October 5th 2012 2:58 pm
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I lost my best friend 2 weeks ago. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make and the most pain I have ever felt emotionally. I find out that I am still getting over her. I did tear up last night. We were watching a show last night, and a woman said "I just want to give them one more hug..." I know that feeling well. I wanted to give Sugar one more hug, and my fiance responded by saying that I will always want to give her one more hug, and he is very right, and I miss her.
Last weekend I adopted this adorable and really tiny kitten. I didn't get her until Wednesday, but she is a hoot. We picked out a name for her. Her name is Tora, and that is Japanese for Tiger. We debated Aki (Japanese for autumn) and pumpkin, bc she has random splotches of orange on her and we got her in the month of October. She is a tiger though. She has bands on her legs that look tiger like. She is now 7 weeks old. She hasn't had an easy time w/ me. She's had diarrhea since she came home w/ me, and it could be diet change. The vet gave her different food, and then I gave her a different food mixed in w/ her old food. It may also be coccidia. We took her to the vet yesterday morning and she is on medicine and is feeling better. It's hard to write this bc she keeps attacking my keyboard and me. She is a sweet heart. I stayed up w/ her all night that first night bc her diarrhea was so bad and she threw up as well. I love her. She is not Sugar (of course) and she has helped w/ my grieving. It felt good when I teared up last night to hold her and love her and have her purr.
I'm gonna be making a catster account for her soon, and I will edit this and post a link later if anyone is interested in that :)
September 30th 2012 6:46 pm
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Well I have wonderful news! We have bought a kitten! I will be picking her up Wednesday. I wasn't able to bring her home because Chris has tests Tuesday and Wednesday, and one of those is the big GRE. For those of you who don't know, he has to take this test so that he can move on and continue his education to grad school. He wanted to be able to focus this weekend on studying, so no kitten.
The kitten is adorable. There were 2 we were thinking about. One was a male that is 2 months old, and I believe he had already been fixed, and his name is Batman, and then when we got there they had a new kitten. This new kitten is a female, 6 weeks old, and sooo tiny! I went w/ the 6w/o female. I wanted a girl more than a guy bc I am a bit sexist and she was just a little younger than Batman, and she was smaller. She was super playful and alert when I was holding her. Her foster mom and I have a mutual friend, and I just found that out this morning.
We are so prepared. I have food, litter, litter box, toys, perch under the window, and scratchers, oh and lots of catnip. A bunch of catnip came w/ almost every toy and scratcher. We also got her a cuddle bag this morning, it's like a fleece bag that they can curl up in. The kitten is a short hair, and it's important that she stay warm. I read Kittens for Dummies, and learned A LOT about kittens. The name her foster gaver her was Fiona, and I was thinking about changing it to Fifi, but Chris doesn't like that, but we have thought of the name Lulu. We won't finalize it til later this week. We wanna see her personality.
I told Sugar about it, is that odd? I kinda wish she were here to see the kitten, but I know she would hate her. Sugar hated all animals lol. She was never friendly to other animals, just other humans. I know Sugar is in an amazing place, and I feel like I get to join her in my dreams. I love playing w/ her after I fall asleep. She's young again, and she's w/ her mommy and brother and Pepper. I wake up after those dreams feeling pretty good about everything. I miss her, but I still know I will see her in my sleep and after I die :) I will update this again after our kitten comes home, and I'll probably post a link to a catster account. I won't make that until we've solidified her name :)
September 28th 2012 9:39 am
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It's been a week, and it feels like so much more time has gone by. I miss her so much, and I hate going to bed on my own w/out my booger. I had one day this week w/ no tears at all, and that was Tuesday. I got a card from our vet Wednesday, and it had Sugar's paw print on it and it made me cry. Certain things will just make me tear up, and it's not serious crying anymore, just tearing up.
The good news. I have convinced Linda that I am ready for a kitten. Hopefully sometime this weekend or next weekend I will have a new friend. On the condition that I give Jack, Chris's dog, a bath. Chris also has 4 tests this week, including his GRE, so Linda wants Chris to get through the week as well before we get the kitten. I really want the kitten tomorrow, but oh well.
We will be adopting one from Madison Animal Rescue Foundation. I am so happy about this, and if we are certain about the one we love, we can go ahead and pay for him and then pick him up next week.
I am not replacing Sugar, bc I know that's absolutely impossible, but I miss giving my love to an animal. I miss having a companion. I've always wanted a cat. My mom was too allergic for me to own one, and I used to be allergic, but I've become desensitized after living w/ them for 2yrs, and even before that their allergies were wearing off. Kinda excited about that.
I miss Sugar, and I know I say that a lot, and I will probably be saying that for the rest of my life. She was my first dog, and she has a very special place in my heart.