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Dear harry,

Well, today Jasper and I went to Glen Canyon Park - one of your favorite spots. Out of the corner of my eye, I kept seeing your furry slug bug body skurrying up the hillslope or around a corner, always just a step ahead of us and leading us around the hiking path. It's so strange and scary to think that it's been four months since you passed - part of me feels like you were just here yesterday and part of me feels like I haven't seen in you forever. I still imagine you sitting next to me at the dog park - even with 20 other dogs running around, you still always just wanted to be by my side. I remember people commenting on how you gazed at me so lovingly, you're bright blue eyes glowing in the afternoon sun. You would like Jasper. You'd think that he is a sweet kid - annoyingly playful but endearingly innocent. I still have your ashes by my bedside and keep telling myself that one of these days I'm going to spread them at Ocean Beach. You LOVED it there - you would leap and bound across the sand just to dip your furry feet in the water. I will definitely spread them there, but I'm just not ready to not have you by my side yet.

Well, I still love you with all my heart. No words can describe how much I miss you every day... You were and still are my pride and joy. No matter how much it hurts to lose you, the time we spent together were the best years of my life and I cherish every moment that you were by my side.

Love,
Angie

Letter to Harry

Hi Harry,

Well, I still miss you so much everyday. It is really hard to believe that it has been a month since you passed. I still can't fully believe that you're actually gone. I still think about you every day at least 25 times. I try not to let myself think about how much I miss you because I know if I let myself indulge for any more than a fleeting moment, I will end up crying for hours. I miss your lovely blue eyes, your bigger-than-life paws, your cute wiggle-butt dance, your messy hair when you get up from a nap, singing together, cozying up together, and seeing your nose poke out when I open the front door. You were like the most amazing dream I've ever had - just a little sky-eyed fuzzy angel with nothing but love and patience to give. I know you hated the baths and the medications, but you humored me and never fought it. I hope and pray that you knew how much I adored you - how much you so quickly became the center of my world. We were a perfect match and now I walk around half the person I was with a dull ache in my gut and the blood draining from my heart. Life seems to be in disarray without you to keep me company. I miss showing you how much you mean to me. I miss you so much, Harry B.

Angie

To all our two- and four-legged friends...

I first just wanted to say thank you so very much for all of your kind words of support and comfort. It was truly amazing how wonderful and sympathetic the dogster community has been. Losing Harry was a huge blow to our family and we will never quite be the same, but all the messages meant so much. I save them all and read them on particularly rough days.

I've never been much of a religious person, but I like to believe that Harry is in doggie heaven, with copious amounts of puperoni, tennis balls, and stretches of sandy beaches. I still miss him so much and, over three weeks later, still can't bring myself to believe he's gone. I try not to think about it too much because it feels like all the blood drains from my heart when I do. We were lucky enough to find each other and share a special connection - what I could give fit his needs so perfectly and what he could give fit mine. I cherish all of our memories, wiggle-butt wagging moments, and blissful moments of joy in each others' presence. I always will. I am comforted by the fact that I know there is no way he didn't know how much I loved him and how much joy he brought into my life.

On a happier note, having Harry in our lives helped us realize what a great life we could provide a needy dog. So, we adopted Jasper, a funny mix of a mutt (maybe Akita, German shepherd, border collie?). We tell Jasper about Harry all the time and he has been a joy to have causing mischief in the house. :)

Thanks again.