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My Diary

It's that time again...

Even after all this time, my love, I still miss you so!

Until we're together again...
All my love forever sweet, sweet angel,


Mommy
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Missing my Girl

My Precious Angel,
My heart still aches even after all this time.

I try to move on knowing that you're in a wonderful place, full of life and love and happiness, and when we meet again, it will be more joyous than I could ever imagine.

But I still need you, I need you to help me be strong, I need your forgiveness for not doing more to ease your suffering and to keep you here with me. Why didn't I try harder to save you? You depended on me to protect you. You were always there for me, and I let you down. Why did I listen to everyone else?

Please know that I love you so & miss you every day!
You will always be my precious, precious girl...

Love, hugs & kisses,
Mommy

It Seems Like Just Yesterday

My Precious Baby Girl,
Although it's been two years since you went to the Bridge, it seems like just yesterday. Even now, I miss you so and feel that words cannot express how dear you were to me and how much I still love you with all I have. I continue to feel I let you down, that I didn't try hard enough to help you, that I should've done more to try to find some way to cure you, but I am always told there was nothing we could've done. I hope you've forgiven me because I don't think I'll ever truly forgive myself. You trusted me and loved me and I should have done more. I know you've moved on and that you are now healed and happy and playing with all your angel friends but I selfishly wish I still had you here. I want to wake up to your wet nose in my face as you lay your pretty head on the edge of the bed. I want to stroke those soft beautiful ears and smell the top of your little Dutchy head as I give you a kiss. Just know, sweet girl, that I love you dearly and I will wait for you in my dreams as I have every day.
Love, hugs & kisses,
Mommy