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Life of the Turner Dog

A million miles away :(

Two years ago today we got the word. You were filled with cancer and that you were suffering. Me and dad were in total shock. There was no way you deserved to suffer. To be in any kind of pain. I told Dr. Mount that you should be put to sleep. But I told her something I will regret for the rest of my life. That I couldn't be there. I love you so much and you were too young to let go in my mind. I couldn't do it, couldn't see the light leave you. And I live with this regret forever. It kills me to this day - the shame that I have. You were held by the girls at the office when you passed. They loved you and you adored them. My life will never be the same since you. I didn't eat for 3 days, had no feelings, felt that I couldn't breathe. You went everywhere with me, people who were afraid of pitbulls met you and said what a sweet dog. How loving! You were made me a better person. Dad didn't know what to do either. He dove back into work. Me I just sat and cried with emptiness. Darcy was lost, so quiet, she knew. She had lost other friends while in rescue. They died right in front of her. She knew the loss as well. Then it happened. The reflection, the realization that you had been wronged. I got pissed. So angry when I looked back - hind sight is 20/20. I pulled out your folder, Lord knows I keep everything. And I started to see where things went wrong. I was pissed. I was focused, something could've been done so you didn't suffer. It all started with the first surgery. He was wrong! He had wronged others, there were loads of people who had been through the same thing, and I said enough. When the investigators left, shaking their heads in disbelief I felt like I could start to breathe. He would be held accountable, someone listened and agreed, where it all started - was handled wrong. And so your case was opened. We're still pending - almost 2 years later, but pending is a good thing when it comes to the court. I know one day I'll get a call from the prosecutor to report before the judge/committee/whatever. And I will be there, pictures and files in hand. And I hope to look him in the eye and say - you never gave me an option and Turner suffered. I'm so sorry that you did suffer, it wasn't right. We've done so much for other dogs in our lives, yet you suffered. You, my best friend, my road dog, my companion, my tell-all and you listened friend. For that I am so sorry, for not being their for your last breath I'm so sorry. Miss you... :( Love you :( Mom :(_ _ _

Merry Christmas Mr. Man

Miss you Turner.. Merry Christmas...

Love Mom

New Photos for your Case

Today is our 19th anniversary, your dad and me. I was on the computer looking at my memory sticks for a picture of us to post on FB. I found pictures from when you got home from your first surgery. God they are horrible. I called the prosecutors office to see if I could add the pictures as evidence to your case. They said no problem. Of course I printed them out and wrote the letter. Dad is picking up an evelope tonight and I will send them certified tomorrow. I'm so sorry you suffered because of that man.

I came to work and a friend of mine was having their pup spayed tomorrow at the same vet. Needless to say after your dad and I got done talking to her she called and had the appointment cancelled. I told you I will do all I can to make sure he NEVER hurts another animal again.

Love you Turner.

Mom