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In Memory Of Fade

German Shepherd/Labrador Retriever
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Fadie Badie, Momma dog, Girl-il-a

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not playfulvery playful

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January 21st 1997

January 21st 1997

Fade loved just being around people.

Arrival Story:
We went to the shelter to just look at a few dogs. Fade and her sister we alone in a kennel. I wanted her sister because the first thing Fade did was bite me. The shelter worker said I could bring her back if I didn't like her. 14 years later, and I wouldn't have changed a thing.

Fade, From the first day I saw you, I knew that you were something special. Although it took me a long time to get close to you, once we were there we were inseparable. Finding out you were sick was the worst day of my life. I remember the day I found out that I had to make the hardest decision of my life. You were sick and after a trip to the Emergency Vet, I remember the vet taking us into a room with a sign that said "Comfort Room" and I lost it. I blamed everyone for you being sick. I felt like I had failed you. When we loaded you into the car, my mom turned to me and said "You need to make a decision, Autumn." I got angry and said, "I'm not killing my dog. No way." Everyone had brought up that I was going off to school and I wouldn't be able to say goodbye when the time did come. The vets had all told me that you would go fast. You would seizure, throw up, go to the bathroom all over yourself and then you'd be gone. My mom was going to be at work all day. I would be 500 miles away. I couldn't imagine my baby scared and sick and not understand why everything was happening. I couldn't let you die alone and hurting. The day before I was going to take your pain from you, we spent every waking second together. I remember so many memories with you. I remember you leaping through the snow like a deer during our blizzard. I remember crying over you when I left you to go to Denver, or to college. I cried more for you then for everyone else. I remember the first time I brought Brandon to meet you and you ran right past me to give him a kiss. I remember the smiles you brought to people in the nursing homes when you would walk in the door. I remember looking at your ears and just laughing at how dorky they were. But they were you. Every quirk you had is what made you, Fade. On September 4, 2010 I woke up early to spend time with you. I gave you hot dogs, chocolate, and anything that you could have ever wanted. I took you for a ride up into the mountains so you could stick your head out the window and smell the fresh air. I held you and cried. I tried to stay strong, I really did. Loading you into the car one last time made me feel like I was being stabbed in the heart over and over again. Then we pulled into the vets driveway and I became sick to my stomach. I tried to stay strong so you didn't worry. I'm so sorry I couldn't. I'm so sorry that I cried over your body. I held your head as they put you to sleep, and I will NEVER forget the feeling of your head grow heavy. I will never forget the feeling I got when I saw your chest stop rising. I'll never forget the words "She's gone." I listened to your heart beat the whole time. I cried over your lifeless body and couldn't understand why you had to leave me. Why you couldn't be with me forever. You were everything to me. You were the one who listened to me when I needed someone to talk to. You showed me that I could love deeper than I ever imagined. You are the reason I have such an attachment to animals. You are my reason for living, Fade. I still cry for you constantly. I know that soon mommy will be getting a new dog, but this dog will never take your place. This dog will never be you, and will never be better than you. You will forever hold my heart. I miss you, Fade to Black. You were my life, and it hasn't been the same since you've left. Fly Free, and wait for me. We will cross the bridge side by side one day. And then I'll sit and watch you run and I'll smile knowing that I am finally with my baby again. I Love you.

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