SHAKING

WE ARE STILL SHAKING IN NEW ZEALAND . WE ARE HAVING AFTER SHOCKS AND THEY ARE BIG ONES, WE ALL VERY NERVOUS AND WILL BE SO GLAD WHEN THIS STOPS.
MOMMY HAS KEPT US SAFE AND SOUND AND I AM NOT LEAVING HER SITE.
WE JUST HAVE TO RIDE THEM OUT .
XXX

coping with my grief.

It has been so hard for me to get through this loss of my brother.
He came to us in 2004 and before that we used to play at my furless grandads house. When he came to live I was so glad to have him and we became so close.
I have had my moments of illness and had cancer removed and to be honest thought that I would be gone before my dear brother. It was not to be. He has gone to the bridge, but then he has his dad there and I do not have anyone there yet that I am close to so I am happy to stay with mom till she is ready to let me go.
I love you Patch and miss you so much and will be with you one day.
Love you my brother.

Me and Mom and life I guess

Well we both sat down and talked about getting older. I am 13 and momma will be 56 on the tenth of January. She said that a lot had happened since her last birthday and that time just flies and life goes by. Mom is very Malancholly these days and does not seem to smile much any more. She said that she has no reason to . She is always loving and kind to me and Patch and Kaos and speaks so kindly to us but we cannot get her to smile. I know that dad leaving has ripped her heart up and although she is trying to get over him it is often hard when certain things come up. But momma is also sad that she cannot seem to find much in life these days to get happy and excited about. She told me that she just goes through the motions and takes one day at a time and that is all she can do. She wonders if this is all life is about, sadness loss and no one to love her and comfort her when she is sad and lonely. I know that we are here but she misses that person to hold her when she cries and feels sad . I understand this, cause when I was sick if I did not have mommy there I would be a mess. Mommy said she put on weight and that no man is going to want a porky person . I say that there must be someone out there but I guess she has got so much to learn first. Shame that dad turned out to be such a mean , unkind person. I would pee on his leg if I saw him again and leave a big lick patch on his chair if he ever sat where I was.
Oh well I guess that getting this out helps a bit. I hope my mommy can get her act together . She does work and go through all the motions but she is so unhappy inside and I am never sure if she will ever be happy again.
Well thats my woof for today and I will now go sit with her again as we both cry some more.
Love you all

For Pita, Layla, Lalo, Teddy and Bob

I give her all my love
That's all I do
And if you saw my love
You'd love her too
I love her

She gives me ev'rything
And tenderly
The kiss my lover brings
She brings to me
And I love her

A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

the vet visit

Well I went and got poked and prodded. It was a traumatic time for both Mommy and I. She did not like seeing me like that. The doctor said that I will have to have an operation on the ear of it will never stop being infected. Mommy said that she did not have the money and so what could we do. The vet told her that they can give me anti biotics and some pain killers and that will get the infection down but it will just keep infecting. They also would not let mommy take the pills until she can pay , so she called up her son and he is going to pay for my pills on his way home. Mommy is crying becasue of the predicament daddy has put us in financially by leaving and leaving us with nothing . So it has been a hard day and I hate seeing mommy cry but she does a lot of that when we are sick and she does not hav ethe money, in fact she does a lot of that anyway.
Well we will keep praying and I am sure i will be ok and we will find a way. So it has been not a good day at all. I am sleeping on the bed and do not want to move until my pain killers arrive.

worried

Today mom is worried, I have got to go to the vet . I have got an ear like a big balloon and a huge lump come up on my back. Momma does worry about me cause I am 13 and she worries about me getting sicker and so she said no matter what is costs and if she has to pay it off for the rest of her life she will get me fixed up and well again and home with her . We are going at 11.15 and my wee ear is so sore. I do scratch though and she has tried to stop me but I seem to just love to get the paw in there. Especially if I cannot see her anywhere I get real worried. I love my mommy so much.

Melt down

Mum had had a major meltdown tonight and is going to take us off dogster. We want to say that we have loved being here but so much has happened in the last 48 hours that has brought her to the brink of just shutting off and going in to hybernation.
We love you all and hope to be back one day.

MY NEW BROTHER

I HAVE A NEW BROTHER.
EVERYONE HERE IS QUITE ASTONISHED AT HOW I HAVE BECOME SO CLOSE TO MY NEW BROTHER. I SIT WITH HIM ALL THE TIME AND SLEEP BESIDE HIM AND WHEN HE IS MAKING LITTLE PUPPY NOISES AT SLEEP TIME I STICK MY HEAD UP AND LOOK BECAUSE I WORRY ABOUT HIM. SO WE ARE FORMING AN ATTACHMENT. BUT THEN I NEED TO BECAUSE HE IS ONLY A WEE BABY AND HE NEEDS ME TO BE THERE FOR HIM. I HAVE TAKEN HIM UNDER MY PAW. BOL.
PATCH DOES NOT MIND HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A BIT OF A LONER ANYWAY AND LIKES TO WANDER AROUND OUR SIDE AND EAT HIS BONE IN PEACE.
I LOVE MY NEW WEE BROTHER HE IS SO SWEET.

Playing tag

My friend Pita tagged me so now I am going to tag her back and three other freinds.
Well here we go

Pita
Mosh
Levi
Trixiemae
Esperanza
I got to tag Zack too he is my bud
NAME FOUR JOBS I HAVE:
1) Barking at the Weed Wacker
2) Making out with dads pillow
3)Burying Spots bone because her left it out for the birds to get
4) Warming the bed for mum
NAME FOUR PLACES THAT I HAVE BEEN:
1) Dog Park
2)Jons farm
3) For a runner up into the reserve, made mom frantic
4) Dogster quiet a lot
NAME FOUR PLACES THAT I WOULD RATHER BE:
1) In mums bed asleep
2) At my dish all day earing
3) going in the car
4) Going to the dog park

Friends

Oh mum always says we are so spoiled by all the wonderful dogster friends we have and you know what she is so right. Mum is a happy chappy most days and she said that dogster friends had made her like this. So "big ups to all out pals" We love you.

I am so happy looking at my friend Pita's page and seeing her looking so lovely. It is so nice to have a friend so beautiful and to see that we have the honour of knowing a Hollywood diva. The most beautiful girl in Hollywood. She is a star and we are just waiting for her to be called up to have her star on the pavement like all others that have gone before her.

It is sunday today and we were disturbed a lot last night by the wee diva in this house. Little Cassie was very sick and being sick all over the place. Mum was up sitting at her bed side and would not leave until she was asleep. I sat on the end of the bed and watched her and mum had a wee cry . She worries that Cassie's cancer could come back and especially when she is sick like that. She is going to the doc today just to be checked out.