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My Diary

Almost a year

February 28th will be the anniversary of my leaving Mom on earth and waiting for her to join me above. Mom is having an extra hard time this month and the closer the 28th gets the harder it is.

My urn sits in a special place with my picture on it. I grace the walls, the file cabinets, bookmarks, etc. I'm everywhere she looks, but most important I'm watching over her from above and sometimes I reach down and give her a paw - just lightly enough not to scare but give comfort.

I'm glad that she has Max & Trendy to help fill her arms and give her that physical comfort that I can no longer give to her. I'm glad she loves them and I know that I'll always be the King in her heart. She now has my human brother's little Rambo sitting in her lap, he tries to fill the void of where I use to be, but as much as she has come to love him, she can't let him lay on her chest just below her chin while she reads - that place will always be mine.

I look down at the place where she keeps the dog food and treats and see that my bowls are sitting there waiting. I'm not sure what they're waiting for but I know Mom just can't part with them. My coat, sweater and blanket are still laying close by Mom's chair. Someday maybe she can let go and get another Chihuahua to take my physical place but not yet.

I'm waiting and someday I'll be in her arms again.

Dogs don't leave your heart just your arms

I'm no longer on earth with my Mom but I'm in her heart. I may have left in body but my spirit still lingers wherever Mom goes. I'm up above watching over Mom, Dad, Max & Trendy and waiting for them to come join me. I know they're very sad that I'm not around because I see Max looking for me and watch him howl when he doesn't find me. I see Dad get tears when he looks at my picture and know that he now carries a photo of me with me. I know that Mom still cries and aches for me to fill her arms and that she wakes up at night and reaches over to touch me. I'm watching and waiting and trying to give comfort from above. Someday my Mom will cross the bridge and join me and then I'll be held and her heart will be full again.

Dogs Leave Paw Prints On Your Heart Forever

February 28, 2008 Adam left this world. My heart feels so empty. I know he's at peace now and will have no more pain, but my selfishness wanted him to be around a lot longer. Adam had a lot of health problems and had started having seizures a few months ago and it was a seizure that took him from me. He was in his Dad's arms when he had the seizure and then he started to relax and his Dad handed him to me and we headed for the veterinary, but he never came out of the seizure completely and never made it to the Vets office.

Adam was never considered a dog in our house he was simply our baby! He was an exceptionally special baby. Everyone that met Adam thought I had done an exceptional job in training him, but I never had to train him. From the time he was a puppy he simply did what pleased me, I never had to get onto him, he always seemed to know what would please me before I did.

Adam is a part of my heart and will forever be a part of me.