missing

diamonds they fade
and flowers they bloom
I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away
They keep knockin' me sideways

I'm still missing you, my sweet girl.
celebrating the 18th anniversary of your birth.

a fragile circle...

“We who choose to surround ourselves
with lives even more temporary than our
own, live within a fragile circle;
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps,
we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only
certain immortality, never fully
understanding the necessary plan.”
― Irving Townsend

birthday thoughts

"I drink good coffee every morning
it comes from a place that's far away
and when I'm done I feel like talking
without you here there is less to say
I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
but what is closer to the truth
if I lived 'til I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over you..."







(thanks to Colin Hay)

a thousand little stars *•.¸✿⊰⊹

Give me my Stella; and, when she shall die,
Take her and cut her out in little stars,
And she will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.

~ Willie the Shakes (& us)

a very blue moon ...

If I miss you, well, you know what they say

It's just once in a very blue moon

And I feel one coming on soon...

happy birthday, sweet girl

3 years ago today

there's a harvest moon rising
-- one bright star still shining...


Grapefruit moon, one star shining,
shining down on me.
I've heard that tune, and now I'm pining,
can't you see?
'Cause every time I hear that melody,
something breaks inside,
the grapefruit moon, one star shining,
can't turn back the tide.

Never had a destination, I could not get across.
You became my inspiration, oh, but what a cost.
Every time I hear that melody,
something breaks inside,
The grapefruit moon, one star shining,
is more than I can hide.

---Tom Waits

Remembering your birthday

It's another less than happy day for me, Stella.
I'm flying south today to honor the passing of my dear Aunt Jo.
I've never enjoyed airplanes and even less so these days but I will be thinking of you
and her and wishing you both peace and rest.
You would have been 15 years old today.
I will miss and think of you both every day of my life.

love always,
Mom

september 30 2008

Dear Mom,

try to remember the kind of September
When no one wept except the willow...

I know September makes you sad but
try to think of me here with wonderful
friends
who searched until they found
me the perfect pumpkin!

try to remember we''re not gone,
we've just gone ahead.

remember you taught me to wait and I was
always a good listener.
I'd wait forever for you.


love and starlight always,
Stella

Happy Birthday, Stella

Stella By Starlight (12.29.93-9.30.06)

RIP sweet girl
thanks for reminding me that an old dog can always learn a new trick.

9.30.2007

The first star in the sky tonight
- a star's light is always on
the brightest one I see tonight
I will name for you

A clear light in the southern sky
is there for us, until the dawn
to catch the twinkle in your eye,
for us to wish upon

Though our paths may part as the years go by
as near and far we wander
I will look for the light in the southern sky
and I'll know where you are

My first star, always in my heart
constant, never gone
Stella, shine for me tonight
you'll always be the brightest star