The Barking Machine

Thank you

May 31st 2013 3:25 pm
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Thank you everyone for the condolences and dogster gifts. I have to admit I haven’t read most of them because when I start to, I tear up and start crying and become a mess (again). Heck, I’ve been a mess for a couple weeks now. Trying to wrap my head around what happened, but then dealing with the guilt and heartbreak that comes with that.. you know, the what ifs, the signs you look back and see… like he would grr when being picked up, even if he wanted up… I just thought it was he was becoming a grumpy senior, he’d always been a strong healthy boy, but now I’m like OMG he was probably hurting and I should have gotten it checked out but then they still would have seen the same thing and I’d be in the same boat there was no reason to suspect anything because he’d always been strong and healthy and I have to keep thinking this or I’ll go crazy. Last week was the worst week of my life, it was unexpected and went downhill too fast, and this week has been the second worse. I’m a mess and I can’t stop thinking about my baby and yet I don’t want to talk about what happened or talk about him even though, really, I’m doing that now. I’m trying to focus on Lacey and even fostering soon, and all the pups that need a good home, and how Shakey was the best dog ever, the best boy in the whole world and he was my baby and I told him lots of times that he was going to live forever cause he was the best boy ever and my baby and I miss him so so so so much and I’m gonna try not to cry now… I miss you so much baby boy and I love you more than anything in the world. Sigh. I just wanted to get all that out; it seems to help with healing to do that.

Thank you, and I apologize for not getting back to anyone, I just can’t right now. Hug and kiss your furkids for me please.

 
 

Leave A Comment | 6 people already have

Barked by: Fizzy (Dogster Member)

May 31st 2013 at 4:56 pm

Love you and your Momma.
Barked by: PEEK A BOO (Dogster Member)

May 31st 2013 at 8:07 pm

I am so sorry for you loss and we can understand how you feel
mommy ready somewhere that death leaves a heartache no one can heal but love leaves a memory no one can steal
God bless you and your family and give you strength to cope with your big loss
love and hugs from all of us
Peek a Boo and family
Barked by: Cathey U

May 31st 2013 at 8:25 pm

We're here when you need us, us Dogster's unnerstan.


Sendin love and hugs from Idunno.
Barked by: Wendy G

June 1st 2013 at 8:39 am

Sendin' tons ob (((hugs))) an' wuff tu yu an' Wacey, Christy, fwum me, Zaidie an' my Momma ♥
Barked by: ✨ Finley ✨ (Dogster Member)

June 1st 2013 at 9:44 am

Sendin' lotsa hugs and luv...
Barked by: ✨ Whitley ✨ (Dogster Member)

June 1st 2013 at 8:23 pm

Sending lotsa hugs and westie kissies.


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