My pain is gone. My family is crying. I'm not here wiff them anymore. Tears .. so many tears they shed. I just stared into their eyes wanting to make it better for them, but I couldn't. Something got inside of me and made me hurt and not be myself. I wanted to come home wiff my mom and dad..and Talker too, but they said I couldn't. I had to stay. My face was wet wiff tears. I've never seen them cry so much. I could only look into their eyes and try to comfort them. Dad kept telling me how much he loved me. I'm his Princess. I'm his Baby Girl. He kept telling me good bye. Mom stayed behind and I sent her all my 'senji powers to her to tell her that I didn't want her to cry. She kissed me so many times and then said "Until We Meet Again Banban". Every night she would say to Talker and Me, "tee you in the morning". She didn't say those words this time when I went to sleep.
She sent me on a journey. I'm scared. My Angel friends, she said, will help me find my way. She said I will see Casey the Cat and she and I will wait together for my family to arrive one day, but Until We Meet Again, I will love them from afar. I will love them inside their hearts. I will love them always for making me feel better and free of the Cancer.
I'm sorry Mom and Dad and Talker too that I couldn't stop your tears. I love you.
Mom says when she finds her voice again...I will be back on Dogster. Until We Meet Again....remember me!
Some of you may know that I've been going thru a tough time lately wiff my health. One thing after another. Finally they figure out what is going on wiff me...Stump Pyrometra. Left over tissue from my spayed 8 years ago grows back and gets infected. The infection is serious and isn't just a UTI like the vets believed. So I have surgery. My pre test for surgery show I have elevation in my liver. So while having my surgery, the vet takes a few samples of my liver and lymph node which appears to look odd.
Friday the 13th...yes, Friday the 13th of July, my mom picks me up after spending two days in recovering. She is anxious to get me home but the vet wants to discuss the biopsy results. CANCER.
Here's my mom: I swear I didn't EVEN think this was coming. I was totally blindsided. The vet had given me his initial findings right after the surgery. He said were no masses on her liver and I let out a sigh of relief. So when I picked her up, I was not prepared for the Big C. It whacked me like a ton of bricks.
So I was thinking okay, they caught it early. The doctor said he didn't think she had the cells very long. BUT then he tells me that treatment is not cure and that her chemo would not give us the honor of saying, "she's five years cancer free!". Nope. It will only prolong her life until (maybe) one year at the most. I could hear my heart breaking and feeling those words sink thru me.
And my husband Angel loves her soooo much. He's never felt that way about a "dog" before. He knows the love of a child but he could never understand the love he knows now with her. All he knows is that she is his baby girl and his heart is feeling the pain of this news deeply.
Savannah aka Banners! will continue to feel our love for her. We will do what we need to do to fight this cancer. We will cherish the coming days and even the slightest passing moments with her; always.
She is our silent Basenji. Always watching; listening; never making a sound. But she understands the language of love. She speaks it loud and clear. We know she loves us and will trust us as we make this journey together. She gives us so much of that love.
Dogster Obsessions: The Starter Kit for Dogs by Wildebeest
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