I visited mommy

Exactly 2 months after I physically left my mommy, I decided I should visit. While she was sleeping I came and put my head under her hand to let her know I am watching over her, but in a different way, now. Well, I guess I wasn't all that careful not to wake her as I startled her and she woke up, looking for me. Oh well, I tried. But now mommy knows my presence is still here. I love my box and the photos she bought of me. What an awesome tribute!

I want to take the time to thank all of you who were there for my mommy. Your support truly helped her though this tough time for her. I was only her second dog and we had 11 glorious years together. While she still cries when she thinks of me, each day has brought back a funny or good memory of me. She keeps telling me that what she misses most is the feel of my fur and rubbing my ears and scratching my head.

I my body may be gone, but I know I will never be forgotten.

*hugs*
Nitro

I'm just too weak...

Mom says we have a vet appointment at 2pm. She's been crying a lot today. I feel so bad, but I just can't give her any comfort. No food for me (as I won't eat it), but vanilla ice cream has been nice. I am tired and weak and have begun to accept that this is my time. I fell on my way to the door to pee, this morning and my breathing is labored and I'm miserable.

Soon, I will suffer no more (I'm told) and join mommy's first dog at the bridge and wait for her and watch over her and the family that is left behind. My spot will be filled, in the future and mommy will have the opportunity to love another special soul.

This special soul has completed the job he was sent down to this earth to do - love mommy unconditionally and be there through her worst years and her happiest years. I must give another soul the opportunity to feel the love she's given me...with much love mommy, I fly.................................

Back to Not Eating...

Well, I ate 2 bites, last night, and I had diarrhea, again, last night - but mom heard me before it happened and she took me outside so no accidents last night.

However, I am very tired and not interested in food. I want to eat, but just don't want to eat. I don't really want to get up, but I will if I have to. I keep sending mixed messages to mommy so she's not sure if she should let me go or care for me another day. She told me she's coming home early from work, today. I hope she can too.

What do I tell my mom? How will she know I'm ready go leave this world to persue my spot at the bridge?

Hugs,
Nitro

Feelin' the Love!

WOW! Thanks, everyone, for your pawmails, rosettes and stars! I feel about the same as yesterday, but my eyes are even brighter today. I ate most of my dinner, last night and I only peed in the house once, last night (versus 2 the night before). Mom says she's tired, but she'd do anything for me.

Please keep up your prayers, thoughts and well wishes! All are helpful during this time.

Hugs,
Nitro

I'm pulling through!

Just as mommy thought it may be the end, I decided it's time to start eating and drinking again. I started out walking like a drunken sailor but I'm back up on my feet moving straighter with each stride. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers as this could very well be the beginning of the end of my life here on earth, but I know that I will always watch over my mom either here or at the bridge.

Thank you everyone for all your good thoughts and prayers! It worked this time!

Hugs,
Nitro

The Day is Approaching

I am very weak today. I hid under the porch this morning and wouldn't come out. Mom had to pull me out and lift me up onto the porch. I have moved 4 times, today, and have barely eaten. I think I may be close to crossing rainbow bridge.

Please, guys, be with my mom during this hard time for her. She's had me for 11 years and I hate to leave her so heartbroken. I don't know what else to say or ask for as she has been here for me through it all. Who knows, maybe I just feel lousy, but maybe it is time for me to cross that bridge...

Hugs
Nitro

Bad news

So, I had to go to the vet because I broke a tooth. Well, something didn't feel right with my abdomen when the vet palpated me. We did an x-ray and low and behold my spleen was HUGE!! They have diagnosed it as cancer and given me 2-3 months to live. Mom has opted not to do chemo due to my age and her desire to keep my quality of life as high as she can. I am on some cancer support vitamins which seem to be helping, a bit.

We have plans to get some pictures done, just mom and me. Later, she wants to get the picture done as a painting. Any suggestions on photographers would be much appreciated!

Well, off to go sleep under the dining room table and get myself into trouble (as I can do no wrong, now - hee hee!!! - okay, well biting mom is still out)

~Nitro~

Update on my mobility

I am continuing to get a little better, and happy, everyday. My coat is still a little on the greasy side, but I haven't fallen down or had my hind end slip out from underneath me, lately. Also, I'm able to jump into the car without mommy having to grab my hind end to make sure I don't slide out...I'm jumping in on my own!!! YEA!!!!

Just wanted to update those who are reading my diary...off to go find something to snack on...

Nitro

The Results are in!

Well, the vet says that I look REALLY GOOD on paper, for my age, but the fact is, I'm getting old. My thyroid is TRYING to go caput, but mommy keeps giving me such wonderful supplements that it's hanging in there, but just barely. Also, according to muscle testing, I'm in need of some kidney support, so mommy forked out the $40 for a 1 mo. supply of the stuff. I have a couple liver enzyme tests that came back slightly elevated and a pancreatic enzyme that also came back slightly elevated, but mommy was told those were to be expected at my age.

So, now my legs have given out on my twice in one day and I fell flat on my butt. We're going to see if these new supplements help my coat and mobility. Keep us in your thoughts! I may be getting up there, but I'm not ready to leave my mommy yet. She loves me so much and I want to keep loving her back, in the flesh!

Oh yeah, another good note...I'm not in ANY pain...I'm not interested in any pain medication, just some joint stuff, my C-Kelp, and Liver/Kidney support stuff...Off to go eat dinner....

Nitro

Tomorrow is the day...

Well, with me gracefully aging, mommy has decided it's time to take me back to the vet to get another blood panel done. Sheesh! I just had one last year! But she says she's noticed a change in my coat and my back legs are starting to shake more, when I'm laying down and I'm not as steady on my feet. So, wish me luck that everything comes back okay. Mommy suspects it's time to look at thyroid medication...the tests will tell us...keep us in your thoughts and prayers that everything goes okay and there isn't anything too serious.

Snuggles,
Nitro