February 3rd 2009 11:22 pm
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My sweet,old Ceasar is gone how my heart aches. I know i had to let him go but now that he's gone i can't help to think "should of i waited longer?" When am i to know when the time is right i'm not God. His daddy was a coward & didn't come to be with Ceasar his last minutes on earth. I had to help lift Ceasar back legs into the car & when we got to the Vets Ceasar couldn't get his back legs to move right so he could get out of the car. It made me so sad & i know it upset him , he was crying as he tried, so after 20 minutes of trying to coax him out & trying to lift him I ended up having to drag the sheet he was on to pull him out backwards as his back end fell slowly to the ground. :( He was a big boy still weighing over 150 lbs. We including Dr.Annie stroked him & talked to him for 30 minutes or so while he was under the anesteshia. Then my 5 yr old daughter Rain & i cried as his soul left his body we hugged & kissed him good bye. Rain kept crying "but i'll miss big boy"! I told her "I will too :(".
I pray dogs really go to heaven because I know his beautiful wife Cleopatra & handsome son Caleb, daughter Dizzy & his kitty siblings Fuzzy & Elvis were waiting to welcome him at heavens gate.