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MY LIFE IN SUNNY CALIFORNIA...an endless Magical Mystery Tour!

A conspiracy of silence speaks louder than words....

I wonder who said that. I do believe it was John Lennon once upon a time.
So my friends, I guess I shot off my mouth before I allowed my mind to engage once again. I think that living from the heart is a difficult thing as not too many people can see where it is really coming from.
Pita, Lalo and myself spoke so highly of Justin and he became silent. It was just a few short days ago that I believed in him and he seemingly was so earnest. Now, after asking me to purchase him an I Phone and a few other trinkets that I delayed on (on purpose to see where his heart really was), decided that I was not fast enough to buy his love or affections or time. Once again, fooled by words not by actions.
To me this is distressing however has taught me yet another valuable lesson. Listen with your heart but beware of intentions. I was taken in and once again disappointed. Does this bother me? Yes indeed. However, what hurts me more is the fact that he gained the trust and admiration of my dogs Pita and especially Lalo and now has abandoned all as we were not quick enough to see through it all and buy him his toys and buy our way into his so called heart.
I suppose, the video that we were so bent on getting put up did not go up for a reason. I suppose the big shot up there and my guardian angels, Teddy and Layla saw this and messed things up. I now know for sure that love is a very hard thing to achieve and it should be earned as of now; the very hard way. I have lost my trust in those that quickly warm to me and want to "laughingly referred to as love you" almost immediately. I see now that there was a hidden agenda and will never, ever trust someone that I would or should have thought found me a fascinating "same page" person so quickly.
Did this break my heart? No. Why? I expected as much because of all of the crocodile tears and stories. Am I disappointed? Yes indeed. Especially after what I went through over the past 10 months.
I suppose I can trust my friends from afar and most certainly my animals who I must exclaim - have always and forever loved me without conditions or my buying them anything except food, shelter and a whole lotta love.
This also brings back Jacob into the picture. I went to Los Angeles over the weekend and brought Lalo and Pita. They are always loving and forgiving. Jake is in trouble and needs someone to be there for him. The OTHER FOOT was put down and the conditions have been placed if and when I decide that he will benefit and learn and grow from his previous mistakes. Respect for him is there. The love we once knew is gone. That is unfortunate so far as I can see but at least I will know that I have lived by my promise to him and his mother that so long as I live, he will be protected from the animals and leeches. I can at least be a lesson for him to learn in honesty, respect and loyalty.
Now don't everyone jump on me all at once. I did not say this would happen. I am re thinking the plan as he has been my best half for 8 years and he will always have a place in my heart for him, regardless of what he did, said and etc to me.
I am going to think about all of this for about a week before I render a final decision.
I think though at first thought, to just live with my Pita, Lalo who has by the way become more and more alpha and loving as of late. Pita and Lalo love each other and respect each other and our time is well shared equally. Maybe that is why I respect them and love them as well without condition and will always without question or reservation take care of their needs without them even asking. They just have to look at me and I know. And they know I know and the love is there!
Both are aware acutely of the sadness that Justin brought on but seem to know how to make me laugh and smile by tossing me the tennis ball to play with, lying next to me and giving me a paw and lick. Jumping on the bed and jumping on me to make me pay attention to them. They KNOW! I wish I was as smart as them!
So finally, we have photographs and memories (and I will keep them up as a reminder), but I have living love in their presence and spring when I walk into the room or say or even show a hint of the leash for that walk into the desert to hunt those pesky road runners.
They do bring me peace and happiness and that is something that neither one of them has EVER let me forget or let me down on.
Some people I know and thought I could trust though, have!

No wonder we are all DOGSTERS! AND CATSTERS!

Another lesson learned....another reason not to ever underestimate or undervalue our four legged friends. I do believe for sure with every lesson that the wonderful creatures were not named DOG (GOD) by accident. They fill your heart when it is lonely or broken, and show you forever love when others abandon you.
That is what I learned over this very precious, consuming weekend.
My love to all....Bob and my true loves, Pita and Lalo (With 5 Paws, momories and love - to my two angels above - Lala and Teddy !

Super WOW! Diary of the Day?!

We are truly humbled and thank Dogster and my readers. We try to keep everyone up with our latest happenings and only hope that our stories bring you a smile and sometimes, a bit to think about. Thanks again for honoring us with your choice. Love Pita, Lalo and Bob

Dear Stormy, Cyndi, Tucker, Flicka & Pam, Kiwi Kids, Helen- and so many etcs.

I took an opportunity finally, to read all of your comments regarding my diary entries and honestly and truly appreciate your concerns and wonderful support coupled with your words of advice and wisdom. I cannot begin to express my gratitude for your concerns and love that you have expressed. We as a family, Pita, Lalo and myself are being very cautious and know that when God slams a door shut there is always a bit of air blowing through a crack in a window somewhere in that forgotten room. We are seeking only peace, piece of mind and happiness and no more broken hearts. We will move forward with our daily trials and tribulations as well as our strengths and joys brought on by hopefully a new addition to our family unit. I know that Lalo and Pita are happy to have a second person to play with and that is the most important thing in my life. It is to insure that my two charges are happy and well cared for.
Life is complicated and now that I was trashed and thrown away for about 10 months, Justin came into the picture and yet Jake is now beginning to see mistakes and asking to become a part of again. However, I see that there are still restrictions and rules as he sees and this will never happen again. I will not allow someone to dictate to me how to live and be happy. I have learned over the past 8 years that "since you can't please everyone, you gotta please yourself".
So again, thanks for your kindness and diligence in our affairs and lives. It is truly wonderful to have friends who care and see what I could not from the inside. I was too close to the situation and it almost tore me apart. Views from afar shed a better light on what I should have seen quite some time ago but was afraid to look at and being one who truly hates change, this was the test from hell. We will champion ourselves and my family of four leggers. Justin will be aprised of your wonderful support and already has to a degree. Love to all, Bob and family!