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What I Do by Spice

Goodbye my baby girl!

Soon after I (spice's owner Maeghan) left for college spice became very ill. My mom took her to the vet and took care of her best she could. As I drove to the barn to care for my horses and to attend my colt starting class i called my mom, its an everyday occurence and not out of the norm. What was out of the norm was the catch in my mothers voice as we talked about my horse i have here with me in South Dakota and the horses i left with her back in Virginia, then as always the topic switched to the dogs, this is how our conversations go daily, "How r u? hows Doc doing?" "i'm fine how r u and the other horses doing? How are my dogs?!? I miss them!" When i brought up spice however there was a pause followed by a deep breath... I had this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach but tried to control it because i was driving through the city and didn't want to cause an accident... the pause continued and i once again asked my mom how spice was and if she had taken her to the vet to be checked out or if that was tomorrow i couldn't remember... mom said that no the vet appointment was indeed today and that she had to tell me something so i might want to pull over. Insisting that the news "couldn't be all that bad" i kept driving till i got to the gas station to pick up a few snacks because i knew i was in for a long day at the barn... mom asked if i was stopped and sitting down... i insisted that yes i was stopped and whatever she had to tell me i was going to be fine!!! however, i wasn't... the pit in my stomach grew to a gut wrenching knot as everything started to sink in... mom went through everything exactly what the vet had said and the decision she had had to make... she said she hadn't called because she knew i was busy with the vet looking at my barrel horse and then i'd be in class. as she explained the tears welled and started to gently glide down my cheek as it all sank in that my precious golden was in fact gone. she had fought so hard when she had lost the litter of puppies and gotten the infection.. she bounced right back only to loose her months later to an after effect we never noticed.. Spice, my darling golden who only wanted to turn frowns into smiles and wipe tears away with her soft coat had had such a massive infection in her abdominal cavity that in the end her stomach got pushed up into her diaphragm.. causing difficulty in breathing and in the end caused my mom to have to have her put down... I skipped my colt class and went and curled up in the back of my barrel horses run for a long long time that day.. wishing i could have been there for the dog who had always been there for me... Doc (my barrel horse) stood there and sniffed my face but it wasn't the same. Spice was the best dog a girl could ask for! always there for you always wanting to be near you no matter how close she already was. she was beautiful and graceful. you could do anything with her and it never bothered her.
Spice will forever be in my heart. I denied the fact that she was gone until i couldn't deny it anymore... Christmas. Christmas was the first time i got to go home since my big move and i was excited yet hesitant... i kept expecting spice to greet me at the door her tail wagging and barking as quietly as she could. but instead my georgeous golden was no where to be seen. just my hyper aussie and my happy mix. then ofcourse my moms dogs. but no spice. even the next few days when i'd go to let dogs in from playing outside i'd call her name then go looking for her in her favorite hiding places, normally the horse pasture... but no spice... my baby girl was gone... she joined her grandmother Maggie in heaven dancing across the rainbow bridge... I'll see her again someday because we all know that All Dogs go to heaven... but until then i will miss and wish she were here to snuggle, and go for long trail rides with me, just like we used to do...
So with that i say goodbye to the best dog a girl could ask for.
good bye my baby girl! mommy loves you and i will see you again someday!

Thanks from Ms. Spice-A-Loony

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am fine now and thank everyone for all the prayers that I recieved. What mom failed to mention in the Previous entry is that what I had was actually Piometria (pardon my spelling) and that no one suspected that I would like. Luckily I did and have made my mom and gram's very happy! Currently I have returned to my Therapy Dog services and am making many people happy with all the love I share
Just wanted to thank you for the prayers

From my heart and my moms heart,

Ms. Spice-A-Loony

I Don't like causing grief

Its hard to sum up everything I do! I bring Joy and Happiness where ever I go. Lately I've been sick. I went to be bred but I miscarried then I came down with infection. Today I went to the vets and gave my mom the biggest scare of her life! Unannounced to me (for i was asleep on the operating table) the vet asked permission from my mom to have me put to sleep if I was too sick to save or if i was going to suffer to much. While mom broke down Grams said yes because she doesn't want me to feel much more pain. Its hard to know that I made my mom so sad and upset! The Vet made me better but i'm not exactly saved yet! But the vet got all the infection out (more than 30 pounds of infection came out of my belly)
Today I feel ashamed because I caused my mom pain. However I just ask that you pray for me. I am trying hard to get better so my mom doesn't feel anymore pain! Late last week (Wednesday Dec. 1) We lost my grand mother Hawk Ridge Magnolia after a long hard battle with cancer and I don't know if mom and grams could put up with any more grief or hardships right now...
I hope to recover soon because I still have work to do in my life I'm only 5. I Like to visit with people in nursing homes and hospitals. But most of all I like keeping my mom happy and helping her through stuff. I was there while they burried my grand mom Maggie. And I want to be there for my mom through everything. So If its not to much to ask please say a prayer for me I really don't feel well but the doc is trying.
A little support helps and I will know God and I get along well. According to mom I am a special Angel sent down and a true blessing! He will let me know that there are people out there praying and it will help me through!

Thank you!

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A special dog that changes many tears into joyful smiles!