October 3rd 2010 2:12 pm
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It happened so fast, so suddenly, so unexpectedly. She wasn't healthy, obviously, but despite that I thought I'd still have some time with her. Sandy, my heartdog, my guardian, my only true friend, died Oct 2, 2010. She was doing great, but that morning she just collapsed. Despite a emergency trip to the vet, she was gone. Just like that. I don't know if I could have done better, what if I changed her diet or routine or meds. What if,what if. All the questions, the guilt, won't bring her back. It's still sinking in, that I don't have that little spunky terrier in my life.
All I can say is sorry, sorry I wasn't there for her like she has been for me all these years. I hope her spirit can forgive me, so that I may have her with me in my soul since she is gone in body. RIP Sandy Michelle, I will never have another friend like you.
August 27th 2010 4:42 pm
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So Sandy was tested again today. Instead of going down like we had hoped, her levels are slightly higher than last months. The vet has sadly concluded that it is indeed chronic kidney failure, not reversable. Right now it's in the very early stages and progression is slow, the vet of course can't pinpoint how long she has. Could be 6 weeks or 4 years, he said. The treatment will be the same since it seems to be doing good, even though levels went up. Which means special diet and fluids a couple times a week. She is my heartdog and I hope to get many special memories of her to come.
July 28th 2010 4:38 pm
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Wow, 18 teeth were removed from Sandy's mouth and is most likely the casue of her kidney issues. Fluids 3 or 4 times a week and Hill's k/d(until the homecooking diet is formulated) is her treatment right now. The vet is hoping that with the teeth now fixed that the kidneys will heal. She gets tested again in a month. I've always considered myself a good dog owner but how could I totally neglect my heartdog like this, her teeth should have enver been this way. I am sorry to Sandy for neglecting her and I am sorry to all those actual good dog owners whom I thought I was among. I wish I could turn back time but I can't so I have to move forward and hope my severe neglect has not permanently damaged my baby girl.
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