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last day's on earth w/my mommy!

hi my sweet little boy!

I just wanna say hello son and that I sure love you and miss you so very much. and I really want you home.I feel so lonly without you. I miss you every time i go some where do any thing out side and go to bed and your never there anymore. some times it feels like inside i need to just give up on life but then i remember my mom and my husband and my son and then i think i just cant leave them behind. but then the pain comes back and then i start over again wishing i was with you. but daddy has promiced me that when i die he will dig you up and wrap you in satin material and then he will put you in my arms in my casket so we will always be together forever.
so then we will be together. for some reason that makes me feel some better,it does give me some peace of mind knowing that will happen for us. well son i guess i have taken up enough of your time. just remember that i love you and i always will and i always have. please son dont ever forget me. -----------------love you: mommy

2 months now!!!!!

well it's been 2mo.s now and I still cry. I cant go on his profile coz I cry. I try just to go on but omg it's so hard. everything reminds me of him. taking a shower he use to lay on the rug in front of the shower. he use to lay in the kitchen when I would cook. he would meet me at the gate when I would leave and come home [ if he didnt go].

every thing reminds me of him. geez when will it end? i just feel so sad every single day that goes by I cry. I just wish he was here w/me. some people say that its not healthy to have feelings like this for a pet. is it? I dont know? do you? all I know is I want him back in my life. I dont want to get on dogster any more coz thats why I was on it in the first place. The other dogs I got help a little but not near enough. I love them but I just want rockywayne back. period.

my husband says I just felling sorry for my self and that I wyne but I geuinely am hurting on the inside. I just wish he and all could understand just how bad I miss him and how bad I hurt and how lonley I am with out him by my side and in my life.

I love you son!: love always mommy

mommy still cry's!

well to day mommy tried to go to my page and she still cant't cause every time she does she starts crying. i know that it takes time but i just worry. i love her and i worry. daddy told her yesterday to stop whining about me cause he's tired of it and its getting on his nerves. she started crying again. daddy loved me but he didnt understand mine and mommy's bond.i loved my daddy but i just wish he could try to understand how mommy feels so he could help her. i hear her all the time crying and how she feels alone and wish's how she was here w/me. i hate her feeling like that.i remember when she laughted all the time playing w/me. she dont laugh anymore or smile. oh how i wish i good go back home to her. i know i cant but it breaks my little heart to see her hurting like this. i all ways knew it would be hard foe her if i went first but i really never knew it would be this hard for her. i knew i would be heart broken if she went first and grieve my self for her but she is really greiving bad. she dont go on dogster no more she really doesnt do much any more. she ask me today why god takes us good and loved alot furkids and leaves the abused and discarded ones to live and suffer. and makes our furless mommys suffer .she allso asked me to ask god what she did so wrong in her life that he would take me away like he did. you know what he told me? he said nothing that she had done nothing. it was just my time to go. like when it mommys time she will go. my daddy want have done nothing wrong or vice a versa it just will be there time to go.but to tell the truth i wonder to why i had to leave my mommy so soon to. i wish i could of stayed alittle longer .i wasnt ready to leave mommy just yet. well i gotta go i hear nunnie barking for me to go play so guess i'll go for now. love all ways and many tail wags from heaven: rockywayne-------------ps. i love you mommy and i see you and i'm all ways watching over you! bye!