October 25th 2012 12:53 pm
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Gucci, I think of you everyday!! I do admit, I do not cry as much as before, but still it hurts to think that I cant play with you anymore. But, thank God, there is dogster where I feel you still live and play with your friends here and in heaven! It is extremely joyful when my daughter looks at your photo and says "Poochi thotho"! She is so lucky that she met you even so only for a little over a year. I strongly believe that your spirit still lives with us.
I feel bad that I stayed away from you after my daughter was born for more than one reason. You were not in the best of your health and you were quite irritable because of loss of your fur and I did not want to irritate you in anyway and I did not want anyone to point an accusing finger at you that you passed some infection on to my daughter. I can never forgive myself for not being with you till the end. I hope you would find it in you to forgive me - for all the mistakes that I committed - please forgive me. Thinking back, I feel that I might have not been very considerate of your feelings in the last year of your life, but trust me, it was not intentional. I love you Gucci. The bond that we shared can never be with any other furry one - not even Coffee or any one dog. I have always loved you but I am not sure if I told you so. Let me tell you now - I love you and I have always loved you - with all my heart.
June 28th 2012 10:05 am
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FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND
You're giving me a special gift,
So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic, that will
Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess,
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner 'til the end.
Please, understand just what this gift,
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you,
To now grant me this appeal.
Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady dog,
My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing,
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart,
And memory I'll stay.
I'll be there watching over you,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
...a young dog once again.
(c) Karen Clouston
yes, we did. we cut the leash and let him run - as a puppy again; as a healthy dog that he once was; to make him happy and to get rid of his pain and suffering.
it has been more than 1 month but it still hurts. it always will.
but, looking at the video that was made in the morning on May 26, 2012, i realise how much physically painful it was for him.
if only he could talk and would talk to me now - whether he was happy with us and whether he was happy that we made that final decision about him.
Gucci - i love you.
May 26th 2012 6:42 pm
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Gucci passed on yesterday (May 26, 2012 Saturday) after bringing us uncountable moments of joy, love, peace and sheer amusement over the last 13 years. He hadn't been feeling well for over a year now. He had developed cataract on both eyes, had difficulty walking and hearing, and had lost most of his beautiful golden coat to an infection. Last week he had fractured his hind leg after being knocked down by a speeding car, and was limping around on 3 legs. He was in pain. The vet recommended it was time to say goodbye to him, and we did, with mixed feelings. We will forever question if we sent him away too soon, sent him away before it was his time. What we are certain of, however, is that he was much loved, and will be sorely missed, more than we can ever put in words. We are also certain that Gucci's Dogster friends absolutely loved him. We want to thank everyone who sent love, warmth and treats his way. You made his life and ours joyful. We have loved having you as part of our lives. It may be a while before we connect again. Until then, we send lots of love and hugs to you and your four-legged babies.