How did you know?

How did you know something was missing?
How did you know I needed you?
Were you so sure we'd fit together?
Weren't you afraid I wouldn't do?

How did you know my patience level
Was the cause for such dismay?
What fateful process brought you to me
That I might learn to change my ways?

What force beyond my knowledge
Left you here so masterfully?
Did God know that I was failing
At the life He gave to me?

Why is it you're not angry
As how my past has treated you?
Is there a lesson in your forgiveness
That I should grasp and hold onto?

How can you love me without condition,
Aware my lessons aren't complete?
Will you stick by me as I continue
To absorb the things you teach?

Did God tell you I was sinking
When He placed you in my life?
Or did you pick me above all others,
A willing sacrifice?

Do you know that my heart yearns
To be a better friend to you?
Will you share with me your wisdom
Teach me to love the way you do?

My sweetest canine soulmate
Will your insight you bestow?
And answer just one question,
Please tell me friend, how did you know?

Dog of the Day!

Thank you Dogster. :)
Be nice to your sister Kail up there at the Rainbow Bridge, Khloe! (Though I'm sure you wouldn't have been happy to know I got another dog, haha. You'll always be my best buddy, Khloe.)
Merry Christmas and happy holidays, everyone.

Rainbow Bridge Day

Can't believe it's been a year already. It feels like just yesterday you were still here with me. I miss you a ton, Khloe. I'm going out in a little while to get a tattoo of your pawprint. Anyway, I love you Bubbah. I feel like I should write more. I don't know what more to say. It's hard to put things like this into words. I love you, baby boy, and I always will. I'll never forget you. Thank you again for all that you did for me.

Birthday

Few days late ... I thought about you all day that day, though, Khloe. I was a mess... You would've been eight. Gone far, far too soon. There was so much we had left to do together. I'm sorry, buddy. I miss you so much. I love you, Bubbah.

Bubba

Three months will make a year since Khloe passed away. It's crazy, in some ways it feels so much longer since I've had him at my side, sometimes it feels like just yesterday he was here...
A little rant: I hate that people are so careful not to mention him around me. I was talking with a friend of my sister's, about how I have adopted another dog. She asked if we still had Khloe, I told her that he had passed away. She apologized. "Sorry, I didn't mean to bring it up." I understand that they don't want to upset me. I get it, really. I just wish they wouldn't. It hurts me, like we're pretending he was never here, you know?
I feel so alone sometimes. He was my dog. My buddy. Always at my side. So I'm the only one really feeling the impact of losing him. I wouldn't want anyone else to hurt like I do at losing him, but it's hard to be grieving alone.

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Wishing Kail was a bit more like you today, Khloe! It's rainy and nasty outside - you'd be content to stay inside on a day like today (you'd actually fight me if I tried to get you outside, BOL). Kail sure isn't.

Love you, Khloe. You're always on my mind, but slowly, I'm learning to go on. I'm starting to think of happier memories... I still cry, of course, but I'm starting to be able to smile when I remember you. I won't ever forget you. You helped me so much, taught me so much, changed me in a way that even though you're no longer here physically, you're here with me still in my heart, in who I am. Thank you, Bubba... ♥

7 years

Yesterday made seven years since the day we adopted Khloe. I always teased him that he'd live to be twenty, because he'd be too darn stubborn to leave me... He's supposed to still be here. It just doesn't feel right without him.

Sorry..

Khloe,
Momma's sorry she hasn't written lately. I still cry for you every day, and I think about constantly... I miss you so much, Bubba. I kiss your urn goodnight every night and I talk to Kail about you all the time.
Sasha misses you. Poor girl doesn't understand why her best friend is gone ... I guess I don't understand either. You were too young, Bubba. Remember, Momma used to tease you and say you'd live to be at least twenty 'cause you'd be too stubborn to leave me? Anyway, I was watching a video of you the other day and Sasha heard you bark ... She looked around, and then at me with the saddest look on her face (sadder than normal ... she IS a basset, constant sad expression, heh), and she's tried to get to your urn (I've shown it to her, she sniffed it and wagged her tail ...).
Anyway, love you buddy...

Missing you.

Missing you a bunch today, Khloe. It's nice having Kail around... She made me cry yesterday when we took her home - she didn't want to get in the car, just like you when we adopted you. But she's definitely not you, Bubba. She's knocking around a toy right now, it's one of your old ones, but you never played with it. She's a playful little thing. Loves food (you never really did). She's not too sure of me yet. I know I'll come to love her... It won't be the same though, Bubba. I don't think I'll ever love another dog like I love you.

New Pup

We adopted a year old Border Collie/Saluki mix today from the SPCA named Kail... (Profile number on here is 1225111) If Khloe were here, he'd be so jealous and angry, but I know he wouldn't want me to be so depressed, & I need a dog in my life... Nobody will ever replace you, Bah Bah. I love you so much, Buddy.