October 3rd 2012 12:13 pm
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Happy Birthday my sweetheart. Can you see me baby boy? Do you see mommy crying? I try not to Brutus I really do. Somedays are good now that 2 years and more have passed. But just when I think I have gotten thru the worse I realize ‘it’ is still here. That horrible realization that you are gone. That all the crying in the world will not bring you back. Our time together is so precious to me. I guess I am guilty of living in the past like the silly old woman I am. I like to daydream sometimes that you are still here with me. I long for the day I cross over from this life and we are together again. When something bad happens these days I don’t freak out, I kind of take it in stride. How many times can your heart be broken? Once you have lived thru this type of sorrow it makes other things seem less important and not so bad. Not so bad when you compare it to losing a loved one. I so remember your birthdays and how excited I would be shopping for your favorite treats and toys. I wish I could buy something for you now to help me feel better ha! I know this is not especially joyful of an diary entry but if anything it’s the truth. I love you my sweetheart, I love you more each day. You are forever etched in my heart and soul Brutus!
♥ Brutus ♥