanuts that last day. That's all I really wanted. Hannah was jealous because she wanted some too.
I remember my mama calling my dad and telling him that I was sick and she wanted him to come see me but he never came. She told me how sorry she was that he didn't come. I didnt understand why but I'm glad my mama was there with me.
The next morning my mama cried all morning and held me. We layed in the sun from the window in the computer room. It was so relaxing. Then my mama's parents showed up and she got up and took my collar off and told Hannah to say good bye. Hannah was as confused as me. But I told her that it would be okay and to keep mama safe and happy. I told Hannah what a great big sister she had been and that we would see eachother again someday.
We then got into the car and went for a ride. We got to a vets office. I know this because I'd been to so many. But it wasn't one i'd been to before. We got in and sat in the waiting room. Mama held me on her lap; then we went in the room. Mama let me walk around as she fed me dog biscuts. When the Dr. Lady came in my mama started to cry. I knew that this probably wasn't a good thing. They put me on the table and gave me a shot to calm me down. As I lay there I thought of all the fun times and all the bad times and how much i'd miss everyone. Mama was telling me how brave I was and how strong I was. I gave her a little kiss on the face and then the dr came back. Mama pressed her face against my shoulder and was telling me that it was okay to go. I got another shot and started to feel very sleepy. I kept hearing my mamas voice telling me she loved me and that she wanted me to go to the Rainbow Bridge. Then I was gone.
I Love You too Mama!

Glass tears for Malachi.

My mom wrote this for me today...She's having some issues reborn with the anniversary of my death fast approaching. Please read..

"Glass Tears"

Tears crash
Like glass shatters.
Falls naked against the earth.
Run down these pale cheeks
Tear open my soul;
For all to bear witness.
Indiscretion fills me,
Defeat empties me.
Raw emotion like waves
Envelope my solace breath.
Drown alone
In this dark.
Fall away with empty sorrow.
See your face
Mirrored in my own reflection.
With blistered hands,
I crawl along endless thorny paths.
Searching for something.
To fill this void.
This guilt, it kills me slowly.



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