Ben 1994-2005 (In Loving Mem

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Sex: Male   Weight: 100+ lbs

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Special Gift Box:
The family of Charlie, Abbie, Teddy, Maggie, Sam and more!

Benny, Dope, lump, Benny big bum, bum bum.

Doggie Dynamics:
not playfulvery playful

Sun Sign:
Rainbow Bridge
Quick Bio:

March 2nd 1994

CAMP. Swimming in the Lake up north. Following my Mommy!! Swimming, FOOD , swimming and walks. and swimming Did I mention swimming????

fireworks,vacuum cleaner,most male dogs,thunder, having to lay in the kitchen until his paws were dry enough to enter the living room.

Favorite Toy:
huge rawhide bone, purple squeaky ball, The cat (s) - our cat Ty and we had another one before Ty but I have no scanned pic to do a page up for her YET. Her name was Jessie. She hated Ben, and he thought it was the most fun in the world to bug her.

Favorite Food:
Hot dog weiners, Jerky treats,meat leftovers.

Favorite Walk:
We used to go walkies all the time and he was happy wherever I was!

Best Tricks:
sit! LOL definately NOT roll over!

Arrival Story:
My dad's secretary had 2 golden retreivers and they had a litter of pups. Ben hid in my coat when I was deciding on a puppy. He passed away May 20 2005 due to cancer at the age of 11. And I still miss him. He was my first baby dog and we had one of those weird bonds that you sometimes have with a dog. He would have died for me and he would have followed me anywhere. He was my love, my golden shadow.

he can also be found at rainbow bridge with our cat Jessie. It is almost 2 yrs since he has died......and I still miss him. And I always will. In Feb 2005, I noticed, during a walk ,that he was walking kind of funny. We took him to the vet and we all figured it was arthritis as Benny was 11 yrs old almost. so there we were ignoring his funny walk for another month. In March, he lost control of his back end.. He could not stand up properly and the vet tested him for every possible thing.....I was panicked!!!! Because he had a cancerous lump removed 7 months earlier......we had different drugs to try for various things.......then in April. We sent Ben in for an ultrasound.....(We had to save $ for it) and then it was determined, he had Lymphosarcoma.....cancer all through him. It was everywhere.... The vet told us to take him home for 7 days and then bring him back to be euthanized. We said "NO" and you know what? He lasted for almost 2 months, from diagnosis (April 1,) until his passing (May 20/2005). We had lots of ups and downs, the vet put him on Prednisone and he was able to go for walks and make it up the stairs again and everything but it only lasted for 3 weeks or so, then he got weak again. But when he went came fast. On the night before May 20/2005, he could no longer stand up or walk and he peed where he lay and we knew that was it. That night I cried myself to sleep and told myself "If Benny is still laying in the same spot, in the morning, it is time for him to go" it was so hard to let my baby go, he was such a happy boy and smiled through his whole life and also, through his illness and even on his last day, HE WAS STILL SMILING! Anyway, in the morning.........he was still laying in the same spot and..well, you know the to the vet for the final goodbye. I must have bawled for weeks after.... I still cry for him now. He was my BABY! How I miss my Baby boy. next day..... we had a black bird sitting in front of our house on our front step. for 4 or 5 days we saw that bird. I said it was a sign. Benny is ok. and he is telling me. I also used to hear his chains jingling. I actually thought I had lost it (my mind). But I heard him jingling around the house, jingling around the yard, jingling behind me on mother in law was also "nudged" on her leg and turned around to see nothing there....It happens to me still every now and then. Most of this weirdness stopped the week Jake came home. I believe that Ben was waiting to see Jake come, so he knew I would be ok. After Jake came to the family, I didn't hear anymore jingling. But every now and then I get a "nudge". I turn expecting to see Jake or Teddy and nobody is there. It happened to my son once at camp. Camp was Ben's favourite place to be. We had a weird bond. For instance, If I went on vacation, he would not eat. Once my husband and myself were play fighting and he was so worried that he actually climbed on top of me (I was on the couch) and covered me with his body... Today, I got pictures of him out of our photo album. Good ones, before ge got sick. He looks at least 50 pounds heavier LOL! I am going to ask someone at work to scan them for me. So my Ben can have a Dogster page as good as his brothers do!!!!!

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Today is my Birthday!

March 2nd 2011 6:07 pm
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Today is my Birthday...I would have been 17 years old! BOL!!!! What an old fart I am! Luckily at the Rainbow bridge, there is no more aging!




5 years ago today...

May 20th 2010 7:27 pm
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The years go by and it gets easier
That is what they say
It was the worst day of my life
when you had to go away.
But the years went by and it got easier
although it took awhile
to think of you and not cry and cry
now I think of you with a smile
And I remember all the fun we had
The things you used to do
Like swimming till you could swim no more
and rolling in your poo. !!!! ;)
I am the mom of 2 pups now
They run me ragged every day
They are filling the hole you left in my heart
when you had to go away.
5 years goes by so fast, Benny and I have lit 2 candles for you. One for Jake and one for Teddy.
We went to your pond today. Mommy walked 2 count em 2 DOGS!!!!!! (Were you laughing at me?)

please go and visit Ben's page on if you can. I have updated it. tm

Benny....Gone but never forgotten.
and please excuse my poor excuse for poetry above!


Remembering Ben at Christmas and always, love Mommy.

December 22nd 2009 9:31 pm
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It is the time of year when I always end up thinking of my Benny boy.

Ben was the love of my life and we lost him May 20 2005.

I just want to remember him. It helps to heal. And this time of year I often will light a candle of remembrance for him.

I can now remember Ben with a smile. I remember Ben with love. I no longer cry at the mere mention of his name.

I often say that it took 2 dogs (Jake and Teddy) to heal the hole in my heart that was left when Ben passed away. There will never be another Ben. It is not possible. Just as there will never be another Jake or another Teddy.
But at this time I want to light a Christmas candle and Remember my Big Benny!

Merry Christmas to Ben
"My Golden Shadow"

Love Mommy

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