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My Diary

She was my daughter -I never had

i am not doing very well at this time, I am still griving Skittle-Butt. I have loved her for so long, it is hard for me to grasp the fact that I will never touch her again, hold her, smell her, hear her bark, she use to talk not to hear her sweet voice any more.
If it was not for the fact that I have still have skittel-butt's family, I don't think I would even want to go on.
I know that I will never have another dog like her. I would not want one that looked like her, because it would not be her, but just a terrible reminder of her.
Everyone says the pain will get less painful in time. I am not sure that is true. I lost my Mother 7 years ago and the pain is still here I lost my grandmother who raised me 15 years ago and the pain is still here not at strong at times but at other times it is just like she left me today. My family try to tell me that it is not the same as with people but I know and I am sure all of you that may read this know it is the same my losing Skittle-Butt.
She was the daughter I never had.

Gone over the Rainbow Bridge

Skittle-Butt lost her battle-
She died today, about 6am
it is a very sad time for her family, she is so loved and is missed.

She had liver disease, after her fall in August

Skittle-Butt fell down our stair's in August 08 and broke her back hip. and she could not walk for months. She is blind. and someone in the family forgot and left the baby gate down.
She taught her self how to walk again in Dec. and we were all so happy for her.
We thougt that she was going to be ok and that the worst for her was over. BUT we were wrong. she has liver disease, she has been on medicine for over a month now. But she is not getting any better,
I am having a hard time with all of this. Skittle-Butt is my daughter, since I never had one of my own. But if I had she would not be as good as Skittle-Butt has been to me.
I have not taken her to the vet because I know what they will want me to do and I just can't.
So I hope everyone who reads this will pray for both of us.
And please don't try to tell me that it's the thing to do would you want them to do it to us?
she is still walking around, but it is very hard to get her to eat, she has lost a lot of weight, she drinks ok. and she does not act like she is in any pain.
I just don't know how long she has, and don't know how I will be when she is gone.