April 16th 2013 12:02 pm
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(April 17th 2003)wILL mARK THE 10TH yR. OF YOUR PASSING
It was the day you went to heaven
Today I reflect back on that day with a very heavy heart. :-(
Much has changed sweet daughter of mine. The world the people the Cruelty
And the Love. But
FOR MOST PART DADDY AND I ARE THE SAME. Just an older and heavier version of us LOL
Few wks. Ago I had a mild heart attack and I just blew it off. 2 days later I found out what it was and what had happened. Now mommy takes Nitro to make sure it doesn't happen again. Promised dad and Trixie and Tomcat that I would take better care of me. I often look at your ashes and I wonder what to do. Do I leave you her in your cedar box until I pass and you can join me. Or do I sprinkle you somewhere so you can be free. I wish you could tell me what you wanted
if I owned my own house I would bury your ashes in the yard surrounded by sweet flowers and plants as I know how much you loved to sit in the warm sun on a breezy day. But sadly I have no place I own to do this.
Trixie health is failing and I just fear losing her too. Having to say goodbye to you about killed me. I just don't want to go thru that again. So if you could ask the Big Guy up there if he could give you some special powder to sprinkle on her for health I sure would love that.
Tom Cat is still plugging along.no longer walking the walk with me every day. He is very old as you know and very fat and slow. Been in a few bad fights and gnawed on by a coyote which he survived due to $ and a great vet WHO DID An AMAZING SURGERY. But time with him is fading.
Daddy sure loves that cat> Jennifer has the cutest little one his name is Steven and he is beautiful he is 5 now. She is expecting another child in October. We are all hoping a little girl. I’m going to try to create something very special for your 10th anniversary tomorrow.
Looking for inspiration.....
LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETIE AND I KNOW WE WILL BE TOGETHER SOON
PS I lost my dad and mom in the past few yrs.
if you see them please ask them to come visit me WHILE I SLEEP
I Have been having such a hard time finding peaceful sleep lately. I have so much fear loneliness and uncertainty on my heart that I guess its keeping me restless at night. I miss you curled up in my side Trixie doesn't want to sleep next to me. Likes her space. There is such a cold where you were once.
God Bless you little Angel
December 31st 2012 4:01 pm
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Wishing you a very special day at the bridge. we all missing you mostly me ! wanted you to know that i can Not sleep with out a pillow curled tight to my tummy every night,
even after all this time.
19.5 years of you curled as tightly to my tummy as you could get.
Trixie she is a wonderful loving part of my life But saddly
She does Not curl up to me that close.
and rarely Ever sleeps with us.
that is her choice.
Puppie there is Not a night gone by that when i lay my head down to sleep that i don't miss you
I hope Heaven is as beautiful as i read, and that you are as happy as they say you are,
I want Nothing more in the world then to know you are at peace ,and waiting inbetween playing for me to come up to those gates.
Tomorrow i will open your urn and i will light your candles and i will look at your photos and cry again. then i will hug Trixie tight and thank God above for sending her to save me from dying of a broken heart.
then i will say a pray for her to be by my side as long as you were darling.
tonight after i fall asleep i hope i will wake to feel you climbing up on the bed with me. one more time
God Bless you my sweet Angel
We are another day closer till my journey to the gate.
Can't wait to hold you in my arms for eternity,
Now go Play!!!
Mommy Daddy will have you on our minds and well you are already forever in my heart.......
April 22nd 2010 12:42 pm
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I WAS FOUND ON THE STREETS I WAS ABOUT 6 MONTHS MAYBE 9 MONTHS OLD PREGNANT STARVED WHERE YOU COULD SEE MY BONES BULGING OUT FROM MY SKIN.I WAS SO FRIGHTENED . MOM HAS A VERY PERSONAL STORY OF HOW WE SAVED EACH OTHERS LIVES .BUT THIS IS TO PERSONAL TO SHARE HERE. ASK I'M SURE SHE LOVE TO SHARE IT.
POINT BEING I WAS TAKEN IN TO MY FOREVER HOME 1985 OR SO
AND I WAS A PART OF THAT LOVING HOME TILL
APRIL 2003 WHEN I WENT TO THE RAINBOW BRIDGE..
I WAS NEVER HUNGRY OR UNLOVED .MOMMY USED TO STROKE MY HEAD FOR HRS AT A TIME .I SLEPT CUDDLED IN MOM TUMMY ,SHE CARRIED ME EVERYWHERE.MY FEET HARDLY TOUCHED THE GROUND.BUT WHEN THEY DID I WAS OFF AND RUNNING YELPING HAPPILY TO THE WORLD .
LOOK AT ME I AM LOVED .. EVERYONE I AM LOVED.
ADOPTION MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. IT MEANS A STREET RAT LIKE ME CAN FIND A WARM BED A FULL BOWL OF FOOD /WATER A GOOD DR TO FIX MY BROKEN LEG .
FREEDOM FROM GIVING BIRTH ON THE STREETS TO MORE PUPPIES THAT WILL ONLY PARISH FROM HUNGRY DISEASE OR INJURY.
A FAMILY WHO LOVED ME ENOUGH TO HAVE ME SPAYED MY SHOTS. FIXED MY TEETH.
BUT ALL THAT FALLS SECONDARY TO THE LOVE I FOUND WITH MY ADOPTED FAMILY OVER THE NEXT 19 YRS. THE LAST 5 YRS OF MY LIFE I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE
AS TIME WENT ON MY HEART GREW SO WEAK.
I WAS PUT ON 3 DIFFERENT MEDICATION
THESE MEDICATIONS WERE THE ONLY WAY I COULD LIVE AND THEY WERE VERY EXPENSIVE.
I HAD TO HAVE THEM 2 X DAY.
BUT DID THAT STOP MY FAMILY? NEVER!
SADLY I NEW THAT THERE WERE TIMES MOM DAD GAVE UP THEIR OWN MEDICATIONS THEY NEEDED OR FOOD TO MAKE SURE I HAD LIFE SAVING MEDICATIONS I NEEDED.
THEY NEVER WENT FAR FROM HOME BECAUSE EVERYTHING IN THEIR LIFE WAS SCHEDULED AROUND MY NEEDS.
I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT THERE ARE FEW OUT THERE WHO LOVE SO SELFLESSLY AS MOMMY & DADDY DID.
THOSE WHO DO ARE ANGELS ON EARTH.
TO A LIL STREET RAT LIKE ME.
WELL I LIVED A LONG LOVING LIFE. AND WHEN THAT FAITHFUL DAY ROLLED IN UPON US I GOT TO SEE THE REAL LOVE.
THE TRUEST TEST OF ALL.
AFTER BREAKING MY BACK IN A LIL FALL OR TWIST DR SAID AT MY AGE IT COULD HAD BEEN A COUGH. BUT AFTER 7 DAYS OF ROUND THE CLOCK MORPHINE AND MOM DAD SLEEPING WITH ME ON THE FLOOR..
THE FINAL GIFT THEY GAVE ME WAS THE ULTIMATE GIFT FROM A BELOVED FAMILY. AN HONOR SOME SAY... BESTOWED UPON A DOG/CAT OWNER .
THEY STAYED WITH ME AND HELD ME IN THEIR LOVING ARMS WITH TEARS STREAMING DOWN THEIR FACES AS I TOOK MY FINAL BREATH AND WITH MY LAST EXHALE I SET THEM FREE FROM MY VIEW..
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
THAT RAINY APRIL DAY
APRIL 17 2003
MY JOURNEY ENDED .
NOT ON THE STREETS STARVING TO DEATH.
BUT IN MOMMY & DADDY'S LOVING ARMS.
ADOPT A STREET RAT WE HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE...
OUR HEART IS FREELY GIVEN FOR A LIFETIME
JUST ADOPT US AND GIVE US THAT CHANCE.
MY FAMILY DID.
AND I GAVE THEM MY HEART FOR INFINITY
OUR TIME IS SLIPPING AWAY
HOW DO I HOLD ON TO YOU
AND STILL LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO LET YOU GO?
HOW WILL I PUT OUT THE LIGHT
WHEN INSIDE MY HEART THE FIRES GROW?
HOW DO I TURN BACK THE TIME
AND TURN DEATH FROM THE DOOR?
HOW WILL I FILL MY EMPTY ARMS
WHEN I CAN'T HOLD YOU ANYMORE?
HOW WILL I JUST STEP BACK AND LET THINGS BE AS THEY MUST.
HOW CAN I SAY GOOD -BYE
WHEN I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH.
HOW WILL I STAY WARM AT NIGHT,
WHEN YOUR NOT CUDDLED BY MY SIDE?
HOW DO I PREPARE FOR THIS ?
LORD KNOWS HOW HARD I'VE TRIED.
HOW WILL I GIVE YOU BACK TO GOD
WHEN I FEEL THAT YOU ARE MINE.
HOW WILL I EVER ACCEPT THE FACT
WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
WRITTEN BY AUDREY W. (AKA MOMMA)
DEDICATED TO MY MOST BELOVED FRIEND IN THIS LIFETIME
THIS POEM WAS STARTED 1 YR BEFORE I PASSED AND FINISHED A WHILE AFTER I PAST.
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