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Likes: Tennis balls, mommy, eating and sleeping on the bed or the couch when no one is home, or even when they are, what the heck!
Pet-Peeves: loud movies, scary noises, little dogs who think they are big dogs, big dogs who think they are lap dogs..(AHEM, I am NOT a big dog, mom).....
Favorite Toy: balls (I don't understand toys that don't roll.)
Favorite Food: pizza crust, chicken and beef, and of course PEANUT BUTTER
Favorite Walk: Silver Lake Park (but not the hill to get there)
Best Tricks: Waving GOOD-BYE and stealing my heart with his "Um, sorry, Mom I didn't really mean to get into that" pose.
Arrival Story: To my best friend in the whole world - I miss you and I will always hold you close in my heart. From the day I met you, I knew we were meant to be. You were the greatest animal/human (lol) I have ever know. Rest easy, Beenie, the pain is over now. I love you. This page is a tribute to your strength and determination. I am so proud of you.
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I had been looking for a german shepard and found Beezer in Arkansas through a breeder searcher. I went to his pound, there HE was all 11 lbs of him.... he came out of the cage fell over his feet and landed right at mine, I bent down to pick him up, he looked at me like "WOW, thanks, lady" licked my face and we have been together ever since. He warms my heart and has been the single greatest present I could have ever been given.....
Bio: Beezer is a 100 lbs shepard (oopps, but its too hot to go for walks in the summer), and loves to bark at anything with wheels. Although, he is getting older and I am seeing some changes in him, he is most happy when I come home from work and he can greet me at the door with his prized ball. He is a complete creature of habit, but as he gets older he is losing his sense of time. For example, when he was younger we would go out at 9:00-9:30 for our final of the night and when he would come in he would get a treat. Then he started doing what we called the "Treat Dance", walk to the door, walk to where the treats, walk to me, walk to where the treats are. Like "UM, Mom its almost time why don't you just give it to me now, because you are going to give it to me anyway." A few years back we started doing the treat dance at around 8:30 and now he starts at 7:30. As soon as I am done with dinner, like clockwork, if I get up he runs to the treat closet... And I swear he is like "ITS TIME, RIGHT, ITS TIME FOR THE TREAT. RIGHT?" The greatest show on earth we call it and all I can say is no matter what mood I am in, it makes my day. Beezer's greatest role in my life is comedian no one can get rid of a bad mood like him.
Forums Motto: Beautiful Rainbow Angel - I miss you!
The Groups I'm In: "Black-and-tan Dogz of the world", ☆Rainbow Bridge Pals.•*:•.★, ♥ German Shepherds Inc.♥, ♥ The Pet Poetry Group ♥, ♥Pawrayer and Pawraise♥, 2 Dogs 2, Fancypants Cafe, Guardian Angels Forever Loved and Missed, HAVE A HEART, Lets Paw-tae!, light a candle...., Offical Paw Prints, Rainbow Bridge Angel Babies, SMOOCHES FOR POOCHES, Team Pugsly!, The Osmonds Group, You Will Always Be In Our Hearts, ~~~*♥Dog Park USA♥*~~~
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Dogster: I wanted to take a moment to let anyone visiting Beezer's page to know how grateful I am for all of the support I have received as I mourn the loss of my best friend. The kindess, understanding and hugs have meant so much to me. Beezer went to the Bridge just two and half weks ago and everyday I feel like my heartbreaks more and more. In the end, I do not have any reservations, that the decision I made was the kind one and the right one for him. He was in pain, unable to walk and had started (just two days prior) messing himself. My Beezer was a strong and loyal animal who served me with integrity and strength for 11 years and although, I thought someone had reached in and ripped my heart out, I knew that I could not and would not allow him to suffer needlessly because I was being selfish. In that regard, I just want to thank EVERYONE on this site for helping to find a way to productively channel my grief and pain. The Turtle Pond has been such an amazing way to keep Beezer strong and alive in my heart in those days and nights were I am scared I will forget him. I will forget the smell of him, the feel of him pushing me out of my bed because he wanted ALL of it, and forget his smile when he would follow me EVERYWHERE I went. Thank you, this is the most wonderful website and you are saving my life a little more each day!
Beezer's Mommy
Beezer, today is the day you boarded that bus heading for the Rainbow Bridge. Today I remember laying on the floor with you watching you struggle to take a breath and your back paws swelling up! I remember how I talked to you to let you know that I knew you were going to a beautiful wonderful place where the pain would end and you would be free to run and play and be happy. I remember knowing (and still know) that where your pain was ending mine was beginning. I fell asleep with tears last night remembering our last night together and then today our last day together. My heart so torn between doing what was right for you and wanting you to stay. Why does it feel like I blinked and your time with me was over! I woke up this morning and even though I fell asleep in my bed, I woke up, in my mind, on the floor with you in the living room. I have so many different emotions running around my brain. Today marks so many things for me. Not to mention it is your G'pa's birthday! I didn't want to write to you about the sadness I feel on the day you went to the Bridge, instead I wanted to talk about all the joy you brought me while you were here. From the long walks, to the countless hours you spent "fetching" the ball, to all the places we went together. I remember how when I would cry you would lick away my tears and sit by my side never leaving for even a minute, I remember how you would talk in the morning when I would get up for work I think complaining that it was too early to be up, I remember how you would dance around the closet when it was time for your night treat. I remember how you busted through the fence at Aunt Trisha's house to come after me when we went to the store. I will always be honored that I was chosen to be your mommy and to care for you throughout your life. I will always be grateful that I was with you when your journey here ended. I will always cherish each and every minute we got to spend together. Most importantly, I will always feel safe knowing that you are my angel watching over me. I miss you with an intensity that I can't define. A one in a million animal and friend you touched my soul in a way that can never be doubled. So today on your cross anniversary, I celebrate the special bond between us that only you and I could ever understand. I love y0u and to this day and always know you were truly my once in a lifetime best friend.
Rest easy my BeenieBean one year ago today you earned the right to be pain free and happy.
My sweet Angel Beezer, so much has been going on lately. Not enough time to think really... but I do, of you, all the time... Yesterday marked one year to the day that I came home and found you unable to use your hind legs to stand up and meet me. I keep going through it one minute at a time... Walking in the door expecting to see you standing there, but instead seeing you in the kitchen area looking really confused and trying to get to me, using your front paws and falling down not knowing what was happening. I remember hugging you and silently praying for the first even few hours that you were just stiff or that something just ripped or whatever it was. But it was then it started.... I just can't believe it. I write about how much I miss you, but I don't think people really get it. Time to move on they say, Beezer wouldn't have wanted to see you this way (which I don't totally believe..lol)... they say Beezer lived longer than a lot of sheperds as if that is supposed to make me feel better, they tell me to try and rememeber all the good times which I certainly do, but then that just makes me cry. I know that other people saw that you were slowing down, more than I did or maybe it was because I didn't want to, I don't know but I do know that in the last few months and even weeks, so many things have happened that have made me want to just snuggle up to you and squeeze your big old furry neck and you haven't been there.. (Your earth brofur Capone is not a snuggler, but at 11 months, I have to be patient...:O) I don't know Beenie Bean, I am very emotional today and I am just finding myself crying and missing you. Maybe its the weather, maybe its because yesterday marks the day that began the change in my life that I never saw coming that fast. Maybe its because from now and until July 8th, 2009, I will relive what everyday last year was like for me. Like the first night we came home from the vets office and you were still groggy from the anethesia for the xrays... I remember trying to get you out of the car in 95 degree heat with no one to help us and the look on your face that just said, I am sorry mommy, I am trying really hard, but I can't do it! Then our wonderful neighbor came and helped me carry you up the stairs.... I am very sad today Beezer, I miss you more today than the days before.... I wish I could go back in time and freeze us in on June 16, 2008 when we went for a short walk when I got home from work and then just laid on the couch together....
Missing you so much,
Mommy
P.S. I know you know there are some not so good things happening right now, so could you just send a little extra angel dust my way.
Beezer today is April 23, your birthday! I am so torn, between being so grateful that today is the day that you were born to be mine and remembering that this is the first April 23rd in 12 years that I did not wake up to wish you a happy birthday and to ask you what you wanted to do to celebrate! You always looked at me like, "a steak would be nice".... LOL, but then again you looked like that pretty much all the time! How many times can you say I miss you before it just doesn't count anymore? How many more tears can I shed from missing you before its "weird"? How many more minutes in a day can I wish that you were still here with me before I run out of hours? I have really good days where I just smile and smile when I think of you and today I want to do that, but I just can't stop the tears from coming. I still feel like I am missing a limb and I just wonder when that ends. I am having the worst time because the truck I bought really for you, becuase you didn't fit in cars, (LOL), has to go away and its one more thing that makes you feel further and further away from me. I have had the car washed, but was clear they were to keep your nose prints on the back window. Now many say its a sign that its time to let go, and I just don't know what that means. Forget? Never!! Move on? Okay, I think I have done that, but I still don't know what that means. I have not stopped living, its just that some days living without you hurts more than others.
I hope you celebrate with all the other Angels at the Bridge today and I hope you know that I am here hugging you and wishing that I could make a steak for you. Today I will celebrate the day that you came into the world to be guided to me so that I could love you and give you all the things a dog deserves in their lifetime. I will cry for not being able to hug you and tell you how happy I am that you were born, and I will miss all the birthdays when we went to the store and bought bones and gifts and went to the park. You are a true one in a million, chance of a lifttime. And you are still Simply the Best.
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