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Lovin my life

Has it really been 6 months?

Maggie sweet girl, I was looking at the calender today and I was struck by the length of time since you crossed the bridge. I couldnt help but wonder has it really been six months since you left me? I miss you so much. I miss sitting down on the floor or the ground with a brush and undercoat rake in hand and you laying between my knees while I brushed all the dead hair out of your fur. I always tried to be so gentle over the scar on your shoulder where you had been shot. I look over at your urn sitting on the shelf and wonder how things would have been had we met when you were a pup. I found one of your old rabies tags here while back and the other day I took the dremel and engraved your name and the words Forever Loved on it. Because sweetie that is what you will always be. You will always be my sweet sugar bear, my #1 girl, my special angel. You came into my life when I needed you the most and sweetheart you taught me about how to let go of the ones that we truly love. Some day I hope that you will be there at the bridge when I get there and I hope that you will remember me. I miss you girl and I love you always. My sugar bear you are forever loved. Momma

I miss you sweet girl

I cant believe its been a whole month since you went to the bridge. Maggie girl I miss you so much. I would give anything just to hold you in my arms and kiss that soft fur between your ears. I can hold your urn but its not you. I want to see those beautiful eyes of yours and watch you do your happy dances that you did for your food and for walks with your backpacks. I am sick again because of my stomach but I cant afford to get it taken care of right now. Not with everything else that we have to pay out. Like a repair bill on the bye bye ride. And Andy's class ring. He said to tell you he loves and misses you too. I think he sees you more now because you go to him when he is awake. I just wish I could see you too. In the spring on the day after your gotcha date we are going to take a small amount of your ashes and scatter them up at Shackamack so that you can be free. I love you more than I could ever tell you baby girl.

You are home again sweet girl

Its been two long and painful weeks since you left me girl. Taking you to the vet out of state for your cremation was a hard thing to do even though you were a dogsickle cause we had to freeze you cause the car was broken down. Every bump every twist every turn I made I could hear your body move. I kept telling you I was sorry. The vet did wonderful with your remains. If you had not had cancer and lost so much weight you would not have fit in your urn. As it stands there isnt much room between the lid and the top of your ashes. When we got there to pick you up today,someone didnt get the memo and you were in what looked like either a pringles can or a tootsie roll tube but they got you in your urn and brought you back to me. Right now you are laying here by me on the bed. Daddy wants to take a small bit of your ashes and scatter them to the winds so that not only are we giving you back to the creator but we are setting you free. No more fences to hold you. Now you can run forever free until we are together again. I LOVE YOU FOREVER.